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 Posted: Sat Oct 24, 2009 4:11 pm
[A Private RP Between: Nafsiumiza (Played by: Seaki) and Kitisho (Played by: iGotGreen)] iGotGreen:
Fresh was the morning, the grass was damp, the birds were just waking up and the sun just barely began crawling across the sky. Kitisho awoke to some twittering outside the family den he shraed with siblings, half siblings and a new 'Mother' figure. He didn't quite know what to call her so he didn't call her anything. It was never 'Hey Mom'. He was displeased with his current family situation and guarded his real siblings from a distance.
He moved from the den, sleep filled eye's blinking a coupel tiems before clearing up from the just waking daze he had discovered to be annoying. The sun's peeking rays burned his eye's a moemnt before he relaxed into teh starting of the day. It would be fine. He smiled to himself and wandered a bit from teh entrance before seating himself and taking in a deep breath.
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Posted: Sat Oct 24, 2009 4:24 pm
Seaki:
Nafsi woke with a start, sensing one of the cubs awake. Green eyes blinking away the achy sleep, sleeping off the drunken high of intense pain. A sigh and a mumble, she pulled her small body away fromthe clustered group of cubs and watched as one of her children made his escape from the den.
Her heart ached, she new the cubs she had already considered her own did not return her feeling. A sigh escaped her, before she decided on following the young male.
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Posted: Sat Oct 24, 2009 4:28 pm
iGotGreen:
Kitisho was well aware of the new body moving behind him, he could already smell the female. This Nafsi, his Father's current mate. He felt intruded upon as she got closer and tensed a bit but, made no attempt to shoo her away or even say a word for that matter. He treated her neutrally, as his Father would have asked if Kiti even attempted to make a move to push her away from the den, along with her cubs. He didn't want them here. He likes his original family, him and his two siblings and HIS Dad, not their Dad. He almost grumbled at this thought and even nearly wanted to cry. He remembered being so close to his Father when he was younger. Now his time with him grew shorter, he still felt the love though and cherished it deeply but, started feeling pushed aside. He gazed to the sky as he got emotional and thought of his old playmate. "Rose.." He murmurs softly, his Queen. This makes him smile momentarily.
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Posted: Sat Oct 24, 2009 4:38 pm
Seaki:
Nafsi stopped in her tracks, unsire if she should go forward. She wanted to talk to him, make him understand everything and just... She wanted all of her cubs to love her. The small female decided she didn't like this time of pain, pain inflicted upon the heart - emotional pain, her mother once said.
"Kitisho... May." She paused. "May I talk with you for a bit?" She asked, hoping he wouldn't shove her away. No, this pain, this fear of rejection enveloped her chest in a strange way.
She knew, though, that there would be ill-will against her from the cubs Nauja brought with him, back from his flings, but she couldn't help but love them.
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Posted: Sat Oct 24, 2009 4:54 pm
iGotGreen:
He held a huff, that was dangerously close to coming out, come out. He looked to the ground, Rose dissipating from his mind and hsi smile leaving his maw. "Sure." He shrugged lightly, and brought his body to the ground placing his chin on his paws and looking straight ahead. Her voice had startled him even if he had known she was there. He despised her for being here when his own Mom was not. He was hurt from teh split and this wasn't helping. No where in his mind would he ever blame his Father though it really was his fault, or started appearing that way. He sighed softly. "What is it Nafsi..?" He didn't hide his dislike but, didn't show it off. He refused to call her Mom, that wasn't in her rights he believed. He really was growing up in his mind, really fast, a Juve and already feeling hate. It was tough and hurt him inside.
So much emotion adn no where to let it out.
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Posted: Sat Oct 24, 2009 4:55 pm
Seaki:
Nafsi gave a small flinch back, but sat down a bit behind the caramel colored cub. "I just want to apologize," she said with a clear voice - as clear she could make it anyhow. "It wasn't my intention... I didn't know why Mauja left me for such a long time... I didn't know he would come back with cubs," She breathed out. The pain in her chest would soon cause tears, but she forced them back. She was weak - she already knew that.
The lioness could already feel the rejection, she didn't want to feel it though. She pushed the emotions aside and went silent.
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Posted: Sat Oct 24, 2009 5:15 pm
iGotGreen:
A pain in Kitisho's chest panged deeply, he could hear the hurt in her voice and forced himself to ignore it. "My Father is a free Cheetah." He wasn't used to arguements and didn't realize that what his Father had done hurt her aswell as him. "You're a lion." He said this with daggers cutting deeply into his voice. He didn't hate lions, no where near but, he had to find something to fight with and that's all he could come up with. "You aren't my Mom." His teeth bore at this statement. He knew eh was taking things a bit far and put her up on a very nasty pedestal. Violence had become a part of his nature because of his pent up rage, and being upset all the time. He didn't know what he wanted but, this family was becoming something of teh past to him. He was sure he was going to leave as soon as he could stand on his own paws.
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Posted: Sat Oct 24, 2009 5:33 pm
Seaki:
The tan lioness took in a shuttery breath, trying to control her emotions. She hadn't felt this emotional since she was a young cub. "I know, I'm sorry," she directed her face away from the young cheetah. Her head was downcast, and she repeated her apology again. She didn't want him to feel so angry, she didn't want to hurt like this, cause despite Mauja's deed, she felt the weight upon her own spine. It hurt that Mauja didn't find her worthy for his first litter, and it hurt that Mauja's own flesh and blood rejected her so deeply.
His anger though, she shivered. It would make her feel better if he wished to take out his rage upon her canvas.
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Posted: Sat Oct 24, 2009 5:35 pm
iGotGreen:
Kitisho growled violently and stood, spinning like a top to stare at her. Her head was lowered, he ignored her posture of emotional pain huffed, taking in rasping breaths. He was close to tears himself and was growing weary of all this stress piled onto him. "Stop your apologizing! Just stop!" He was glaring through tears now. "You are not and will never be my Mother." He'd gone into a childish fit of repeating the little things. Things she'd already apologized for. He was enraged, upset, pained, and wanted out so bad. He craved Saccha and that even made him more upset. "You will NEVER be part of my family!" He began raising his voice forgetting his siblings asleep in the den. "Stop trying." His voice got scary calm and his body became limp, tears wet his chin and he turned away shuddering with his attempts to do soemthing barely even adult can do. Stop the crying, stop the hurt.
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Posted: Sat Oct 24, 2009 5:44 pm
Seaki:
Tears slipped down the lioness' face, and she closed her eyes hard against them. "I'm sorry," she told him again, almost desperately. She knew - now she knew, at least, that she would never, could never, be accepted by this cub. She would always consider the young cub one of her own though. A muffled sob escaped her throat, she turned her head further, her body shaking a bit - sorrow, guilt.
She did the only thing she could think of to calm herself down. She unshethed her claws and raked them across her own arm. Blood dripped down a little, and she opened her eyes. The tears were still evident, but she could not bear to look upon the young male. The fluffy bangs covered her lime green eyes. "I'm sorry," She offered him again, in only a whisper, she didn't know what else to say...
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Posted: Sat Oct 24, 2009 5:52 pm
iGotGreen:
Kitisho was shocked out of his attempts to hide his own sobs of anger by a new scent that leaked into the air. Blood? He tasted the air again. Yes? He paused briefly, mind quickly changing rapidly. He lowered his head a bit more then turned himself back to the female. He ignored everything he felt for her then saw her. Really saw her. "Nafsi.." He whispered softly. He imagined for just a moment what she was going through. Blame flashed to his Father for a brief moment. "What are you doing?" He took a couple paw steps to her. Unsure of the blood coming from her. He stayed behind her. The quickness of his emotional change turned his stomach and he suddenly felt very ill. He sat, head spinning, stomach turning and emotions driving him up the wall. "Na.." He paused to swallow back some bile. It was nothing but, stomach acid, he hadn't eaten since earlier the day before. "Nafsi." He repeated, third time? Or fourth he coudln't recall. The blood was twisting his stomach more. "Don't do that." He was catching on, he'd seen her do this once before. It horrified, and sickened him deeply. Worse, it made him trust her less.
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Posted: Sat Oct 24, 2009 5:54 pm
Seaki:
Her nails stopped in their track across her arms. The Dopemin and Adrenaline already invading her brain and calming her further and pushing away any pain she could feel. He body slumped and she relaxed. Her gaxe turned to the horrified cub. "Kitisho," she mumbled. She imediately knew she shouldn't have done this act before the cub. She knew that not everyone could accept her deep need for pain. "Let me explain," She mumbled. But in truth, she couldn;t draw the proper words to her lips.
She stopped thoughy, placing both of her paws to the ground. She lowered her head to clean away the blood quickly, washing it away in two licks. It wouldn't go deep upon her arms anymore - the scar tissue was too deep, but it was enough to relax her. "Please, please don't hate me," she practically begged. She knew Mauja would accept her need for pain - in fact, he would inflict it upon her sometimes. But her cubs, they just wouldn't understand.
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Posted: Sat Oct 24, 2009 6:01 pm
iGotGreen:
Kitisho gazed at her.. the illness deep in his stomach grew at this sight. He was stunned, like a deer in headlights. Didn't know what to say or do, didn't even register her pleas. He took in a deep breath to stop himself from throwing up the stomach acid that threatened his throat and to calm himself slightly. He shook himself slightly, trying to wake himself from this dream, thsi nightmare. He looked at her through eye's of sudden stone. "Hate is a strong word. I just really don't like you." He turned again, away from her. Tail low with his head and stomach getting worse by teh second. He couldn't look at her more. "I'm going for a walk, Nafsi." He went silent, not waiting for permission. She wasn't his Mom, he was letting her know so that if his Father woke up he wouldn't be overly worried. All he wanted right now was to curl up under a tree and think. He wanted freedom.
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