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 Posted: Mon Mar 02, 2009 10:57 am
 I was just considering things [yes, I truly am on a Posting spree~] and I recalled at one time a while ago when we all commented on how we've grown.
Well, it's that time again, in my mind. I seem to be more matured, and I have definitely settled down. I'm somehow even more realistic than I was, and I am not longer depressed, disconnected, or numb; I take pleasure in the simple things and hate spending money.
I'm also productive, even if at the last moment possible.
I've learned to let go of certain things and people,
and contribute much less to drama.
How about yourself?
Has anything differed itself in your life?"If your stomach feels weak my work here is DONE."
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Posted: Mon Mar 02, 2009 2:43 pm
Lately its been commented that I seem more human, less detached from society and emotion, not sure if that's a good or bad thing really.
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little_evil_goth Vice Captain
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Posted: Mon Mar 02, 2009 11:05 pm
I'm definitely more relaxed.
I'm not taking things so seriously in life. In terms of getting a career or an education or preserving my body as some holy ******** temple keeping it clean of things I "don't need". Basically I'm ignoring all health warnings. And it feels beautiful.
I make the extra effort for my mates, realising how much they mean to me - I'm afraid, no, terrified of losing them. I'm tonnes more social.
I'm full of rage towards my father more than ever. Hilarious really. It'd be funny if it wasn't me.
And I'm not quick to fight now. I actually... let things go. ********... am I growing up? Hopefully this is just a phase.
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Posted: Mon Mar 02, 2009 11:26 pm
I'm a bit more reclusive. A little less trusting. Not changes for the greater good, but at least I won't be hurt terribly by some jackass.
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little_evil_goth Vice Captain
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Posted: Tue Mar 03, 2009 2:35 am
That'll pass and in its place you'll be able to suss people out more successfully. Honest.
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Posted: Tue Mar 03, 2009 1:41 pm
I've calmed down significantly, though I am still occasionally prone to days wherein I am rather hyper. I've been informed that apparently as I walk through the hallway at school, people, being frightened of me, move off to the side unless it's unavoidable (my friend informed me of this), and lately I've been amusing myself with that. I've gotten significantly better at my violin playing, as well as drawing comics. I've grown slightly more evil-minded at times, which is.... odd, considering that I was already quite so to begin with. This is demonstrated by the fact that when a kid took my journal at school and refused to give it back to me, I took out a pen and rather calmly stabbed the pen down into his hand. He gave me the journal back.
And as an incredibly odd and contradictory parallel growth, I've been, in some areas of my life, happy. Rather depressed in others.
I've been taking joy in terrorizing the people with whom I don't 'mix' in some manner or another.
I've been increasingly sarcastic.
I've been..... eating. Food. Which is..... wierd. Very.... very..... wierd.
(I had something else, but I forgot. It's quite irritating.)
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Posted: Tue Mar 03, 2009 2:10 pm
I actually have a personality now.
[IMBACKYAY]
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Posted: Tue Mar 03, 2009 7:13 pm
I'm basically dead.I care not about time nor almost anything else for that matter anymore.As for my personality,I don't honestly know.I suppose for starters,one change would be the fact that I rather firmly hate quite alot of things in some way or another.Another would be how I stay withdrawn from people,physically and to some degree emotionally/mentally.I'm far more pale then I used to be.I don't near enough sleep as I should,I get (Depending) somewhere between 2 to 4 hours of sleep a day,occassionally I'll get quite a bit due to exhaustion or depression.
That's all I can really think of at the moment.
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Posted: Tue Mar 03, 2009 9:49 pm
@ Leg. I sure hope so. It's annoying trying to keep all my hateful things I want to say in my head. I swear I'm going to have ulcers.
@ Sirius. But you have to sleep. If you don't get enough sleep then brain cells start dieing... Everyone hates things. I hate lots of things. So many things....
I basically hide my fear of comittment, shyness, and absolute hate of meetng new people by acting like I'm outgoing and bubbly. I know it's wierd. I'm only truely bubbly/loving around real friends.
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Posted: Wed Mar 04, 2009 2:27 am
loser-by-choice @ Leg. I sure hope so. It's annoying trying to keep all my hateful things I want to say in my head. I swear I'm going to have ulcers.
Maybe you should look into creating an outlet for your hate - some form of non violent violence. Like kick boxing.
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little_evil_goth Vice Captain
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Posted: Wed Mar 04, 2009 1:25 pm
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Posted: Thu Mar 05, 2009 11:17 am
I have finally realized that it doesn't really matter what people say about me.
[Though I am still curious.]
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Posted: Fri Mar 06, 2009 9:11 am
I am much more relax as leg is. somehow being an angry person as i was a while back, I feel like i have relieved my self of the baggage that adults who were the quiet and not violent kids seem to have.
I softened my heart i noticed, and its really hard to get it back to its untouchable state. Still working on it though
I CAN SAVE MONEY BETTER!! being away on a meager allowance does that. >.>
and that's all i can think of now.
loser-by-choice you could also try writing. i used that as a vent and karate as well. nothing like getting in to a spar. and writing pushes everything out and exhaust you. kinda cleansing.
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