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 Posted: Fri Jun 27, 2008 12:01 pm
My Heart...
My heart Beats for you.
It sings it's quiet and sweet song,
longing for your Love and
The taste of this bitterness to pass.
Like smoke drifting through wind...
My heart Sings for you.
If only to have that one thing
That has forever been out of my Grasp.
That one thing
Sweeter than all others...
My heart Calls for you.
Lonely and scared,
It screams desperately,
For you to save me from
This Eternal, dark Night...
My heart Heals for you.
As if all others past
and Present are no Longer.
And when I see your smile,
My life is complete...
My heart is Scarred for you.
I have beat and battered,
Torn and frayed myself,
Thrown myself at others mercy,
Just for your Kiss, your words...
My heart Bleeds for you.
It's crimson flow,
So soft and sweet.
Wishing, Praying, to be stopped
By you...By the one who loves me, and always will...
And My Heart Loves you...
As deep as it flows,
As long as it pumps,
As long as I take breath into this bruised and battered body...
I will, forever, Love You, for you, and only you...Always.
+Vincent+
A/N: This was written back when I still had that simple assumption that there is love...As of now, I can't seem to find that kind of feeling anywhere, so I don't have many more...How would you put it? "Happy" poems? This will be my last one, more than likely.
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Posted: Fri Jun 27, 2008 5:59 pm
crying That was beautiful.... It describes EXACTLY how I feel... ...You want to know what I noticed? You seem to write things that seem to portray you, and at the same time, other people...
I had put a wall of frozen ice around my heart, to protect it from further harm, which is why I probably numbed myself to feel no emotions, to protect myself... But, when other people write how I've felt for so long, it's like I open up more a little inside... (And this sad song in the background is not helping any. sweatdrop )
It was a beautiful, and true poem. I'd say it was a mixture of happy and sad. I'm not sure why at the moment, but...I just can't explain it. ^^;; Sorry... It's just one of those things you know, but don;t understand.
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Posted: Fri Jun 27, 2008 6:08 pm
Lol I understand, but don't at the same time. I write for other people. I have never really written for myself, other than to kind of release the bottled up emotions I have inside. Other than that, I write so other people know they are not alone in their feelings. Quote: I no longer live my life for myself, I have given it to others, to help them live for who they are and will become in the future Taken from one of my poems.
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Posted: Fri Jun 27, 2008 6:31 pm
^_^ You know how to make me feel a lot better about myself, and not many people know how to do that. I thank you for it. *hugs tightly*
I just wish I wasn't so self-conscious...
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Posted: Fri Jun 27, 2008 6:33 pm
You know...You're a great person, regardless of what others may say. Always remember that, and always remember everyone is entitled to their own opinion...It's just that some people don't deserve to have that opinion xD.
Love yourself for who you are, and people are bound to love you for the same reason.
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Posted: Fri Jun 27, 2008 6:38 pm
>.>;; That's easier said than done, believe me... -.-; I've tried...
Like, my friends, especially my friends, say that I'm pretty. I don't see what they see!
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Posted: Fri Jun 27, 2008 6:58 pm
no one sees in themselves what others see in them. It has something to do with being a human. that is just the way things work I guess. But regardless, it is all what you do and the person you are that proves what kind of person you become. Understand?
Your writing alone is beautiful, so therefore, if it's all pure and uncut, you are beautiful in yourself as well.
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Posted: Fri Jun 27, 2008 7:05 pm
crying *hugs* Thank you! You've told me what I needed to hear for so long now... T.T My friends say that I'm pretty and all, but I can't see it. And, what I don't understand, which also kind of annoys me, is that, if they say I'm prettier than they are, why in the hell haven't I been asked out yet? (This is awkward, telling this to a guy, but I'm confiding in you.) I have NEVER, and I mean NEVER been asked out. Ever. My friends have all had boyfriends, either once, or more than once, and I'm stuck, invisible, and almost left behind. It makes me sad to think that no one likes me for who I am. You can't help being yourself, but it seems no one does like my normal self...
And yes, I did understand... But still, it's harder than you think. You haven't been in my situation before...
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Posted: Fri Jun 27, 2008 7:19 pm
haha is that what it is then? I'm going to tell you something that no other guy will admit to:
We are all STUPID
I've had to choose between people before, and I have made the wrong decision on people because of how they look. I'm as bad as ever other guy is. But the thing is, I accept that fact and look to overcome it. Guys are very materialistic, even more so than girls. It is our natured, and honestly it gets so bad sometimes, I really don't like how people show the male sex as being. It's horrible sometimes.
Having a bf/gf is overrated. I've had far too many. And believe me, I know how you feel that no one wants you. I've felt like that for the past 3 years, watching my brother and my best friend having great relationships and then there is just me. Always being the 3rd/5th wheel. It just happens like that, but when you can find someone, make sure it's the right someone, because guys...We can be complete asses sometimes [excuse my language please].
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Posted: Fri Jun 27, 2008 7:36 pm
xd I'm completely aware of that obvious fact. (No offense. ^^;; ) You see, all my life, my parents have drummed into my head why boys like girls, why girls like boys, and how each think the other side are completely useless.'
But the fact of the matter is that neither can live without the other, so just put the differences apart and live in peace. I don't know if you'll agree with me or not, but if you haven't noticed, this world has been through hell being leaded by men, and only men.
And also, I must add that, and I'm proud of this, I'm very picky. All the boys of my school, worthless. All they're interested in are...er...you know. (The word is taboo for me... I have a weird phobia to the male/female reproductive systems, along with the whole "The birds and the bees" topic. sweatdrop )
So, you see, I understand. I truly do understand... But, the point is, I feel like I need someone that I can talk to freely, without any fear of being rejected, being put down jusst because I want to speak my mind. Someone who respects me for who I am, and actually enjoys what I do, not just acting like it just to get to me. I'm very good at looking at someone and knowing how they normally act, and what they're really after.
It's so sad, isn't it?
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Posted: Fri Jun 27, 2008 7:46 pm
Not really sad. I can read a person very well, same as you. I know what they do. But I don't judge people by their looks, it's the way they act that catches my curiosity. Honestly, if I don't like you I will tell you. If I do like you, you'll know it cause we'll get in a three hour conversation over nothing at all. xD It's the way I am. Honestly, if you need to talk to someone so bad, don't you have a best friend or someone to confide in? Story time - I had a friend, who had no one to confide in. Her parents wouldn't talk to her, trust her with anything. Anything she told her best friend, she went and told her parents. So, I became her best friend, the one person she would talk to. This girl was my best friends girlfriend during junior year in high school. He was happy she could talk to me, but he was also very angry because I never told him what she said. They ended up breaking up because of her parents, and to this day, she still confides everything in me. I have that with my best friend, my brother, and an ex girlfriend I dated for 2 years. If you need someone to talk to, I'm more than glad to be someone to confide in. Quote: I help others, not myself That's me entirely xD
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Posted: Fri Jun 27, 2008 7:57 pm
Mael Sither Not really sad. I can read a person very well, same as you. I know what they do. But I don't judge people by their looks, it's the way they act that catches my curiosity. Honestly, if I don't like you I will tell you. If I do like you, you'll know it cause we'll get in a three hour conversation over nothing at all. xD It's the way I am. Honestly, if you need to talk to someone so bad, don't you have a best friend or someone to confide in? Story time - I had a friend, who had no one to confide in. Her parents wouldn't talk to her, trust her with anything. Anything she told her best friend, she went and told her parents. So, I became her best friend, the one person she would talk to. This girl was my best friends girlfriend during junior year in high school. He was happy she could talk to me, but he was also very angry because I never told him what she said. They ended up breaking up because of her parents, and to this day, she still confides everything in me. I have that with my best friend, my brother, and an ex girlfriend I dated for 2 years. If you need someone to talk to, I'm more than glad to be someone to confide in. Quote: I help others, not myself That's me entirely xD Then why don't you let others help you? Like you said, "I help others, not myself." The who is helping you? There are somethings in this world that can't be burdened by only one person. And, yes, I have friends. If I were to say, my friend Leiko in California (whom I've never met, just on the net. xD), is the closest thing to a best friend I can have, and I've helped her, and she's helped me. But, there are still things that I tell nobody, because I feel that they wouldn't understand. I feel that way a lot. I'm going to tell them, but decide at the last minute not to, because I don't want to burden them with my meaningless crap... (I think about the well-being of others more than myself. That's probably why I'm so messed up. xD ^^;; ) *sighs* You know, just talking about this topic, I've already confided in you most of the stuff I haven't even hinted about to anybody yet. ^_^ You're the first. xP
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Posted: Fri Jun 27, 2008 8:01 pm
Lol I don't need help. honestly, the worst parts of my life are over. I'm safe, happy, warm, have clothes and house. 2 years ago, I had none of that. I may need help sometimes, but if I ever do my best friend or brother is there for me.
And I always have an MSN, it's almost always on, same with AIM.
leonffx15@yahoo.com/YIM MSN
LeonFFX15/AIM
jstanthrpsn@yahoo.com/e-mail
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Posted: Fri Jun 27, 2008 8:06 pm
Ok then. ^_^
MSN: kurama_fan01@yahoo.com (Please don't ask.)
That's about it. ^^;; Now, I have to go to bed. Good night!
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Posted: Fri Jun 27, 2008 8:13 pm
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