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 Posted: Fri Oct 12, 2012 11:35 pm
(( Yuui, it's bound to happen sooner or later. May as well let it be sooner and get it over with. xD ))
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Posted: Fri Oct 12, 2012 11:39 pm
Amu Tsukiyomi-sama KeatonIshTak05 Amu Tsukiyomi-sama KeatonIshTak05 Amu Tsukiyomi-sama Can I please just destroy something? Well, I don't recommend it, but one time I was feeling particularly destructive for no logical reason and ended up taking it out on my hair. I went from having hair to my hips to having a really short bob cut. Wow, that is really long hair.. Though, I'm not going to cut my hair anywhere near short. It's super curly. Yeah, and not to be offensive, but girls with afros look ridiculous. Well, white girls definitely do. I've seen black girls who looked really good with one. Me, I'd definitely look ridiculous with a curly fro. Maybe it's just a personal thing then. I've never seen an afro on anyone -of any skin color- that looked good.
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Posted: Fri Oct 12, 2012 11:39 pm
Amu Tsukiyomi-sama -Yuui-TR-Flourite- Amu Tsukiyomi-sama -Yuui-TR-Flourite- Amu Tsukiyomi-sama oh, I had to cook with my father. In anything that involves him, because of the years and years of mental/emotional torment he's caused me, if he pisses me off even slightly, I am pissed off for quite a while. Doesn't matter if he changes how he deals with me because he somehow miraculously noticed that I was pissed off, he screwed up so much before that I cannot deal with him. I just want out of this house, but haven't the means to do so (not enough monies/no car/no driver's license) add in the fact that I am "able to see outside the box" but am forced to work in the box because that's where everyone else is.....I'm sick of everything. I hate, hate, HATE being smart sometimes. There are advantages to being "blind" and "dumb" to existence of the box and the fact that you have to be in it. If you want to get out of there, be on your own.
Work hard, go through the best college you can get into.
After college.
Find the right job to help you get out of there.
When you start out.
It'll be stressful, then things will get easier on you.
Just hang out, keep head down so slightly, look forward.
You have to be strong.
Times like this I am acutely aware of how pathetic I can be if I let myself....and since being weak, pathetic is dangerous for me.....I feel bad. ******** all of this. Just ******** it all. No matter how much I talk it over, no matter how much I try to avoid being around/experiencing the stuff that will keep cutting into the mental/emotional wounds I have....being in this damn house, being around my damn ******** non-father....I want out. Just being around him is a constant drain on me mentally and emotionally. Like my invisible wounds are constantly being cut on when I have to deal with him. Had I the means.....I'd be gone. I'd talk to my mom, because she was the best parents I could have ever had, but not my "father".
And I don't want to burden others with my crap. It's not fair to them. Even if they've asked me. I'm odd like that....and yet I still explain because I'm trying so hard to get rid of the crap...
If you want out fast, the money needed for your future.
Go into the military.
Like a nurse or doctor or something that involves computers.
Don't have to pick something involving shooting a gun.
Just a idea.
I think.
You'll share a dorm with someone while your in training.
I'm sure.
They would have found something for you to do, layout the choices.
Might have to do morning work outs outside.
But not something over kill on you.
These are just ideas.
You could do some research.
What kind of jobs.
You can train for in the military.
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Posted: Fri Oct 12, 2012 11:40 pm
RandomKate (( Yuui, it's bound to happen sooner or later. May as well let it be sooner and get it over with. xD ))
NOOOOOOOOO
Never.
DX
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Posted: Fri Oct 12, 2012 11:43 pm
-Yuui-TR-Flourite- Amu Tsukiyomi-sama -Yuui-TR-Flourite- Amu Tsukiyomi-sama -Yuui-TR-Flourite- Amu Tsukiyomi-sama oh, I had to cook with my father. In anything that involves him, because of the years and years of mental/emotional torment he's caused me, if he pisses me off even slightly, I am pissed off for quite a while. Doesn't matter if he changes how he deals with me because he somehow miraculously noticed that I was pissed off, he screwed up so much before that I cannot deal with him. I just want out of this house, but haven't the means to do so (not enough monies/no car/no driver's license) add in the fact that I am "able to see outside the box" but am forced to work in the box because that's where everyone else is.....I'm sick of everything. I hate, hate, HATE being smart sometimes. There are advantages to being "blind" and "dumb" to existence of the box and the fact that you have to be in it. If you want to get out of there, be on your own.
Work hard, go through the best college you can get into.
After college.
Find the right job to help you get out of there.
When you start out.
It'll be stressful, then things will get easier on you.
Just hang out, keep head down so slightly, look forward.
You have to be strong.
Times like this I am acutely aware of how pathetic I can be if I let myself....and since being weak, pathetic is dangerous for me.....I feel bad. ******** all of this. Just ******** it all. No matter how much I talk it over, no matter how much I try to avoid being around/experiencing the stuff that will keep cutting into the mental/emotional wounds I have....being in this damn house, being around my damn ******** non-father....I want out. Just being around him is a constant drain on me mentally and emotionally. Like my invisible wounds are constantly being cut on when I have to deal with him. Had I the means.....I'd be gone. I'd talk to my mom, because she was the best parents I could have ever had, but not my "father".
And I don't want to burden others with my crap. It's not fair to them. Even if they've asked me. I'm odd like that....and yet I still explain because I'm trying so hard to get rid of the crap...
If you want out fast, the money needed for your future.
Go into the military.
Like a nurse or doctor or something that involves computers.
Don't have to pick something involving shooting a gun.
Just a idea.
I think.
You'll share a dorm with someone while your in training.
I'm sure.
They would have found something for you to do, layout the choices.
Might have to do morning work outs outside.
But not something over kill on you.
These are just ideas.
You could do some research.
What kind of jobs.
You can train for in the military.
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Posted: Fri Oct 12, 2012 11:45 pm
-Yuui-TR-Flourite- -Sapphire-Icy-Angel- -Yuui-TR-Flourite- -Sapphire-Icy-Angel-
o.o
Why is Yuui-san a ghost?
^^'
When I was a vampire.
I guess.
I died.
When I came too.
My body was in ashes. o.o
Would you like Sapphire-chan to revive you using your ashes?
I fear.
If you do that.
Minky-chan will find out, torture me to death as punishment.
emotion_sweatdrop
^-^
Yuui-san can hide, pretend dead to stay safe.
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Posted: Fri Oct 12, 2012 11:46 pm
KeatonIshTak05 Amu Tsukiyomi-sama KeatonIshTak05 Amu Tsukiyomi-sama KeatonIshTak05 Amu Tsukiyomi-sama Can I please just destroy something? Well, I don't recommend it, but one time I was feeling particularly destructive for no logical reason and ended up taking it out on my hair. I went from having hair to my hips to having a really short bob cut. Wow, that is really long hair.. Though, I'm not going to cut my hair anywhere near short. It's super curly. Yeah, and not to be offensive, but girls with afros look ridiculous. Well, white girls definitely do. I've seen black girls who looked really good with one. Me, I'd definitely look ridiculous with a curly fro. Maybe it's just a personal thing then. I've never seen an afro on anyone -of any skin color- that looked good. I only like short afros. Much past like two inches and they get weird looking to me. Except for these two white guys, who just looked comical with theirs. though one grew his hair out and now looks kinda...suave is the best word I can find.
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Posted: Fri Oct 12, 2012 11:49 pm
Amu Tsukiyomi-sama KeatonIshTak05 Amu Tsukiyomi-sama KeatonIshTak05 Amu Tsukiyomi-sama Wow, that is really long hair.. Though, I'm not going to cut my hair anywhere near short. It's super curly. Yeah, and not to be offensive, but girls with afros look ridiculous. Well, white girls definitely do. I've seen black girls who looked really good with one. Me, I'd definitely look ridiculous with a curly fro. Maybe it's just a personal thing then. I've never seen an afro on anyone -of any skin color- that looked good. I only like short afros. Much past like two inches and they get weird looking to me. Except for these two white guys, who just looked comical with theirs. though one grew his hair out and now looks kinda...suave is the best word I can find. Yeah, I guess if it's kept short and under control, it doesn't look too bad. I went to college with a set of white twins and one of them had a light blond afro. He was so much taller than me, though, that I generally didn't notice it. I can't see that high, apparently.
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Posted: Fri Oct 12, 2012 11:59 pm
(( XD At least you can be alive for a little bit, die again, and you're punishment won't be as painful from that point on. Although... This is Minky we're talking about. ))
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Posted: Sat Oct 13, 2012 12:12 am
Amu Tsukiyomi-sama -Yuui-TR-Flourite- Amu Tsukiyomi-sama -Yuui-TR-Flourite- Amu Tsukiyomi-sama I'm in college....but I need out sooner than that. I'm actually afraid of my father. He's 300lbs and can dent the domed part of a beer keg with his palm, no problem. And he came after me once with intent to harm....though that was almost nine years ago. I am actually worried he might lose it and harm me. Thank god he works late every single day... And I hate being strong. I've had to do that crap for as long as I can remember, because I was so much smarter (and still am) than the adults I was around and ran across. I had to be strong and ignore stuff for long enough that I no longer want to, but "being strong" has become second nature to me. I almost kinda can't be weak any more. I got burned so many times when I was weak and went for help from someone else....I learned to just not do that. More than anything, I want to be able to be weak, frail, scared and have someone I know I can go to (other than my mother, she has enough to deal with as it is...) and they'll....for lack of a better word....protect me. Not tell me I'm imagining things, not be all "why are you telling me this". But, no. I've not found that exactly yet....so I keep having to be "Strong"...*bitter tone*...
Times like this I am acutely aware of how pathetic I can be if I let myself....and since being weak, pathetic is dangerous for me.....I feel bad. ******** all of this. Just ******** it all. No matter how much I talk it over, no matter how much I try to avoid being around/experiencing the stuff that will keep cutting into the mental/emotional wounds I have....being in this damn house, being around my damn ******** non-father....I want out. Just being around him is a constant drain on me mentally and emotionally. Like my invisible wounds are constantly being cut on when I have to deal with him. Had I the means.....I'd be gone. I'd talk to my mom, because she was the best parents I could have ever had, but not my "father".
And I don't want to burden others with my crap. It's not fair to them. Even if they've asked me. I'm odd like that....and yet I still explain because I'm trying so hard to get rid of the crap...
If you want out fast, the money needed for your future.
Go into the military.
Like a nurse or doctor or something that involves computers.
Don't have to pick something involving shooting a gun.
Just a idea.
I think.
You'll share a dorm with someone while your in training.
I'm sure.
They would have found something for you to do, layout the choices.
Might have to do morning work outs outside.
But not something over kill on you.
These are just ideas.
You could do some research.
What kind of jobs.
You can train for in the military.
They'll get in your head, make you stronger.
They'll get you driven, you'll just do.
Without really thinking.
They'll draw out your weak side, replace it with I can do this, I will.
There is no try.
You will do it, be a pro at it.
I don't know.
If you'll pass.
My brother's friend went into the marines, he had some problems with he's family, was stuck.
After 4 years.
He was a completely different, stronger person.
He's married now, has a baby boy, living far away from his family, near his wife's family instead, happy.
He stays in touch with my brother, they game.
He's still the friend he is but stronger.
I use to try to wrestle with him, now I won't dare.
Because I know I'll lose.
lol
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Posted: Sat Oct 13, 2012 12:14 am
Alright, lovelies. I guess I'll see you all later. ^^ Bye.
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Posted: Sat Oct 13, 2012 12:16 am
-Sapphire-Icy-Angel- -Yuui-TR-Flourite- -Sapphire-Icy-Angel- -Yuui-TR-Flourite- -Sapphire-Icy-Angel-
o.o
Why is Yuui-san a ghost?
^^'
When I was a vampire.
I guess.
I died.
When I came too.
My body was in ashes. o.o
Would you like Sapphire-chan to revive you using your ashes?
I fear.
If you do that.
Minky-chan will find out, torture me to death as punishment.
emotion_sweatdrop
^-^
Yuui-san can hide, pretend dead to stay safe.
Someone I killed as a vampire might tell.
To get revenge.
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Posted: Sat Oct 13, 2012 12:18 am
RandomKate (( XD At least you can be alive for a little bit, die again, and you're punishment won't be as painful from that point on. Although... This is Minky we're talking about. )) DX
I don't trust you.
You'll probably get me killed to get revenge.
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Posted: Sat Oct 13, 2012 12:23 am
-Yuui-TR-Flourite- -Sapphire-Icy-Angel- -Yuui-TR-Flourite- -Sapphire-Icy-Angel- -Yuui-TR-Flourite- ^^'
When I was a vampire.
I guess.
I died.
When I came too.
My body was in ashes. o.o
Would you like Sapphire-chan to revive you using your ashes?
I fear.
If you do that.
Minky-chan will find out, torture me to death as punishment.
emotion_sweatdrop
^-^
Yuui-san can hide, pretend dead to stay safe.
Someone I killed as a vampire might tell.
To get revenge. 0.0
Oh!
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Posted: Sat Oct 13, 2012 12:24 am
Princess_Izayoi Nikakaeo  Uh.... Nice to see you too, Izayoi... I think I... Uh..... Have to go somewhere. You know, the thing with the time. See ya! -attempts to run like hell out of there-
~Giggles~
heart
-is as far away as i can be by now-
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