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atonement
i tore these from Your symbol and they turned to paper
the paper dissipated until it passed for ash
i have always loved a paradox
and like the bible, You are full of false logic and contradictions -
neither a quantum physicist, wizard, nor priest could make sense of the things You do
to me
but i, twelve years ago, gave up on god
he was not there for me, much like You
this time, i hope to beat my own record -
You see, i suffered eleven years of blind faith
but You ask so much more than the ten commandments
You strain me, drain my willpower with whispered words of welcome
only to shove me away when i don't stand up to Your standards
it has been six years with You now, and i pray
(though i know not to whom)
that it won't take twice as much again
to denounce You, too
Responses will be rewarded with whatever you want.
