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the pain sinks in
the realality comes
the want of death is wat u become
u find a sharp object
more then likly a knife
u cut ur self
u die tonight.........
so now u r found
all bloody and dead
this is the night
that suicide came to ur head
u let the pain bother u for quit some time
but tonight u solved all ur problems
when suicide came to mind
u kno where to cut
the blood pours out
for wat seems like forever
the pain is so bad
u want it to stop
an hour or more
it feels like forever
but u deal with the pain
u let ur self bleed
until u r dead
this has now become
ur perminent way to solve
all ur problems
so u look donw to earth
from heaven above
they miss u so much
u think ...............
why did i let it take me?
why did i want to die?
but it only took one night
when suicide came to ur mind

thank you father i wrote it a while back wen i was having a lot of problems in my life and if it wasnt for my actual friends and my friend who is my boyfriend now i might not be here today they kept me alive at the worst times and wen i didnt have anyone around me to help i wrote as a way of relese to sometimes feel better

im happy u like it father

yes but the friends that helped me then i dont really talk to anymore and idk why i guess we just grew appart but to this day i live ony for the love of my bf and if i lost him i dont kno if i could live anymore but i do think in a sence i am very lucky to have some one in my life that wants me alive and give me a reason to still live

i have seen some of ur post about ur poems and i feel very sorry for u but i used to kno the pain of sme one not caring but i was in denial and i had proof right in my face that i was being used and cheeted on and at night my feelings came out but in bad ways and then a really great guy made me see wat i didnt wat to believe was true and i ended up loving him and he will never kno how much he has done for and how he has turned my life around

i used to be very isolated and quiet but i have tryed over the years to not be, yea its not easy to find someone who is actually a great person to be with soo ull find a girl that will like u the way u are it just takes time but im sure u will find some one that really cares for u til then just keep trying and try not to be depressed even tho its kinda hard

lol u'll always have ur children here to talk to father