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My granny is my favorite person in the world. She's the purest good I've ever seen. She's like Jesus without the whole 'sacrifice' and 'savior' thing. Seriously, she's a saint. She's kind and thoughtful and a great listener. She's always there for you if you need her. She sticks up for you if you need her to. And she just got diagnosed with small cell lung cancer, extensive stage. The doctors are estimating 2-4 weeks left in her life. I can't stand it. I know its selfish to want her to live longer, since she's in pain and suffering. It's just...not enough time. She's too good to just be taken away. She shouldn't have to suffer like this. It's not FAIR. I've tried to be strong for my family, and I've tried to be cheerful around her and show her I love her while she's dying. Its just...I always kinda hoped I'd get hit by a bus before she died. It sounds weird, I'm sure. But I did kinda hope I'd die before her, even though she's much older than i am. She's for damned sure BETTER than i am.