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What exactly is wrong? Why do you feel as though your life is so horrible and that no one can truly understand?

If it is too personal to share here...just pm me. I will read whatever you have to say carefully and get back to you as soon as possible.

its just...theres something so wronge, it dosent make any sence to me, were born into a world were we work, then die.. its pointless to live if were only going to die...i know i not making any sence... but its just theres something so wronge.

i dont want you help, i just want to know,why is everyone tlling me not to kill myself if they dont know me

I'm sure you want help deep inside.
First, I would tell anyone, that I know him or not, to not kill himself.
I'll explain you my reasons
By killing yourself, you won't feel free, you won't feel happier. Actually, you won't feel anything anymore. the big Nothing.
Your life will end in an awfull way, full of sadness and anger
And you'll never get to think "Hey, it's finally over! I made the right choice" or "Oh god, what did I do?"

By living, you are getting the possibility to realise yourself, to feel proud for being able to go trought the difficulties you, and everyone else in the whole world, can encounter. Getting back on your feet after such darkness is the best feeling you'll feel, so much better than the feeling of cold metal against your head for a second.

We are on earth to live and yes, we are all gonna die someday. But hey, there's lots of time left for most of us. Lots of time to be able to love, to cry, to laugh, to hug, to yell, to breath...and that isn't useless, that is worth everything. Not because our destiny is to die that we need for 70 years or more, to act like we were already 6 feets under ground.

No matter what are your difficulties, there's a way out. Maybe you think this way is unreachable for you, maybe you don't believe it will ever come, but don't give up that easily, it's there and fight for it. It can be anything: a smile, a friend. Maybe it's already there inside of you and you are so blind right now that you can't allow you to see it, but wait, it will show up.

Well I'm french so if this isn't clear, I'm sorry.

I don't know what is death
You don't know what is death
No one knows what is death
So I'm just gonna enjoy what I have and do know for now
I won't do it for butterflies and the sky
Just for me and what i think is right (oh that sounds selfish)
And when time will come, I'll get to know what is death
There's no need to rush to it, we'll all go trought it someday
But right now I'm simply goign to sleep to wake up tomorrow morning, to do my things, talk to me friends and certainly not wish to exchange this for emptiness.

Life Issues is about getting help for your problems.

There are lots of people who know what you're going through. You're not the only one in this world to suffer, I can promise you that.
I've been raped and molested about 7 times by 2 different people when I was little, and I remember it all. My mom is suicidal, and children services made me go live with my aunt. My dad is a druggie, he's in jail. My life has been nothing but dissapointments, but I'm still living for tomorrow, because eventually that tomorrow is going to be a good day. I know how sometimes it feels good to pity yourself and think you're alone, but you aren't. There are tons of people who have been down the same road and have moved on.
You have two choices: stay in the dark place you are, give up, and fade away...never having accomplished anything. Or you can try to put it behind you and try to be happy. There's nothing wrong with asking for help.