(( Alright, since this is still technically the PRP subsection I thought I would make a PRP to cure my boredom. Envy's gonna have a diary! xD ))

le 6 septembre

Um, well, Envy here. I'm going to start keeping a journal as something to do and to er cord events and...who knows? Maybe one day after I'm dead somebody'll actually want to read this s**t? Besides, I need a way to express all my pent out anger and uh, all those other emotions and such. Writing...is the only way to do that sadly as, my sketch book? Lost it on Earth. Dancing?Pshh, as if. I'm clumsy enough as it is. Gymnastics? I used to do it all the time even with my clumsyness, sure, but I USED to do it. Keyword here, USED. As in, PAST TENSE. If I tried it now, I'd probably break my neck. Not like breaking my neck would be a problem since all I'm a healer and all that jazz...Singing? As if, I hate singing. Acting? Is there even theatre in Sereitei?! And I'm not into sports so... it's not like I can take out all my pent up frustrations by screaming at the radio like Ryan does. Normally I'd just spar with someone but... I haven't really talked to people lately...could I be going antisocial? Emo? OH s**t. I bet I'm turning Emo! That's why I always wear dark clothes! That's why I wear my bangs in my face! What am I gonna do? I can't be emo! What will Ryan say?! Will I lose my captains position? Ohnoohnoohno. I need to stop this.

later on le 6 septembre

Alright. So I just went out and bought all new clothes. Right now I'm wearing a bright yellow dress that goes down to my knees and my hair is curled with a bobby pin keeping my bangs out my face. I may not like the yellow because of my emoness but I'm sure that after time I will learn to like it. Maybe I'll bleach my hair too... huh. Let's see... the next step would have to be more social so I guess I should go talk to someone...but who should I talk to? Besides... if anyone see's me in this dress people will think I went...girly and weak or something. What am I thinking?! I gotta go change back into my dark clothes that help me look hardcore!

even later on le 6 septembre

So, I'm back in my ripped jeans, black tee, haori, and converse. My hair has been uncurlified and my bangs are resting where they belong, in my face. All in all, I think I learned a very valuable lesson today. That all because Im somewhat unsocial and somewhat dark does not mean I'm emo. I don't cry all the time. I'm not overly emotional. I don't even know why I freaked out in the first place...must of been something I ate. I knew those eggs tasted funny... But that still leaves me with the original problem. How the ******** am I going to express myself? God damnit.