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 Posted: Sun Jul 21, 2013 11:11 am
If you really knew me you'd know that I have dug out of my self hatred and learned to love the life I have, the beautiful girl I am, and face whatever demons head-on.
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Posted: Sun Jul 21, 2013 12:24 pm
ShalomTheStargazer Kurohimemiya ShalomTheStargazer If you really knew me, you would know that, at the same time as I believe I am the worst person in this world, I set higher standards for myself than anyone else alive. You might also know that I can see where this doesn't make sense, and though it troubles and confuses me, I haven't managed to change it yet. And do you also find that the longer this goes on the more you loathe yourself for being unable to do something so simple? Because I do. Yeah. I feel like if I can't change my own mind/how I think, how the hell am I supposed to change anything outside of me? How am I supposed to change anything in this world? And then do you wonder if it will ever matter, and you miss when things were simpler?
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Posted: Tue Jul 23, 2013 1:08 pm
Kurohimemiya ShalomTheStargazer Kurohimemiya ShalomTheStargazer If you really knew me, you would know that, at the same time as I believe I am the worst person in this world, I set higher standards for myself than anyone else alive. You might also know that I can see where this doesn't make sense, and though it troubles and confuses me, I haven't managed to change it yet. And do you also find that the longer this goes on the more you loathe yourself for being unable to do something so simple? Because I do. Yeah. I feel like if I can't change my own mind/how I think, how the hell am I supposed to change anything outside of me? How am I supposed to change anything in this world? And then do you wonder if it will ever matter, and you miss when things were simpler? Yes, yes, yes.
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Posted: Tue Jul 23, 2013 1:42 pm
ShalomTheStargazer Kurohimemiya ShalomTheStargazer Kurohimemiya ShalomTheStargazer If you really knew me, you would know that, at the same time as I believe I am the worst person in this world, I set higher standards for myself than anyone else alive. You might also know that I can see where this doesn't make sense, and though it troubles and confuses me, I haven't managed to change it yet. And do you also find that the longer this goes on the more you loathe yourself for being unable to do something so simple? Because I do. Yeah. I feel like if I can't change my own mind/how I think, how the hell am I supposed to change anything outside of me? How am I supposed to change anything in this world? And then do you wonder if it will ever matter, and you miss when things were simpler? Yes, yes, yes. So do I.
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Posted: Tue Jul 23, 2013 6:01 pm
if you really knew me you would hug me when you knew when i was forcing a smile. if you really knew me you know when sometimes you need a hug...i might need it worse...
i've told some of my friends but i can never really tell my parents or my family.
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Posted: Tue Jul 23, 2013 7:22 pm
If you really knew me, you'd see that I've changed so much since my teen years, you'd almost think I wasn't the same person. You'd see that my ability to forgive isn't because I want to forget, but to acknowledge, accept, and move forward towards a better present.
If you really knew me, you'd know that not even God could make me compromise my passions in life--I'd run for the hills before that could ever happen.
If you really knew me, you'd know that my true home is and always be inside my own skin, that for me to settle is for me to accept and embrace every part of who I am. I don't need a white picket fence.
If you really knew me, you'd know that even trying to keep me caged would be the worst mistake you could ever make against me. I go and live as I please--but if you respect that, I may take you along with me.
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Posted: Tue Jul 23, 2013 7:40 pm
If you really knew me. there would be two sides to my personality. one a honorable & humble man while the other a Charlatan & sex fiend.
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Posted: Wed Jul 24, 2013 10:36 pm
If you really knew me you'd realize I still haven't found someone who's willing to accept me for who I really am.
But, you'd also realize how alone I feel on a daily basis because of it.
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Posted: Tue Aug 06, 2013 4:16 pm
You wouldn't know it was me.
I have social anxiety. so Bad that I can't speak or move.
so this quirky personality is usually trapped in my head.
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Posted: Tue Sep 03, 2013 7:31 pm
If you really knew me...
You'd know on the outside, I seem perfectly fine. But honestly, for the past two months I've been at my lowest point and for the first time in my life, I've wanted to die.
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Posted: Tue Sep 03, 2013 10:44 pm
If you really knew me . . .
. . . You'd be able to tell when I'm lying. You'd know when I wasn't OK.
You'd know that I'm sorry I do the things I do and that I don't know why I do
them.
If you really knew me, you'd know that I cherish you.
Simply because you took the time to understand.
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Posted: Wed Sep 04, 2013 3:23 am
If you really knew me you'd know..
Whenever I have nightmares I revert back to acting like a five year old and freak out so bad I have to have my girlfriend tell me everything's okay.
Some think this is cute.. I think those few are crazy.
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Posted: Mon Sep 09, 2013 2:37 pm
If you really knew me...
You'd know that I still have no idea what I'm doing with my life. And that makes me so incredibly happy.
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Posted: Tue Sep 10, 2013 9:03 pm
If you really knew me you'd know that...
- I'm a hopeless romantic
- I have some trust issues because of my exes, and because of them, I've become a little clingy and I hate it
- I try my best to make people smile, even when I'm at my lowest
- I put others before I even consider myself
- I'm afraid of death, and what happens after this life
- I'm really sensitive
- I still can't get over my first love. I've been battling every day since we broke up, but I can't seem to let her go when she's probably thinking nothing of me
- I hate arguing with my mother
- I can control my anger very very well on the outside, it's the inside where I'm going insane
- I wish my family would accept me for who I am and just let me live my life
- I'm very protective when it concerns the ones I love and care for
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Posted: Wed Sep 11, 2013 4:39 pm
you'd see im a soft insecure guy who just wants to be held :p but i act like a tough boy...
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