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Hopefolly

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PostPosted: Mon Jan 04, 2010 1:43 am


Jude had taken the conversation between he and Grayson into account when he found the time to think about the unfortunate turn of events between Hero and Aurelia. True, when you were alone and living in a truck, all you had to do was think, so it didn't take very long.

The alarm clock he used to wake himself up in time for work was nestled between the seat and a snoozing cat, but judging by the faintest hint of night in the sky, it was as suitable a time to call as any.

The phone wasn't his. Like he could afford it. Barnaby was a good friend to have--or whatever title fit him most accurately. "Heir", friend, it didn't matter just then. Jude could only worry about so much at a time.

Five minutes later he actually found it in him to dial the number. This was, he knew, something they should discuss in person. That was easier said than done.

"Hey, baby--Hero. Hey, Hero." Smooth save, Romeo. "We need to talk, okay? --Here. On the phone."

Jude translation: Don't hang up on me, God.
PostPosted: Mon Jan 04, 2010 2:15 am


"Excuse me." Hero's voice was crisp, and he could hear her covering up her cellphone to talk to her roomie: "It's a private call. I'll go." Whatever Miriam Jacobs was going to say in response was lost to the mists of time and cellphone reception, but he could hear Hero moving through her dorm, through the rooms, until she at last apparently came upon somewhere that suited her. Jude could hear the door shut behind her, the klik of a lock, and the scrape of a chair as she sat herself down.

"Hi."

She sounded a little awkward. Businesslike. Obviously she had not done this a lot before. It definitely wasn't 'hey, baby'. But she was all work at first, and he could hear her, terse, voice low: "Is it Zodiac business? Do you need the team? If you tell me your location I'll come to you -- " He was already protesting, equally awkwardly, and she said, "Ah. No. Well."

Pause.

Awkward pause.

"Hello."

Hero wasn't particularly good at this.

"Is something up?"

Or romantic.

candy lamb


Hopefolly

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PostPosted: Mon Jan 04, 2010 2:26 am


Jude was indifferent when it came to phone conversations. They weren't bad or good things to him, just sort of there. It wasn't the medium of their talk that was troubling him, but the content.

He was the type of person to step in only when he felt the one facing a problem couldn't handle it themselves. Hero was a capable woman, he didn't deny that. Just... This was his fault, from what he could tell, and he couldn't just play the normal role of background noise in it. Not when it was about him or Hero, let alone both of them and some third party.

"Third party"?

If Grayson was right, no damn wonder Aurelia was so pissed.

"I don't need a team. I never want a team, for the record."

Pause.

Awkward pause.

"Yeah, something is up, but I'm not completely sure what it is. Before you say anything, let me finish. Please. If I'm wrong, I'll come over there and you can throw a rock at me or something. Anyway, Ser told me you and Aurelia were fighting, and I talked to Grayson when we were out patrolling." If she wasn't annoyed yet, maybe she'd be surprised instead. Sagittarius and Leo? The two most arguably lazy Zodiac about patrolling doing so together? "I don't want you to fight with Aurelia over me, Hero. She's your best friend. If I died tomorrow, she would still be your best friend. I know you know that, even if you're mad."

He really needed to breathe, but he didn't want to stop. The second he did, he expected her to start talking, and if he got a word in after that, it would be a surprise. If only he could remember what all he wanted to say. "I may have caused unintended harm, and I'm sorry."
PostPosted: Mon Jan 04, 2010 2:32 am


"Mr. Lawson." The interrupting chill of her voice had dropped somewhere to 'icecream' level, and Jude began to realise the depths of what he had gotten himself into: well, maybe he had realised it before. Hero Barrett could be extraordinarily cold. She kept her voice even. "I have no idea what kind of -- grapevine -- is busily discussing the nature of the -- disagreement between myself and Miss Thorne." Of course she did. He'd said as much. It was called 'Serenade Soriano.' "I am hardly fighting with her over you."

Except that was a distinct lie.

He could tell that Hero was tired.

"Jude, I'm your Captain. I am your leader. I hardly get into petty catfights over -- over you! What on earth would be the reason?" He could rattle her off a bunch. "There's hardly even a disagreement. No. It's a -- debate, over morality issues. A genteel debate. A gentlewoman's debate. No. Aurelia Thorne and I are Perfectly. Fine."

And there was the temper --

"Did you really call me up to remind me of the nature of friendship, Jude? I'll give you grace points for patrolling with Grayson -- " you know, 'patrolling' -- "but for God's sake, you don't need to give me a parable about the joy of friendship. Miss Thorne is being a small-minded, immovable..."

...

Thus came the point where they both realised that she'd revealed too much.

Hero sighed over the line. She was rubbing at her temples. Her voice was curt. "Gentleman's disagreement. They happen. I'm charmed that you rang about it. Sentimentality's your vice, Jude, and so's guilt -- are you certain you're not Catholic?"

They both suffered from the same tragedy; not letting the other get a word in edgeways most of the time. He had expected this.

candy lamb


Hopefolly

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PostPosted: Mon Jan 04, 2010 2:45 am


"I don't remember saying I wasn't Catholic." He wasn't. Anymore. "Raised as one, yes, but that really doesn't have anything to do with this." Yet he still felt the need to clarify. Why did he always do that?

The ball of don't-talk-while-I'm-talking was back in his court.

"And, yeah, Hero, I really did. I wasn't sure about it before, but I am now. If you're going to use me as some emotional punching bag, go ahead. I can take it." Some of it; far less of it than he thought he could just then. An all-seeing power could have laughed at how alike they looked as Jude rubbed his temples. A blind one wouldn't have known a thing, because their voices didn't match. He sounded sincere, cautious and concerned. "If I had to live with the emotions of a rock, Hero, I'd rather be buried under a real one."

Something about the way he said that was unnerving, but not accusatory. If he was pointing a finger like he usually did, it wasn't at her this time.

"Hero, just listen to me about this. Whatever you are fighting about, I swear to you it's not worth this. Marcel is dead, Hero. My best friend is dead. I will never see him again. Ever. I will never get to tell him sorry for s**t I did wrong or bad things I said to him. I know she won't die tomorrow, but she could. Are you sure you're not forgetting that?"

Maybe he was forgetting Chronos could just bring them back, or maybe he intentionally left it out since it didn't exactly support his side of this.
PostPosted: Mon Jan 04, 2010 2:55 am


There was silence over the line for long moments. They both listened to each other's breathing. He was either going to get a Hero toes the party line answer, or she was going to break down and confess and be true. The line buzzed a little.

Too bad. Party line.

"Any of us could die." Her voice was clipped. "We are the Zodiac Guard. We seem to make a practice of it. If taking each day as it comes means I have to live with Miss Thorne wringing her hands over a few marks that could have entirely been battle scars -- "

She drew herself up short again, breathing a little harder. He could translate that too: 'Aurelia Thorne saw my hickeys. We had an argument.'

"Jude, for God's sake don't get so overemotional. I'm sorry Marcel is dead. You need to control yourself." As though he were a hysterical woman. "I am absolutely certain I have died before with things unsaid and things undone, and I most likely will again."

Jude and Hero: a lovesong of manic depressives.

"Until that day, I do not have to have the entire world sit and eat peanuts watching Miss Thorne and I have a disagreement." Beat. "Debate." Beat. "Do you want me to use you as an emotional punching bag? Take this one: you dwell on the past so thoroughly you should look into being a historian."

Now she was frustrated. Now she was angrier. "You're lecturing me because I'm not as sentimental as you are, as forgiving. My God, Miss Thorne dying tomorrow -- how could she -- I'm much too light on all of your training, my God -- "

A Catholic and an Anglican. They could possibly just kill each other now.

candy lamb


Hopefolly

Familiar Celebrant

PostPosted: Mon Jan 04, 2010 3:05 am


Originally, he'd chosen the phone out of cowardice. Turns out there was a list of reasons this was a good idea. He got to roll his eyes without her seeing, and as she kept going, he looked over to the cat staring at him and mocked the motion of a non-stop moving mouth with his hand.

He was content to let her ramble and fawn over his pet until-- "Overemotional? Do I sound overemotional?" No, she did. But they both were in different ways, the hypocrites. He might as well of not bothered since she just kept going.

Called him an historian. (He knew he wasn't.)

Accused him of lecturing her. (He didn't think he was.)

Started stumbling over her words. (He'd admit it was almost funny.)

Jude closed his eyes and pinched the bridge of his nose. "I love you," he told her abruptly. Was he trying to shush her or just remind himself? "Which is why I would listen to you if you thought I was doing something wrong." Oh. It made more sense now. (Nevermind it wasn't one hundred percent true.) "And why I hope you'll listen to me. She's not going to die. Our training is fine. You're doing fine."

Jude Lawson had just admitted a woman was doing fine as a leader. That pig that flew by Grayson's window was back again.

"I'll consider it a personal favor if you try and work things out with Aurelia. To ease my guilt. This has been really distracting me from blaming myself because Marcel died." He was joking at the end, but it wasn't really funny.
PostPosted: Mon Jan 04, 2010 3:10 am


There was another long silence over the phone. Eventually, she sighed. "Blackmail." A long pause. "You are, Mr. Lawson, inutterably versed in emotional blackmail; you are one hell of a nag of a wife, you are a -- "

She made another short, brisk sound. "I love you." Hero sounded depressed. He hadn't known her to ever sound this depressed. "I love you. This won't come to any good, you know. Aurelia and I -- well." He could hear the chair lean back as she obviously stopped posture and creaked it backwards, into the wall. "Miss Thorne and I have known each other since childhood. We grew up on the same street. My parents found it convenient for myself to be around her family, and her parents found it convenient for us to go to the same nursery -- Jude." A little urgent. "She is not about to forgive me for what she sees as an irreparable sin: taking up with the first man who offered for me."

Hero's voice was filled with scorn. "You're appealling, Jude, but you're not exactly a vile seducer. No, she doesn't blame you in this -- she thinks I'm suddenly a manic slut."

candy lamb


Hopefolly

Familiar Celebrant

PostPosted: Mon Jan 04, 2010 3:21 am


"I--"

Jude halted like he had when he barely noticed the stop sign driving earlier. Continuing that sentence ("I was really the first one to try?") was a bad, bad idea.

"Uh, thanks." Not that he'd expect to be seen as unappealing to his girlfriend, but always nice to be given a compliment. Or something. "Well..." Well, ********, he really didn't know what to say anymore. "Are you sure this isn't just because you guys aren't spending as much time together? I can't really bring myself to believe a friend you've had that long would turn on you over this."

It didn't matter it was Aurelia, who he didn't really know all that well considering he was having a conversation about her. Friends just didn't stop being friends in Jude's world. He could have called up any of his old pals from back home, and would have expected them to remember everything about him. They probably would have. Fairview was a small town where everyone knew everyone. It had shaped the image of what a real friend was for Jude.

Real friends never left real friends.

Unless they died. Like Marcel did.

Damn it. He was proving her right, wasn't he?

"And I'm not 'versed in blackmail', I'm just trying to help." That's my real problem here. "But if that really is the case, then all it should take is time, right? Once she realizes this isn't some fling, won't it be more justified then?" That wasn't how he thought of it, per say, but he was trying to think in her shoes, not his. "I just want to help, Hero. I'm not used to wanting to be involved with this kind of thing, so bare with me that I'm going to suck at it."
PostPosted: Mon Jan 04, 2010 3:27 am


"Of course you're going to suck at it." She sounded professional, brisk. "Lawson, the relationship between Miss Thorne and I -- is -- complex. She thinks I've sinned against her; in the parameters of our relationship, perhaps I have. When you share your entire life with another person, it is... not unreasonable, sometimes... to be shocked at that kind of secret. It's true she's rooming with Giselle." She sounded irritated. "That was hardly my fault, I got landed with Miriam Jacobs. -- No, it's the sin of omission, Jude."

At least she thought so.

There was a lot of other stuff to it, which prompted --

Awkward silence.

Long, awkward silence.

It gave birth to tinier, awkwarder silences.

Eventually, she said: "Jude." Quiet. "Marcel probably knew. I won't presume to say -- anything else."

candy lamb


Hopefolly

Familiar Celebrant

PostPosted: Mon Jan 04, 2010 3:34 am


He was spared the embarrassment of having her seeing him visibly startle. By the end of this, he'd consider finding the money to get a phone somehow; they were more useful than anticipated. "Knew what?" Before she could answer, he cut her off: "Nevermind. Marcel didn't know anything. He was an idiot." Birds of a feather, as they say.

"I'm not..." Jude rubbed his forehead with one hand and the stomach of his purring cat with the other. The phone rested between his ear and his shoulder. "I'm not good with anything like this. If I was there with you I couldn't say this crap. I don't know why. I'm working on it. I'm sorry for before, Hero. I didn't mean to guilt you into that. You can love Aurelia or Chronos or whatever else more than me, alright?"

Just because he didn't directly address it didn't mean he missed the depressive tone earlier, saying she loved him no less. It was too heartbreaking from him to acknowledge fully for now. He really was trying, but an emotional toddler taking their first steps never walked flawlessly.
PostPosted: Mon Jan 04, 2010 5:59 pm


Instead of giving him any useful reply whatsoever, she said: "Has the cat had kittens yet? The vet said that he wasn't sure of the due date, but they can't wean properly for eight weeks, though we can start at five." The phone was swapped to the other ear. "I've found some Crystal girls who are interested if I take cellphone pics, which I will once they no longer look like mice. You have no idea the amount of girls who will do anything for a kitten sob story -- "

Hero: flawlessly switched the topic.

candy lamb


Hopefolly

Familiar Celebrant

PostPosted: Mon Jan 04, 2010 6:08 pm


They were both too different and too alike.

"No, Hero." Jude frowned and scratched behind the ears of the very cat she was rambling on about. The kittens were yet another problem. How was he going to take care of a bunch of poor babies in a truck? "No kittens."

Subject change.

"I'm leaving Destiny City for a few days. I think I need to. I'll be back." The schedule on the dashboard had every employee name listed, followed by their hours of work day-by-day. Three of Jude's, in order, said only one thing: OFF.

Had he timed this out on purpose, knowing he'd end up leaving?

"Try and work things out with Aurelia when I'm gone. I need to think. About things."

Lots and lots of things.

For everything he was awful at, there were two things he could always do: think and run away. The notable difference this time? He actually told someone before hand.
PostPosted: Mon Jan 04, 2010 7:27 pm


Well, this was a ******** a pause she said: "All right. I'll have someone cover for you." For his duties. Where he was going, she didn't ask. It could have been anywhere. If he wanted to tell her, he'd tell her; if he didn't, he didn't; she could cope with that, because she was his Captain. And all she would cope with was the absence of Sagittarius. Damnit, he'd miss Saturday. "Whatever you think about, don't think about it too hard."

Was that a little wry?

"You need your brain to function."

candy lamb


Hopefolly

Familiar Celebrant

PostPosted: Mon Jan 04, 2010 7:40 pm


"I'm not a man of promise or promises, but I'll try not to. Take care of yourself, Captain." Jude hung up before she could even register the title. He'd used it twice now, and neither were the way she'd have liked. He didn't say 'Captain' how she wanted; she didn't say 'I love you' how he wanted.

"I hope you like dogs," he mumbled under his breath to the cat.

The truck sped off toward the house of Barnaby Price, and after that, he had no idea.
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