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Dear notebook,
To be honest, I am a simple guy. I don't ask for much, I give when people need
it. Simple, plain me. My last name is commonly used, its Way. My first name, not
as common, it's Gerard. I have a brother, sound cliche, almost everyone has a
brother these days. No one in my band though, I mean other then me and my
brother, state the obvious. The members of my band are pretty cool; Frank Iero,
Bob Bryar and Ray Toro, along with me and my brother. We are a garage rock band,
unsigned, but whatever, we get gigs, girls and money, we are good. Although it
may not seem it, my life is horrible. My brother is annoying, like all little
brothers, my friends are good though. I seem to be having trouble with girls
lately, odd, I was always told I was the cutest of the band. But who cares. I
sound very "emo" in this, but to let you know, I am. I cut, that's how bad my
life is at the moment. My friends don't know. I like the whole, long sleeve
thing, no one knows, well, now you all do, but whatever.
I am writing in this "journal" (it's a stupid notebook!) to let my feelings
free, my therapist told me to, but he is not ********' reading this. He can go to
hell, he isn't reading about me cutting myself, dude, I'll be put in a padded <********' room then. By the way, you'll get use to my colorful language. I speak
the rainbow here. Whatever, I have to go, have plans. Shocker I know.
Bye?
Gerard Way...

I put my notebook away, where no one could find it. I combed my hair and set off
to the mall. I had to meet the band, Franks girlfriend, Mikeys girlfriend and
this new girl at my school, Holly.
Now, Holly, she is very pretty, but every guy at school was after her, even some
of the guys that have girlfriends. I would never have a chance with her, so I
don't even try.
"Gee, hey!" Holly said once she spotted me at the bands meeting place, by Hot
Topic. She ran over to me and hugged me, "Come on, you're late."
"Hey Holls. Where is everyone?" I said hugging her back.
"Well, Mr. Amazing-hugs, you are late, so they went over to Friendly's to pick
tables for us."
"Well then, lets go," I said with a fake smile. I was really hopeing to have her
all to myself, but, that's never going to happen.
"Gee!" Franks girlfriend, Sasha yelled. {Sorry Sasha, you have to be in this
one}
"Sasha Sushi, hey!" I named her that, the day I was typing a message to her and
the computer swore I was trying to type Sushi, not Sasha. So I named her Sasha
Sushi just 'cause I could. Sasha is nice, very cool. I love the stories she
writes and she is funny in her own random way.
"You're late!" Val yelled, she was Mikeys girlfriend. She is cool, funny in her
own ways, some what perverted, but only when she is really hyper.
"I know. Sorry, I had to write in my stupid notebook. The therapist dude told me
to, so I had to," I said, sitting down between Mikey and Holly.
We ate and started through the huge mall. Eveyone went in their own directions.
Mikey, Val, Frank, and Sasha decided to go to Toys R Us, Ray and Bob went to the
music store and Holly and I just walked around.
"So, Gee...therapist still being an a**?" Holly said, trying to start a
conversation.
"Yeah. I don't get why he has to be such a little b***h to me. I mean, I do what
he says, listen to what he says, tell him what he wants. I never did anything to
him." I spotted a photobooth and pulled Holly to it.
"I hate pictures Gee, you know that," She whined as I pulled her in it.
"I know, but I want to get some pictures with you, you don't even have to look
at the camera!" I said, putting two one dollar bills in the money eater thing,
at least that's what I've always called it.
"Fine!" Holly said.
We made funny faces at each other, normal photobooth stuff. I really wanted to
kiss her, but, I didn't know what she would do. Three out of five pictures
taken, the next one we just looked and smiled. If I was going to kiss her, I
would have to do it now.
"Last one!" Holly said relieved.
"Yeah, and also first one." I said with a smile. She looked at me confused and
realized what I ment, shockingly she smiled and pulled me into the kiss.
We sat in that photobooth, kissing for at least five minutes. I was shocked and
happy at the same time. My heart was racing and I didn't know what to do or say.
Holly sighed and smiled at me as we parted from each other. "I was wondering how
long it was going to take," She said with a slight laugh.
"I was wondering how I got the nerves to try." I smiled and laughed also.
"So, are we offical, or was that a one time thing?" She said wrapping her arms
around my neck and kissing me again.
Kissing her back I replied, "One time thing," I said with a goofy face and a
smile.
"Oh yeah? Alright then, I guess I leave," She said playfully. She hopped out of
the photobooth and grabbed the pictures.
She started running toward the other end of the mall, I laughed and ran after
her.
"Come back here," I said as I darted past people and tryed not to run into a
little kid.
"Why, it was a one time thing?"
"No! I want it to be a forever thing!" I smiled as she stopped and jumped on me.
"Me too." She said, kissing me again.
"Hey! No PDA!" Frank yelled walking toward us, with a bunch of bags in his
hands. I was guessing they were toys.
"Yeah, and since when did you guys play 'PDA'?" Mikey asked.
"Since...um..10 minutes ago?" Holly said looking at me.
"Yeah." I smiled.
We all left and I drove Holly home. She had come here with Val and Sasha, but I
decided to drive her home this time.
"That was fun. I really am happy that you dragged me to that photobooth." She
smiled and held the pictures in her hands.
"Me toom," I said leaning over and kissing her cheek, "Keep them."
"Aw, but you paid for them, here," She said handing me the one of us kissing, "I want you to at least have that one."
"Okay. You better get inside before your dad comes out here. I really done want
any trouble," I said.
"Okay, well...I love you," She said, kind of shyish.
With a smiled I replied, "I love you too."

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Sorry, had to put up a new story, I know "Internet Connection" is only on chapter 2 and I have one last chapter for "The Only 'Ways' Left {the sequal}" But I had this plot in my head, so I had to write it down

FINE! Let's go cry in our little corners because no one will read our stories/updates crying .Wait...I READ YOURS!...now I have to cry on my own crying . {Although this is good.}

Lol. Well, yeah it is a fic, but you don't have to shut up. Please, do speak your mind here. Even if it is a bunch of random things...I do that a lot!

And If I'm an idiot and speak my mind too much I'm sorry. sweatdrop
I just like to tell people anything thats wrong so they can fix it.
But I really like it.
Do continue..

When I have time between packing and visiting my granfather in the hopsital I will.

LUVERS IT! It'd be sweet to have a first kiss in a photobooth! So sweet and romantic! -Insert mushy comment here- blaugh

Dear...notebook?

I'll never get use to this writing thing in you...makes me feel girly, like this is some diary. Alright, so I have to write in you about my day, huh?

Okay, I went to the mall and hung out with Holly...and, well...Holly and I are dating now. So yeah, that's about all that matters.

So, I can't let Holly see my wrists. I don't want her all worried about me, I am fine, cutting is just my way out, my way of making my life clear, it takes away all my stress. So yeah. I just won't let her know.

Um, today I am going to call Holly and see if she wants to hang out today. Well, she should want to I mean she is my girlfriend now. You know, I will never get use to the fact, I mean she is my first girlfriend...in my whole 17 years of living on this ******** up world.

Whatever, I'm going to go.

Bye.

Gerard Way


I placed my notebook back in the hiding spot I have for it and took out my drawing pad and started to draw. I didn't know what I was drawing till her face, her sweet green eyes and beautiful straight brown hair, showed on my paper. Her eyes were the hardest, she has so much detail to them, the little specks of gold in her eyes was hard to perfect, to get in the right area. They couldn't just be anywhere, they had to be as perfect as her.

My phone rang and took me from my thoughts of Holly.

"Gerard’s pizza, what would you like to order today?" I said, it was a usual to say something like that when I answered the phone.

"Um...cheese pizza, with a side order of Gerard." Holly said.

"That will be about ten minutes. Pick you up at your house?"

"Okay, love you, bye."

"Love you too, bye." I hung up the phone, that conversation made me smile.

I got changed, needed fresh clothes, seeing I slept in my clothes from the mall last night, so I didn't change this morning. I brushed my teeth and fixed my hair.

"Mom, I'll be home later! I'm taking the car." I said grabbing the keys and walking out the door before my mom could protest.

I arrived at Holly's house, just at the time I said, ten minutes. She was outside waiting. She had on jeans and a long T-shirt that was tied back, her hair was up and in a bun. She looked beautiful. Of course, when did she not?

"Hey, baby." She said hopping in the seat next to me and kissing me on the cheek.

"Hey. So...pizza?" I asked as we turned off her street.

"Only if you want. Just something to eat, I am starving."

"Alright, well, I don't know what I want. You decide." I said with a smile.

"Um...how about ice cream?" She laughed.

"Hm, how about some pizza then, some ice cream?"

"Sounds great."

We pulled into the mall parking lot. In our mall the pizza parlor was right next to the ice cream bar. So, best place in town to go. We got inside and she ordered a small cheese pizza for the two of us. She is a vegetarian, like Frank, so I am use to eating just cheese pizza, and I am actually beginning to like it.

"Gee, you look...I don't know, tired maybe. More or less you seem distracted." Holly said.

"I'm fine, just thinking."

"Okay." She said taking another bite of pizza. I finished mine. "Want another piece babe?" She asked reaching for another slice.

"Um...sure." I said taking the piece from her with a smile.

We ate and walked next door to the ice cream bar.

"What would you like?" I asked Holly.

"I'm not to sure yet. You go ahead and order." She said looking at the different ice creams.

"I'll have a strawberry three scoop." The lady behind the counter nodded and started scooping my ice cream.

"Anything else?" She asked.

"Yes, I'll have a fudge brownie two scoop." Holly ordered.We got our ice creams and sat in the car.

"Gee, Baby, aren't you hot?" Holly asked as we drove from the mall.

"N-no. I am actually just fine." I said as we stopped at a red light.

"But, it's 80 out and you are wearing a long sleeve shirt!" She reached for my sleeves but I pulled back.

"I said I'm fine, don't worry, kay?"

"Alright." She sat back in her seat and we drove around, silent.

I stopped in front of her house a half hour later.

"I love you." I said leaning over and kissing her.

She grabbed my hands and kissed me back. "I love you too." She said moving my sleeves up a bit, I didn't notice till she said something. "What the hell is up with all the cuts?" She moved away from me and looked at my face. "Do you...."

Cutting her off I said, "Holly, please, don't say anything."

"Me, what you don't trust me now? No, wait, why the hell am I asking that stupid question, I mean you didn't tell me you were suicidal!" She yelled. "For that, I'll be untrustworthy!" She jumped out of the car and ran into her house. I knew what she was to, she was going to call Mikey.

I rushed home, just as Mikes hung up the phone I had shut the door. "Dude, wrists, now." He said.

"Dude, ******** off." I said walking past him.

"I said wrists!" He pushed me against the wall. He lifted my sleeves. "What in living hell is wrong with you! You could ******** die! Is that what you want? Is it really what you ******** want!?" He yelled. I am sure the neighbors heard us.

"No! That's not it, it's my way out."

"Way out from what?"

"Dealing with you, school, everything!"

"Me? How the ******** did I get into this?"

"You are the annoying little brother I wanted. I just didn't ********' know you would be that annoying. You are always in my stuff and coming to me with your problems! I have to be in your drama and s**t!"

"Well, ******** it then, I'll just get the hell out of your life, after I call the hospital."

"No, don't you ********' do that Mikes, don't they will lock me up."

"Yeah, and it's for our own good." He said picking up the phone.

"Mikes, I am telling you, don't ******** do that!" I walked closer to him.

"I'm sorry, but I have to."

"Well, I'm sorry too!" I said picking up a bat and hitting him in the head. He fell to the floor with blood pooling around his head. I knew I should have stopped after that, but the anger and rage was too much for me to control. I bashed him a few more times. Blood spatter covered the wall and the bat. I dropped the bat when I realized I had hit him three times. I dropped to my knees and checked his pulse. He was dead.

Holy crap!!!!!!!! This is.... oh my good golly goodness!!!!!!! Mikey!!! How can you be dead?????? NOOOO!!!! Gee-spasm, why, WHY!? I need to read more!!!!