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Cassara had plenty of shirts, wraps, and pants that she hadn't thought twice about changing her out fit. Perhaps she should eventually think about doing so because honestly when it came down to it her wardrobe was rather bland. Sure she had her concert outfits but that was just suits and those certainly wouldn't do for today- especially since there was a good chance of what ever she wore getting blood stained and tore up and heaven only knew what else.

"Never been more sure of anything than I am now. Well," she grinned, "I was sure of things when I married you." She stretched the length of her human form as they walked.

"Failure is the only thing I fear. The fog will make me face my fears... That is why I am damn near positive that this will work," she gave Kaida's hand a good squeeze. "Worst case the Island sees me as a play toy. We both know he's a greedy selfish pig. And, if I get raped again," she took a deep breath. "I've got you. I've always got you. Always had you." So, maybe she had a second (unexpressed) fear.

"We're as close as possible," Cassara answered as she hugged Kaida tightly. "Once step into that fog and I'm fairly certain we're going to get separated and forced into facing what we fear alone." Her voice was softer than it ever had been- it was this that actually told of how she felt and that she did have more fears than she was letting on to.

She stepped away from her lover and looked at her violin. It was the object that helped her through so much and she hoped that it would work with this as well. She knew that she was going to need something to help her control herself...

"Just remember that once you've done what you've got to do to shove me into the mist," Cassara said as her ears flattened. "I'm totally not worried about loosing this out fit... I've got a dozen more at both living locations," she spoke of her mothers house and their own.

She didn't think twice about the second request. In a mater of moments she was on the ground. She held no regrets about her decision. Her love was that deep. "Love you," she whispered.

Cassara was strangely at peace. Anticipation was high and it made her hot all over. It was strangely almost more intimate than some of their more private moments. Feeling the world slip from her she let her eyes slip shut slowly.

She couldn't have been more content at any given time. She was in lover's arms and about to join her in forever. She knew there were consequences- she'd deal with them when the time came.

There was no fear in her that within seconds she would feel as if she being torn apart and made anew. Like an experiment in a scientific lab. It was all worth it. And, that made it easy for her.

It was the white hot pain from the venom that brought her back from the 'light'. The light she had never intended to get to close to. She knew her love was awaiting her return- making it a silent struggle to not just let go.

It felt as if every inch of her was on fire. As if she'd been thrown from heaven into hell. Every peaceful thought and content feeling she had felt previous as she slipped into the realm of darkness was ripped from her.

It was as if she had swallowed a thousand sharp objects of various sizes and shapes. And on their trip down ripped into her before settling into her stomach.

She wasn't sure if it could be heard or not or if it was even a true feeling as she felt her bones crumble. Jelly and nothing more. She was helpless, lifeless as the virus took control of her.

As she lost control she lost her human form- not entirely but just enough to make her look awkward. Everything went haywire. Parts of her would revert back to dragon and then back to human. Her various splotches of red freckles expanded over her body until her skin was red.

Tears collected. She would try to scream but it was pointless. It wouldn't let her have her voice just yet. And, thus it remained in her head. It forced her to take everything it had.

When she thought it couldn't possibly get any worse her entire life flashed before her- out of order. The virus picked and choose what it wanted to see- her to see. Granted there were some pretty good memories. However, there were the times she had fought so hard to forget.

It was at that moment that her body reverted back to an entirely human shape with the exceptions of her tail, horn, and ears. Her eyes shot open as she sucked in a breath.

"No," was the first word she spoke. The last memory she had been forced to watch was when he'd climbed atop of her and she'd been forced.

The virus was nasty and cruel. It had a mind of its own. She just hoped that that was the last time it would be so violent with the exception of her new found need for blood to survive. But, it was no worse, no better than the island itself.

Cassara's skin was extra sensitive. She felt the dirt and grass beneath her shift as she was rolled into the fog. It was chiller. She rolled onto her stomach and dug her fingers, that were turning into claws, into the earth. She was forcing herself onto all fours. Her tail swung carelessly, heavily behind her. She felt lighter and it made balance difficult.

She watched as red scales formed up her arms. It was then that she realized that she was still not in control of herself- far from it. She jerked her head upwards as she roared. Bits of her randomly transformed from human to dragon and back again.

In all this it felt that her brain was being ripped apart. Every sense was heightened. She drew in a deep breath and quickly coughed. It was strange how unnecessary this human function was now. She felt the trickle of blood run down her nose. She had to blink a couple of times to focus.

"Who's there?" She whispered as her ears swivled.

Kaida sat taking shuddering breaths as she tried to ignore the part that screamed at her to go back and grab Cas and never let her go because she knew she couldn’t do that, this was Cas’s time. She alone had to figure out how to handle the Virus, Kaida couldn’t tell her – mainly because everyone handled it differently. Her Sire had embraced it like a long lost brother, she’d spent years fluctuating in and out of a coma like state as they tried to find even foot before coming to a mutual agreement but she’d only been able to do that because the Virus didn’t know how to deal with her kind, Cas didn’t have that luxury.

Suddenly she shot up, barley breathing. Up until now the Virus had been practically purring in her mind, so happy that she had finally turned another, but now it was snarling in fury – not at her but at her Fledge. Fear pumped through her veins and headless of Cassara’s previous warnings she ran headlong into the fog and to her mate.

What she found in the fog nearly broke her. “No, No, No. Not my Cas, not my darling mate. Please” she begged, practically wailing at the site before her. Her beloved Cas lying broken on the ground, a pool of inactive Virus – a deeply unsettling dark blue – spreading out around her as it flowed from her eyes, nose and ears. She’d feared this from the start, remembered the terror that had filled her when her Sire had whispered words of it as he slowly drained her. Her shining star had fought against the Virus and hadn’t won, but neither had the Virus, and in what would have been an agonizing last few minutes died.

All Kaida could do in the face of this revelation was scream to the heavens her grief, voice almost giving out.