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That's what I'm going to be.. Or where.. Or whatever..

I'm going to be away for a while. Away from MSN/Yahoo/AIM, away from Gaia, away from Deviantart. I need some self time, some close to home time, nothing far away and out of reach for a while.

However, I know I'll miss the guild too much and the people in it even more. I'll post from time to time, just to keep up with events and developements.

I just need to sort myself out. After this thing that happened with Martin (after many more, all online happenings) I just thought it best to take some time away from online. It's a bit too easy for me now. I've been doing it for so long, and how happy I was to finally prove my parents wrong that online relationships and the like are good (because of Martin), how devastated I was when he proved *me* wrong.

He says the following: "I love you, Sanne, but I don't want to be with you."
-Contradicting
Also, he says this: "I don't want to be with you because I want to be single for a while, I want to be with a guy, etc"
-Contradicting again
He just wants me to stay close to him, so when he really needs someone, he can fall back on (use) me. But right now, when he doesn't need anyone for a while (as he says) he will just leave me bare and hurt me gladly. I don't care if he ever cared for me or not, I just know that he doesn't love me anymore (even though he says he does). For if you love someone, you'd do anything to be with that person (again). He doesn't.

He has hurt me the most of all who hurt me. Funny that. Someone who knows me well enough will know what I'm talking about here. Why it is funny that *he* hurt me more than someone else did.

I am hurt easily. That's why I'm stepping away from that which causes me the most pain, and so quickly too. As I said, internet is just too easy.

And well, I'll miss you people. I hope this doesn't sound like stupid babbling or just crap.

Much <3 from me

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Oh yeah... My email will still be checked almost every day [~ dark_eagle_babe@hotmail.com ~], and probably my inbox (here, on Gaia) too. So feel free to PM me if you'd like.