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That's an interesting pattern, seems useful in calculating quickly if you don't have a calculator or paper. I wonder if they just accidentally swapped the 6 and the 9 and just didn't want to admit they did something wrong. Whatever the case that's rather immature of the teacher to get annoyed at you for it…

I think I actually had rather good luck with school when it came to teachers that I liked most of them I did like so didn't have much problems with. I did have a reading comprehension teacher that really annoyed me (partly because I didn't feel I belonged in the class since I read a lot). She basically insulted me and my parents on the first day of class. She found out I was homeschooled and starting college at 16 and commented something like "Well, I guess we'll see if your parents taught you right." And I think she made some comment about me not being old enough to start college… I didn't even try that hard in the class and still got an A.

Since I don't believe that at all, I'm just going to post a picture of what something I saw recently that prolly describes the situation.




Just because other things don't have concrete visuals defining their greatness doesn't mean they aren't great in and of themselves. Since I know damn well how critical you are of yourself, I feel confident in saying you're very good with other things.....
Just less confident with them, perhaps because they've gone unpraised.

blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah so to get insurance again its going to be $500ish up front and like $180 a month after. My issues seem to be getting worse and worse in that just thinking of leaving the house is making me sick. I need to see a doctor about this and that but i cant since i'm not covered and we dont have the cash for any sort of doctors bills...plus its funny how im getting more and more agoraphobic or whatever and to get help i need to leave the house but thats whats making me sick. that and all the stress of not knowing where my life is going and not being able to find work...my issues seem to keep looking around into themselves. It also doesnt help my mom does that mom thing where she just dismisses my issues as me just being lazy and trying to get out of doing stuff, so yay for no support whatsoever in this house. At least i got a few people keeping me reasonably sane online but with one thats a whole nother bucket of questions. i need money and a plane ticket...and to not have my issues leaving the house.

I know I'm not the one you were asking, but you're good at a lot of things, Kestin.

You're a good writer. I don't know if you actually do any creative writing, but from what I've seen here and in IMs and stuff, you're really good at expressing yourself through words.
You're fiercely loyal as a friend.
You do well in school. I know this whole conversation has been about grades not mattering, but someone who isn't intelligent wouldn't even be able to come close to getting the kind of grades that you get. It does take dedication to continue your education, but especially to be able to hold yourself to such high standards when it comes to your grades (Although you could definitely lower those standards a little bit and still be plenty successful =P)
You're actually pretty funny. You have kind of a subtle sense of humor about things, but even just reading your Facebook statuses and stuff tends to make me laugh sometimes.

And that's just the tip of the iceberg. You're an awesome person who's good at plenty of things.

*mumbles awkwardly and shuffles feet* Thank you...I'm sure I've explained this to each of you before, but I was a really bratty teenager, and I thought I was so great back then, and when I realized that I was completely wrong, I just lost all confidence in my ability to self-judge. So it always means a lot to hear these things.

I think it's a bit of a contradiction to say that getting good grades is all you've ever been good at since in order to get good grades you have to be good at learning the material in classes and studying to prepare for tests and such. Also, if you had good grades in all your classes then that shows an ability to learn the material and such even when you don't like a subject/class which I think can sometimes mean more then getting a good grade in a topic you love, since if you love it it's easy to study. I always have had a hard time with doing well in topics I don't like.

Also, just because I started college early DOESN'T mean I'm a "genius". Getting into college is not hard, especially since in my case it was community college so all I had to do was take a placement test and that's it. I got good grades in most my classes since all the majority of tests were easy multiple choice tests. Afterwards being in University my GPA went down since the difficulty in classes went up, an "A" was now a lot harder to obtain.

I may be wrong but that seems similar to your situation, and honestly at first I was a little discouraged when my GPA started to go down. I really wanted to ace all my classes, but with so much resting on exams if you screwed up just a little bit your chances of getting an "A" in the class now are diminished. So what I've realized is that the reason I don't think GPA means a ton is that depending on what classes you're taking it might be easy to get a 4.0 that semester, or you might work your but off and get something a lot lower. And it's all very subjective, even if it's the same class the difficulty in getting an "A" may be very different. And every semester has it's own challenges outside of school and within so regardless of teacher and interest in the class, depending on other factors the difficulty in getting the desired grade in the class might be easy or difficult. Am I even making sense? I often have trouble saying what's in my head, I think that's why I end up saying so much is in hopes that if I say a lot I might get my point across…

So when I say thing like "grades don't matter" I don't mean they have no significance, I just mean they aren't the most important thing and I don't think it's a very consistent measurement. I could take the same class as someone and we both get an "A" but took the class a year apart, and it's possible that just due to that the grade means something different.

Cell biology at my school the professor that teaches in the fall people are happy and feel accomplish at getting a "C" since the class is so hard and they worked hard for that grade (even if they normally get A's all the time). The teacher in the spring is easier so a "C" from him could mean something different since not as much work is required to get a "C" from him.

You are not worthless. Really, you are worth how ever much you perceive yourself to be. If you keep telling yourself you're worthless that's what you'll think. Try and see yourself in a more positive light and think more highly of yourself. A positive attitude can do wonders. I know this from personal experience, and I know it can be hard if you don't have a lot of people encouraging you (I have no idea how many you have though…) but clearly just from seeing LMF and Div's view of you it seems there's lots of good aspects to you.

I don't know you very well, but from the conversations I've had with you in the past I'd say you are an interesting person to talk to and the main thing you need now is self encouragement. Also, try not to worry so much and I'm sure you'll feel better for less worry 3nodding

On a side note: I seriously need to learn to take my own advice… I worry far too much and it stresses me out. Whenever I'm able to convince myself, however, that there's nothing to worry about, or at least nothing I can do, then I stress less and feel happier.

I seriously don't know how suicide hotline workers can do this. I'm so worried and stressed just helping one upset person who is trying to help another. It is so hard to know what to say. I hope I am helping her, even just a little.