This is a poem I wrote based off one of my Inuyasha characters. She is in love with Miroku and this poem is about her and one of the outcomes of her desicion.

Never Allowed

Trapped by pain and sorrow
Knowing now what I should do
To solve the problem with my heart

I am tormented
Tormented from my love
A torment of the greatest kind

To see him with another
Would break me apart
But it is a necessary pain

It is hard to admit the truth
To find out that one from long past was right
Darkness and light can never be together

Heart of ice
Heart of human
Who can say that we are true?

I am dark
He is light
Nevermore are we ever true

Night am I
Day is he
Always stuck in bittersweet dreams

Ever so wanting am I of him
Whilst he sleeps before me
Now in more pain than I could ever understand

The bed I sat before moments ago
Held his body in the most sincerest fashion
Almost like a grave

These claws on my hands
Unknowingly dealt the blow to him
Oh, how I hate deception

My enemy caused this blow
To this once young child I knew
But now he’s grown and loves me

This precious man let his boyhood fade in the darkness
So that he could be with me
For all eternity

But now it is I who should fade
Fade into everlasting sleep
So that he may be safe from me

So I can waste away in bittersweet dreams
With sleep not my ally
Nor my enemy

Heart of ice
Heart of human
Whoever thought that we could be true?

I am dark
He is light
Cursed nevermore to be true

Love cannot find us
All it can do is hate us
And cause us never to be true

Obsession
I was there once
Only to find myself a tool

True love
Now that was you
I knew that even with my heart of ice

I tried to force my heart to warm to you
But it would never allow it
For I am darkness

And forevermore will I remain…

No light
No life
No happiness

If I am of ice
Why do I feel so much pain?
I feel the cold beating against me

This harsh aura
Is this how asphalt feels
So warm and rough

Heart of ice
Heart of human
Who is to say that we are true?

I am dark
He is light
Nevermore wilst we be true

Fly away from me dear man of light
Go to someone who will care for you
For I cannot

Take care of him
Fight hard for him dear lady that finds him
Love him as I never could

Love him
As a heart of ice could not
Or just would not…

I do care for him deeply
As a protector should
But I cannot give him the love he so desires of me


Heart of ice
Heart of human
Can we be true?

I am dark
He is light
God, save me from this pain

I feel it again
Such a harsh aura
Is it Death coming for him?

I see something in the distance
It is a man on a pale horse
He is beautiful

He looks at me and speaks
He calls my name
Angelus Katrine

I walk slowly towards him
Cautiously
As he calls me once again

“You asked for a savior
I am here
So come to me angel of darkness”

I step forward
“You call me an angel of darkness
I think you to be Death”

“Still you step forward?”
He inquired
Seeming amused by my comment

“I do wish for Death
Please take me from my pain”
I beg to him

“As I said
You called for a savior
And here I am”

I looked at the pale horse
“You can free me
For forever?”

“Forever”
he said to me as he took my hand
The chains came as I knew they should

I had not atoned for the sins in my life
This I knew
I was hell bound

If he had joined me
He would have been hell bound too
This is why I could not be true