I'm so scared, I have never lost anyone this close to me before, he's not gone, but the feeling that I know he's about to be is really getting to me. He has been suffering and going back and forth to the hospital for about 5 years now. He's getting tired and recently dyalisis failed. The doctors told us there's nothing they can do for him any longer. I feel it's my fault though, I constantly hear if thier will power is high the excpectancy of life is longer. I haven't been there for him, my dad always asked me everytime he went to visit if I wanted to tag along. I said "no" almost every Sunday for the past 5 years, because I was, "too busy" between church in the morning and church in the evening. Maybe if I had been there his will power to live would have been higher. I regret that now, but now all there is to do is pray. Pray that maybe I can take his place, or that the family can handle this(that I can handle this). Please Pray that God sends every situation in the right direction.
Thank You.
