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I have a story to tell everyone here, and think of it of what you may but I think everyone should read this story of mine and really think about it. Its hard to think that someone would stand by and watch this happen to a friend. (I'll keep it short so I don't get anyone mixed up in the details. Note: All names are the real names of these people.)

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Ok, lets look back. This is my story and it starts in the 7th grade.

3 Months into my second year of middle school is when it all started. On some random day witch I was minding my own business like I always do people started to ask 'Are you dating Brittney Hall?' for some odd reason. I didn't understand what was going on so the only response I could give these people was a odd look and a weird sounding 'No.'

Why would I be dating 'Brittney Hall' when I had no clue who she was and she was a 'girl' ontop of it all. (Note, back then I didn't even know what being gay or les was about. But of course from commen sence I gussed that a les was a girl dating a girl. Of course though I was right.)

I didn't understand what was going on.

For about a week it went on and I kept getting more and more confused. Who the hell was this girl and what did I have to do with her?

Before I knew it alot of time had pasted and I even had 8th graders who I didn't even know asking me if 'I was dating a chick' or if 'I was a lesbain' I didn't know what was going on, I was only 12, how should I know?

Well, soon enough my older brother John had told me that some guy in his math class had asked him 'Hey, isn't your sister a lesbain' and that he took the back of his head and slamed it into the guy's desk. I didn't know what to think, I was just so happy that someone had stood up for me because at the time not even my 2 closest friends from Elemtrey school were backing me up.

So, I met Danielle at her locker to talk about all this to her. She said that she knew Megan had started the rumor and that she would go report her to Mr. Reader with me the next moring. She said the whole reason the rumor got started was because Megan was mad at Danielle so Megan started a rumor about one of Danielle's friends. Aka, me.

Well, I of course wanted to get this cleared up so I met Danielle at her locker like we said we would. But ... I could tell something was wrong. Megan was one of the girls in our 'group' of friends, at least I thought she was. Well, she showed up and started to talk to me. Well, what it boiled down to is that (This is a real qoute) 'Well, Megan called me last night and we got things sorted out and I'm back on her good side. I don't want to do this and get back on her bad side and mess things up anymore.'

What the crap? Danielle said that she WOULD do this with me, and now all of a sudden after a phone call she turned around and stabed me in the back and broke a promise over it?

So I did all that I could. I just said 'Fine, whatever.' I sucked up all of it that I could to keep myself from crying and left. I stayed as far away from her as I could for the rest of the year.

I thought about it alot, what else could I have done after something like that?

Well, I came to two conclusions. One, I could still go report Megan for what she did, but I didn't have Danielle with me and she was my evdence. Or, I could suck it up and forget about it.

I chose the latter. What could I have done? They wouldn't have done anything about it. And even if they did Megan would find out that I reported her and make a even BIGGER roumor to spread around.

For the rest of that year... I had no friends. In fact, not only did I not have any friends, I was scared stiff to even 'try' to trust anyone that wasn't my brother. I truly wouldn't have been able to survie that year of school if I didn't have my brother with me.

Even durring the next year, in the 8th grade, there was still people that remembered and asked 'Hey, are you a lesbian'. All I could do was suck it up and hold it back like I did the year before.

I guess you could say that my 7th grade year really 'Toughen me up' and yeah, it did. I've never been the same sience.

The only good thing about the 8th grade is that about 3 or so months into it I became good friends with some 7th graders that I met and that we're still friends today.

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I've gottan over what happened to me a while ago, the old scars are still there and they still hurt from time to time but I've leared to deal with it.

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But how could anyone, anyone stand by and watch that happen to a friend that they've known sience the first day of school? I don't know. I would never treat a friend like Danielle treated me back then.

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I always wonder how I ever became 'bi-couris' and I always thought 'Did that effect me some how and I didn't know it? I don't know. Maybe it could have a bit, but I don't think it has.
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This is what I wanted to point out to everyone. Its hard for kids, even if they arnt gay, lez, or bi. Sexuality problems can even effect kids as young as middle school. Its painfull to relize that, but its true.

I would say that this is also another reason why I'm in GSA and why I support gay rights. Because I don't want anyone to be picked on like I was for sexuality even for such a reason like I was. No one should have to go though that.

*sigh* Sure thing. ^^ It still takes alot out of me to talk about it so yeah...

But I'm using my story in school and things at the GSA. Our 'Adoptedive' mother as we call her and I are trying to get me to a metting and stuff where we can talk about these kinds of things to the teachers and inform them.

(eyes water) .. Imoto-chan.. Im sorry you had to go thru that. And you know.. despite how long the friendship was.. She was no good. You just dont do that to your friends. She has no loyalty. She'll get what's coming to her one day for not sticking up for you and picking the whore. (nods)

But you know.. Im glad this experiance made you stronger. It's good to know that it made you, and didn't break you. It just.. makes me really sad that it had to happen like that. Now you have friends though, and you have a place to go as well as other kids that are having those problems.

Im quite proud of you. (gives you a bear hug)

Heh, thanks Onee-san.

But I know it made me strong. But it really killed my trust for people, anyone really.

Though, even threw all of that, she did something worse.

No, thats fine. It doesn't bother me.

Well, after the 8th grade I had her e-mail and sience we HAD been good long friends I thought that I'd try to be mature about things and see if I could give our friend ship another shot.

Well, I e-mailed her up and I asked if she remembered the rumor back in the 7th grade and she said 'I have no clue what your talking about'

THATS the worse part of it. Because even though I did stay away from her as much as humanly possible in those 2 years she must had been in some kind of denail and thought we were still friends. How could she NOT see that rumor spread around? It went though all 3 grades. scream

Yeah. Thats the only part of it all that bugs me now days. She was in the middle of it all and never noticed anything.

Though, sometimes I'm actually happy that I went though all that. I would much rather it have been me then someone else that couldn't handlle all that pain I went though. And now days I can use it to inform people on different problems and that even GLBT issues happen as young as middle school.

It wasn't all bad, though it wasn't good at all.

^^ I missed by like 1 Or 2 votes at the end of the year last year for 'Public Rep' for GSA. But I'm happy for who won. Shes one of my friends, I know she'll do a great job.

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