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 Posted: Tue Jul 22, 2008 7:08 pm
This is a private RP involving Nozomi and Riven. This is pre-dated, and actually took place around April of 2006, about 6 months after Riven's adult quest.
This was part of the lead-in to Omi's youth quest, which was already reserved in her journal.
Gimme a min, Sosi and I'll post.
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Posted: Tue Jul 22, 2008 7:17 pm
Omi had raced almost the entire way from her home to that of Riven, and was quite out of breath by the time she got there. It wasn't that she was out of shape... but that was one heck of a run! Leaning forward, she let her hands clasp against her knees as she leaned over, looking towards the familiar abode. It wouldn't do to show up and be a wreck... but she also knew that she had to get here before her nerve was shot and she went home without answers again.
This was something her father couldn't help her with, and neither could anyone else in her house because they just didn't know. They weren't what she was... but Riven had never steered her wrong and she knew he would give her good advice.
Even if it wasn't the advice she necessarily wanted to hear.
Once her breath had settled back to normal, she straightened up and inhaled deeply, then moved towards the door.
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Posted: Tue Jul 22, 2008 7:38 pm
A pair of mechanical dragon-faces blinked at her simultaneously from the side window before twining in unison, making a quiet rattle of metal as they moved. "Someone isis at the door," Biome informed Riven, who had just tucked Airyn in for a nap.
"Oh? Who?" That was odd, they hadn't had visitors for a while.
"The girl, who journeyedjourneyed with you, far," Biome reported.
Riven paused in mid-air. "Not... Omi?!" Then he zipped down the hallway, surprising the Fandangle with his speed, and... didn't even bother opening the door, instead phasing straight through the wood. "Omi! It is you!"
How long had it been since he'd seen her? Not since that time... he didn't think. How had that happened?
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Posted: Tue Jul 22, 2008 8:04 pm
Riven returned the hug, then gave her a thoughtful look as she stepped back and spoke. "It's okay... it doesn't matter what brought you here. What matters is that you came, right?" He resisted the urge to ruffle her hair as he would have with Airyn; Omi wasn't a kid anymore. "What's going on?"
He drifted over to one of the trees in the 'yard' and coiled his tail to sit under it, then patted the grass next to him. He owed her this. And far, far more besides.
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Posted: Tue Jul 22, 2008 8:11 pm
Sighing deeply, Omi moved to curl into the grass beside him, sidestepping the delicate flowers that seemed to sprout everywhere around their home. Folding her legs up in front of her, she wrapped her arms around her legs, chin resting on her knees. She wasn't even sure where to start, really. Everything had made so much sense in her head when she'd decided on this, but then it all seemed to slip away when faced with the person she most wanted to see.
She seemed to be collecting her thoughts, a frown crossing her face as she organized them into a coherent question. "When did you realise that you had to find out more about yourself?" she asked, turning to glance to him. "When you knew that you couldn't learn any more by just staying here?"
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Posted: Tue Jul 22, 2008 8:17 pm
"Heh." Riven gave her a rueful smile. "When I was... your age, I guess. But the journey we went on, together... before then, I really thought I knew all there was to know. I was wrong. I'm probably still wrong." He glanced up at the sky, just visible through the shifting leaves above. "I know what I was, and I know what I am, and I have no idea what to do now other than continuing on... I guess I sort of miss not knowing, in a way. Knowing that I didn't know?" He made a face.
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Posted: Tue Jul 22, 2008 8:22 pm
If it was confusing to him, it was doubly confusing to her. She rested her cheek on her knees, letting her hair fall into a pool in the grass as she curled forward. "See, I don't know any of that," she began, her gaze slipping to the side to watch a bee crawling its way along a patch of clover blooms.
"I don't know what I was... I mean, I have an idea, but all I know is what I've read in books. And it's confusing to me, because that person... is male. I didn't know that could happen with Fa'e, so maybe I'm wrong." Omi took a breath then, using that moment or two to try and explain.
"I don't even know what I am now, really. I don't know what it means to be Fa'e, or what I'm supposed to do from here. But I know that if I stay here, nothing will change."
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Posted: Tue Jul 22, 2008 8:27 pm
"Male?" Riven tilted his head to one side. "Does that matter, much?" He didn't see how it would. It was only plumbing, wasn't it?
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Posted: Tue Jul 22, 2008 8:32 pm
She blinked for a moment, then gave him the Look of Duh (TM) as Raven referred to it. "I'm a girl. And it's a bit disconcerting when I catch myself watching other girls walking down the street."
Granted, they never suspected a thing, generally, and she was pretty sure that if she did have the right 'plumbing' for it, they'd likely have a few choice words. "It's just confusing. I mean, my father's got a male partner, so it's not that strange of a concept to see same-gender interest. But it's the way it feels that's aggravating me."
It was difficult to describe emotion or intent, especially when you didn't really understand it yourself. "I mean, I'd understand if I liked only girls, or only boys, but I don't. And even though it feels okay for me to be with either, it still feels odd because it's like one half of me is interested, while the other isn't. The sides just switch depending on who I'm thinking about."
Omi stared at him again, confused by even her own statements and circular train of thought. "Does that make any sense?"
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Posted: Tue Jul 22, 2008 8:37 pm
"Hmm... I guess? I don't really have any... experience, with that kind of thing specifically," Riven said, a little awkwardly. His Guardian had tried to teach him about sex and sexual attraction, but it had been just a curiosity, irrelevant to him on a personal level. "But feeling conflicted inside of yourself has to be difficult, no matter what the issue is. Right? Like... there's you-you, and then there's another you, and they're not the same?"
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Posted: Tue Jul 22, 2008 8:42 pm
"YES!" She lit up at that, nodding as she sat up a bit straighter. "That's exactly it. It's like there's someone else and I don't know who they are or what they want... or even what they're doing. It's ME in here. I'm not schizophrenic as far as I know, but there's always that nagging feeling like something's not right."
He did understand! This had been a good idea, and Omi was very glad that she'd made the trip. She wasn't expecting Riven to have all the answers... but talking with someone who'd at least been through similar situations was comforting. "I get looked at like I'm crazy at home. Raven thinks I'm too stressed, To-san doesn't get it and says that it's just part of being Fa'e, but he can't give me any help."
The vivid green eyes fixed on Riven then, and she shifted slightly in the grass so that she was sitting, facing him. "I know I need to find out more about myself... and about who I was. But I don't know what to do. If I were just human, I'd say that I'm too young to go and find out. But as a Fa'e... should I go?"
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Posted: Tue Jul 22, 2008 8:44 pm
"Of course you should go," Riven said, firmly. "I guess I sound kinda... old," he added, a bit sheepish, "but every Fa'e I've ever known, me included, has had to make a journey. I don't know why we can't just come back knowing everything. It'd be a lot easier." He wrinkled his nose. "But since we can't... we have to go, I think. Maybe it's how we're wired, like my Guardian would say."
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