Restraint
Bite your lip until it bleeds.
Clench your fists and lock your knees.
Look up and what do you see?
Your enemy.
Take deep breaths now, don’t lose control.
She only plays a minor role.
She knows you’re falling apart.
She wants a chance to restart.
Should you give it to her?
Take things back to how they were?
Don’t rush.
You have all the time in the world.
Let her see what she’s done to you.
Let her see the pain she’s caused.
Right now, her actions are paused.
She’s waiting on you to make a decision.
Make it with extreme precision.
You may not be able to make a revision.
Tell her how you feel, but not too much.
Only tell her a bit, only a touch.
Ok, so you said it.
Good job on practicing restraint.
Ooops.
Now she’s having a fit.
She says you lie.
Ok, so now you’re the bad guy?
I think not.
Let go of your restraint, tell her how you feel.
Tell her how you’ve tried to heal.
Tell her she maybe should practice some restraint.
She starts to squeal.
A squeal of anger.
You curse yourself for not telling it all in the beginning.
By now, you could’ve been winning.
So much for that restraint.