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 Posted: Sat Sep 04, 2010 2:38 am
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Posted: Thu Sep 16, 2010 7:11 pm
Spring 16, Year 1
Feels weird to be writing 'year one' in my journal, but since the name of the town has changed, might as well go with the flow.
What a start to the year! My daughter had her birthday, which means I'm getting older. God, I am not looking forward to my thirtieth. I don't want to have to take a step back and look at my life as if it's over, I just want to keep on plowing ahead.
Not much has happened. The usual festivals (Haruka was a finalist in the Cooking Contest, got us some free crap), the usual bar-hopping (is it me, or are there more kids than ever hanging around there? I swear, there was at least one minor when I last went), the usual Yuuto-teasing. He's done with school, he's back in town, and now he's a teacher. I won't comment on the painful lack of creativity. Oops, I guess I already did.
What do I want to accomplish for this year? I don't know, keeping my house and business would be nice, and I'd like to not die. Do those count?
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Posted: Fri Oct 29, 2010 6:11 am
Summer 29, Year 1
Well, it's almost the end of summer, and what a relaxing one it has been. Business has been going slow as usual, but the occasional job gives me enough cash to relax. Haruka's been busy with her hobbies, Yuuto's been busy with his work (thank god).
Mmm, what has happened? Went on a blind date at the Valentine's Day thing. He was nice, but I've realized I'm still not that thrilled about jumping into another relationship any time soon. That's a terrifying thought. My birthday's coming up, what if this is permanent? Ugh. I wish I were turning twenty again.
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Posted: Thu Jan 06, 2011 9:48 pm
Spring 7th, Year 2 Hahah, it's a little embarrassing. Here it is, well into my thirtieth year, and nothing has changed.
Well, that's a lie. Haruka is sixteen now! God, she's old. God, I'M old. Carly moved away. That was a bit of a bummer. I finally hired a receptionist, Raiden. He's an interesting kid, and he has experience, so I have no complaints~ Haruka is still wary of him, though.
This year looks promising! I've met some new people, so I have good feelings about things.
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Posted: Sun Jan 23, 2011 6:48 pm
Spring 24, Year 2 Huh. What an eventful Spring it's been. I guess that is a good thing?
Surprisingly, Haruka was eager to go to the Cooking Festival again this year! I was sure that after last year, she would boycott the whole thing. Of course, she was still mad, because she signed me up as her partner. I... have a new found respect for cooks. It's hard! I did terribly throughout, so we didn't rank well at all. Haruka, I'm sorry... Oh, and the judges blamed it all on me! Excuse me, I'm new at this! But I won't let it get to me. It's just a silly cooking contest...
After that we went to the Goddess Festival~ God, how long has it been since I had last been there? I had to be a teenager. It had changed, but it was still, in essence, the same lovely festival I remember. Haruka is finally old enough to enter, you know. She said she'd only enter if I did, but... I don't know, most of the girls who are nominated are always young and pretty. I don't know how I'd compare. Oh, that reminds me! I spoke with Hayden again. I hadn't seen him since New Year's, so it was nice to chat again. I should really befriend more artists. It's refreshing, talking to someone with the same interests.
It was a nice festival, even if... It seems there was some sort of conflict. I remember hearing a gunshot or something. I didn't pay much attention, because... well, it reminded me of the Masquerade. I know I haven't written about the Masquerade yet, but... I really don't want to relive that again. I'd rather just forget it ever happened.
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Posted: Fri Apr 22, 2011 2:49 pm
Years 3 & 4 Check time skip forum for information on goings-on during this time.
Not that there's much to report.
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Posted: Tue Jun 07, 2011 2:42 am
Summer 1, Year 5 It's been a busy spring, I guess you can say. I somehow ended up judging the cooking festival this year. And to think that I almost skipped so that Haruka could spend it alone! It was fun, but I respect cooks a lot more now. Apparently not everyone can cook. I thought I was an exception, maybe not so much. Then, there was the Goddess Festival, which Haruka entered... She didn't win, but I'm sure she was close.
But while the festivals have been fun, I have been in a bit of a... mood, lately. I'm not sure what you'd call it. Haruka turned nineteen at the beginning of the year, you know, and she's just so grown up and beautiful. It seems like yesterday, she was making necklaces out of bubble gum wrappers. And now she's tall and fashionable and has a job, and probably will be bringing a boy home soon. At the beginning of the year, I was feeling a little a nostalgic, so I decided to go past the playground on my walk around the area. I ended up meeting a man who turned out to be a huge creep, and I totally fell for his lies. When did I become like that? Ten years ago, I had a sense as sharp as a knife, and I could easily figure out who had ulterior motives and who was genuine. It's like I'm letting everyone take advantage of my sympathy lately.
If that wasn't bad enough, I feel like I've been forced to see myself and my age and what my life is like. Don't get me wrong, I love my life. I have my business, I have my daughter, I have my friends. But I'm not in my twenties anymore. I'm turning thirty-four this year. I'm almost to forty. Is it too early for a midlife crisis? I don't know why I feel this way. Just seeing everyone, out having fun, fooling around, casually enjoying their youth, I feel like I'm letting it get away from me. I'm almost out of time, you know? I met a guy at a bar who made me realize that I haven't been with anyone since I was twenty-five. That's seven years I was single. I know, I'm not into dating, so that makes things hard, but should I be having a dry spell that long at my age? I feel like I'm being pressured to find something meaningful. The older Haruka gets, the more she becomes independent, the lonelier I get, and maybe it would be a good thing to have someone close to me. But it's not that easy. Sure, I'm aware that I've been single for a while, and now I'm ready to change that, maybe, but I still feel off. I'm not as young or as thin or as pretty as I was back then.
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Posted: Fri Jul 01, 2011 4:51 am
Summer 30, Year 5 Maybe it's because it's summer, but I'm really feeling better. I went to see Hayden, and we spent some time chatting about work and other things. I think I just needed to spend some time with a friend, someone who could understand what I was going through. Or maybe it's just time that helped. I mean, I've decided that I'm ready to start dating again, and even though nothing has come of it, I feel better, like a weight's been taken off my shoulder, however much of a cliche that may be. I went to Valentine's Day again this year, I was paired up with a woman named Integra. She's young, very pretty and sexy, but it didn't make me feel as insecure as I thought. Maybe I'm finally maturing. Took me long enough.
Also, I had been feeling like I had lost my job. Not my job-job, but my job as mother. Haruka doesn't need me anymore, and she's been spending less time with me lately. I feel a little useless, I guess. But I got to feel helpful again, a little while ago. It sounds kind of bad, since the circumstances weren't great. It seems like Raiden broke up with Dante, the man from the bar, and he was really emotional. Sure, I've never had Haruka come home drunk and in tears, so I wasn't entirely sure what to do, but... I think it worked out. He should be okay. He's a good guy, he'll come around. Who knows? Maybe Haruka will get her chance. She has a thing for him, I can at least tell that much. She doesn't talk to me about boys, she never has, but I can read her better than anyone. She was acting strangely around the time of the Raiden incident, and even though she got over that, her mood has become weird again, just recently. If only she were fourteen again, I could get her to talk. Now I don't think it's appropriate to force her into things anymore.
Whoever said that having a toddler is really hard has never had a nineteen year old living at home. I wonder if there are any parenting books on that.
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Posted: Fri Sep 02, 2011 9:42 pm
Spring 3, Year 6 Happy New Year! I swear, the past two seasons have just been a blur. Haruka's been out and doing things, so I've been busy with things around the house. You don't seem to realize how much other people do for you until they're unable to do it! I think she may have spoiled me a bit, doing so much cleaning and cooking. While she's out at work or whatever it is she's been doing, she's pretty unclear, I've been juggling work and household chores. Raiden's been a good sport as always, but is it my imagination, or did something happen with those two?
It hasn't been all work, though! I've met up with Hayden and Gemma a few times. We all met up at the Grindhouse for a drink (Crimson was going to come, but he never showed. I wonder how he's doing?) and then we met at the Pumpkin Festival. Hayden won, by the way. Maybe I should invest in an actual costume one of these years.
Things feel different. Maybe it's the fact that I've been spending more time with people my own age than with my daughter. It's kind of a bittersweet feeling. I haven't had friends like this in a while, but at the same time, I miss Haruka, I wish she weren't being so standoffish. Maybe this upcoming year will see some balance.
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Posted: Fri Oct 14, 2011 9:08 pm
Summer 15, Year 6 It seems that perhaps things are getting better. This past year came to an uncomfortable close, mainly because things with Haruka have been so odd. She's just been so fidgety and avoidant, it's been hard enough to keep her in the room for five minutes, let alone have a real conversation. Something happened between her and Raiden, I can reach no other explanation. What a strange thought, Raiden and Haruka! Anyway, she was sick for a little while, around her birthday (Twenty! God, I'm getting old) which worked out for the best, if only because it trapped her in one place. She had to face me when I held the medicine hostage! She's talking to me again, which is good, though she still refuses to tell me what exactly is going on with her. Ah well, I wouldn't be able to call myself a proper mother if I hadn't developed a sense of patience. I can wait a bit longer. For the time being, I guess I should just be content that her mood has improved and she's opened up a bit more.
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- Hmm, do I know you?
-Acquaintances
-Friends
-Best Friends
-Attraction
-Infatuation
- Love/Family
- Marriage 