Need some advice please~

[CottonCaty]

I am a thirty year old mom whom only within the past few years came out as bisexual to my closest friends and family. I am currently with my boyfriend/ fiance (we can't afford the ring yet lol ) and yet lately I have started noticing that I have little to no attraction to the opposite gender. He however, is very understanding about it and has no issues with me discovering this side of myself, even to the point of having a girlfriend if I wished. His on;y rule is that things are even as in if I have someone, he is allowed to do so as well. This is a problem for me as I have been through a lot and have PTSD from it, so I have trust issues. I am not sure what to do and yet everytime I feel myself getting curious or noting how attractive another woman is, I feel guilt. Does anyone have advice? Thank you in advance. ^^;  

[Tairn McBeth]

cant say ive ever been there but maybe you should just look for a third and try it out with out any strings attached then its even and no one has a side chick XD  

[airyflairy]

Just a little disclaimer that I'm no expert on this, but I'm just speaking from my own experience and I hope it's helpful but will understand if it's not.

I found my attraction to women when I was with a male partner too and my attraction to the opposite gender also pretty much decreased to nothing (though I think it's made a bit of a recovery since then). This sounds very much like the situation I was in, we broke up because I refused to go non-monogamous then got back together with sort of a similar agreement. If you're both serious about trying this, then what I'd advise is to look up open relationships/polyamory/about other non-monogamous relationship types as that will maybe give you a few ideas which could address some of the trust issues somewhat (though I completely understand that they're very difficult to overcome) but hopefully also cover how you're feeling guilty about it.