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 Posted: Fri Oct 09, 2009 2:46 pm
((Self RP))
Being a parent was proving to be more and more difficult. These kids needed attention and it was not easy for Ylva to invest emotions that these pups clearly needed. She loved her new family, but it was doing a toll on her raising these pups.
Hunting was harder now, she HAD to bring something back no matter what and there had to be enough to go around for six mouths. Sleeping was hard, she hated her personal space being invaded and thats just what these puppies did on a constant basis.
There were good things too though. She loved watching them grow up and she really liked to see how their little personalities were shaping.
Kumo was growing daily, or so his mother often told him. It made him proud but he wished that he could tell. He was still little enough to sneak down the crystal tunnel which wasn't a bad thing, but it made him feel his mother only said he was getting bigger to make him feel better. The pup was pretty quick witted.
He was gonna confront his mother about that today. Kumo would have gone and talked with Asa, but he felt his father didn't want to be around him. It felt like a thick taint that Kumo was unable to understand. He didn't want to understand. Was there something wrong with him and his sister? The boy didn't want to know.
First thng was first though. Talk to Ylva.
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Posted: Fri Oct 09, 2009 2:55 pm
The female hyena had perched her self out side the family crystal den. She was lost in thought about this and that and family. The pups seemed to be doing fine but she just felt so bad she couldn't open up a little more to them. She wanted to be part of their lives but she also wanted to run away screaming. The hyena's head hung low as she chewed over her thoughts.
Kumo had worked his way up the caverns tunnel entrance. Not an easy task for such a small little pup, but Kumo managed it just fine. That tunnel got easier and easier to go up every time he tried.
The first thing he saw was his mother. A smile found it self on his maw, perfect. The little pup padded his way over to his mother and took a seat next to her. She seemed so deep in thought that she didn't even really notice he was sitting right next to her. What ever she was thinking about it seemed deep.
Kumo just sat there for a short moment before saying his peace.
"You really think I'm growing...?"
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Posted: Fri Oct 09, 2009 3:17 pm
The question took Ylva by surprise, she looked down at her boy and opened her maw but closed it. Was that question really why he had come up here? From of the looks of it the answer was clearly a yes. Ylva sighed.
"Yes , of course , " She refrained from calling him little one. Really , Kumo was growing and he was a little above average on the hieght charts for his age. Though, Ylva doubt she could convince him of that. It wasn't like they really had any hyena neighbors with pups the same age lurking about. At least none she knew of.
"But I don't feel different." He looked down at his paws and his ears lowered some. Clearly this had been bothering him for days, eating at him. Usually Kumo wasn't the type to keep something like that to him self.
"I mean.. when will I be as big as daddy? You think I'll be bigger?" He looked up at his mother with hopeful eyes.
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Posted: Fri Oct 09, 2009 3:37 pm
Ylva looked down at him and just stared. She had expected this not to be an easy task. Still, she didn't feel like convincing Kumo he was going to grow. This just seemed stupid and a waste of her time.
After a long moment she just shook her head, "You could be or you may be the same height. Asa's about an average size. You're a bit above average. I can't tell you if you'll be as big or bigger then him or not." She chewed her lip some not really wanting to have this waste of a time conversation.
Kumo felt shot down. It hurt to not have his mom cuddle his hopes. Though, he hadn't really expected her to. She always was so blunt and truthful to a fault. He wished she pretended she knew. Now he was down in spirits even more.
"You could have lied..." He grumbled.
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Posted: Fri Oct 09, 2009 3:45 pm
Ylva frowned, "Sorry kid I don't do well with that. " The hyena got up and stretched. "Sides, you and your brother and sisters are all about equal height right now. You're not even the shortest in the litter. Whats got you so hung up about height. Seems like you really have paid alot of thought to it kid."
Ylva peered at him with her piercing blue eyes. Really, she was trying to be a good mother. This kid was slightly pissing her off though with is stupid waste of time worries though.
Kumo frowned deeper. It still wasnt what he had wanted to hear but he supposed it was the truth.
"I want to be the biggest," He looked up at his mom. "I can't do anything when I'm so small. Maybe if I was bigger dad would pay attention to me." He trailed off some in thought.
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Posted: Fri Oct 09, 2009 3:52 pm
Ylva smacked her pups head with her paw lightly and smiled down at him.
"Hey, Asa notices you buck-o." She wanted to rip her eyes out for referring to her son as buck-o. How lame. But she was trying to be a supporting mom here. "Asa loves you. I know he does and he tries his best." She nuzzled Kumo with her nose.
This was all very awkward for Ylva.
Kumo winced at the smack but when it wasn't a hard one he relaxed. Ylva was putting forth an effort to cheer him up. Though it wasn't the best effort some one could put forth, it was amazing that Ylva was trying which made it count all that much more.
He knew his mother had a hard time showing her feelings being raised by her. Heck, Kumo had similar emotion issues. Their family was just a tad ******** up, but his parents tried. She was right.
"I know.." He said at last, but there was still sorrow seeping through those words.
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Posted: Fri Oct 09, 2009 3:59 pm
Ylva could tell he wasnt completely satisfied and it was possible she could go on and coddle him and he still wouldn't be. This had never been about his height, it had always been about Asa.
Ylva couldn't make Asa be more open with the pups. She wouldn't. Then he'd have room to make her be more open and she wouldn't have that. Ylva was trying though on her own as best as she could.
"Just don't think about it kid."
"I love you to mom..." Kumos tone was flat. He meant the words but he wasn't in such a great mood right now. He wasn't satisfied with her answers and he wasn't satisfied with him self right now.
Ylva was on the cold side too, but she was like that with everyone and she was warmest to her family. It was noticable. Asa was warm to everyone and cold to him and his almost twin sister. It hurt that Kumo couldn't have Asa be warm to him. Had he done something wrong?
His face was tangled in his inner most battling thoughts.
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Posted: Fri Oct 09, 2009 4:06 pm
Ylva knew he wasn't happy but it was just tough s**t. She couldn't do anything about inner battles, like Asa , Kumo was going to have to fight his own demons.
But she wasn't so cold. The hyena got up and scooped the pup into her jaws and started back down the tunnel. She almost never carried her pups, but for Kumo, just this once she would.
Partly for feeling guilty making things worse on the poor kid. Kumo didn't need to know she felt guilty though.
Kumo was amazed when he was lifted. Ylva never carried them unless she felt the need to. Which was rare.
The lift did its purpose, it cheered him up some. He was special enough to be carried by Ylva, what more could a hyena ask for? The hyena let out a small yawn and closed his eyes. He was still so young and in need of as much sleep as he could get. Kumo fell asleep in the comfort of his mothers jaws.
(FIN)
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