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first I have a few things to say,
1 - this has some talk of a Youth group, but it is not about religion
2 - i wanted to post this under aww heck for a certain reason but feel it best i do as Ketsu
3 - this is very long sorry, but i wanna say what's on my mind

now onto the subject:

Two years ago, this time: or rather 'near easter' my Youth group went to a Youth rally called Acquire the Fire...hmm...needless to say i was going huh?
((pyrolover is me))

my tech-geek fiend, Monique, went along with us, she knows wonders about technology, and i was hanging with her, at this time, i didnt have a specific GF, and this is why i wanted to post this thread under aww heck,

so basically i was in love with any girl who was as compatible as Monique, that includes Jess, who was also there

anyhow, we were on our way home, and there was a sky scrapper in view outlined in neon green lights

Monique and i began to talk about it, she told me the three categories of light: Reds, Greens, Ultraviolets, and mentioned greens were most visible to human eyes, hmm you might like that info Chrissy,

well i was watching myfeet as i walked, like i always did, but finally i look up to ask a question, but trip over a parking-lot tree-island curb and bump right into Monique's right side, with her balancing on the curb, throwing her off, causing her to fall

a loud crack came through and she 'rolled' out crying....
i was wrecked, torn, shredded, devastated, it was the first time i'd ever caused harm to a female, whether an accident or no, i simply didnt like the sensation...

her left elbow had met the curb upon impact, and been skinned enough to bleed, this happened because from force-of-impact between us, she was flipped around on her left foot, which she used for the balancing when i bumped her

she didnt blame me at all...nor did my pastor or any of the youth, i all happened so perfectly that every saw me trip into her and knew i wasnt to blame...

but it ate me alive, i had to do some kind of compensation

Well Easter is my friend...
Monique is the epitome of tomboy, there is seemingly no girl in her at all, or so i though, until i got her a yellow Easter rabbit plushie and apology card to make up for my accidental bump

the one time i saw girl in her, she was smiling

a warm hearted story huh? so how's it rough times?
My left elbow, though i compensated for the issue, seers with pain every Easter season, like as if a phantom connection exists between me and Monique

she's not like a sister to me, she is far more than that,
I'm dating a girl named Jess, but if Monique had given me the chance, i woulda dived for her, and same with Jess, who, Jess did give the chance, and yes...i dived without a second thought
---so you see how much it wrecked me, cause back then, i was an HS senior but my love for these two is ever the same no matter when you look at it,

sorry for length of post, i just wanted to share some insight into who i am, perhaps this'll also start a good conversation...

the good thing: Monique laughs about this all, so i suppose, it all ended well

I went in 07 to Reunion arena-lcoation ATF in texas

thats all can say on it's location

but yes we had a great great time, and i wasnt dating anyone then, and mind my words I'm Male IRL, so as a senior in HS, i sought someone but both this injured girl and the girl i date now were girls i knew and liked equally back then, even considered them both, but i felt i should at least try for the girl i wanted at that moment, who is the one i accidentally injured,

push came to shove, revelations came unto me, and i realized, Jess the other girl, needed someone more, so i made it a thing in me to date, and one day, marry her,
now if my dang elbow would quit hurting...