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 Posted: Mon Feb 25, 2013 5:19 pm
Buh its that time again where nothing at all seems to give me any joy and i just feel worthless in everything i do.
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Posted: Mon Feb 25, 2013 7:04 pm
clockwerksentinel Buh its that time again where nothing at all seems to give me any joy and i just feel worthless in everything i do. Eating chocolate does the trick for me~ Secret: I JUST DROPPED MY MATHEMATICAL REASONS COURSE! Yeah, couldn't handle 5:30 PM class for 1.25 hours... and I was getting lost so I couldn't keep up with my other math classes. Oh well.
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Posted: Tue Feb 26, 2013 12:08 am
null_silence clockwerksentinel Buh its that time again where nothing at all seems to give me any joy and i just feel worthless in everything i do. Eating chocolate does the trick for me~ Secret: I JUST DROPPED MY MATHEMATICAL REASONS COURSE! Yeah, couldn't handle 5:30 PM class for 1.25 hours... and I was getting lost so I couldn't keep up with my other math classes. Oh well. Do you bury me when I'm gone?
Do you teach me while I'm here?
Late classes suck. I've always hated having them, especially since while I was in class, my friends were having dinner, and when I was done with class, they were done with dinner, so I got to eat alone.
For mine: and so it begins. I'm lonely enough that I start unconsciously seeking someone to fill that hole I feel, with no care as to who it is, so long as they fill it. At least repeating my mantra has helped me get to sleep: no news is good news.
Just as soon as I belong
Then it's time I disappear
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Posted: Tue Feb 26, 2013 8:55 am
*curls into small ball of sadness* Please make all the horrible horrible things go away now
AKA currently not enjoying honours project at all. Even if my supervisor has in fact noticed my absence for the last few days. Which I was completely surprised by.
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Posted: Tue Feb 26, 2013 10:37 am
Cannibal Horsey *curls into small ball of sadness* Please make all the horrible horrible things go away now
AKA currently not enjoying honours project at all. Even if my supervisor has in fact noticed my absence for the last few days. Which I was completely surprised by. Do you bury me when I'm gone?
Do you teach me while I'm here?
*hugs tightly* So many bad things, someone needs to find that damned magic wand and WAVE IT! D<
Just as soon as I belong
Then it's time I disappear
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Posted: Tue Feb 26, 2013 1:15 pm
Yoru Kurosawa Cannibal Horsey *curls into small ball of sadness* Please make all the horrible horrible things go away now
AKA currently not enjoying honours project at all. Even if my supervisor has in fact noticed my absence for the last few days. Which I was completely surprised by. Do you bury me when I'm gone?
Do you teach me while I'm here?
*hugs tightly* So many bad things, someone needs to find that damned magic wand and WAVE IT! D<
Just as soon as I belong
Then it's time I disappear
Thanks sweetie
Just feeling super depressed today. Like I want to cry. Other half was lovely though, was on the phone to me for half an hour just talk, or rather him listening to my usual ramble. Just really want hugs. Probably able to demand some tomorrow.
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Posted: Wed Feb 27, 2013 12:12 am
Do you bury me when I'm gone?
Do you teach me while I'm here? LinkOh, my god... The above leads to a song. A song I wrote one year and one day before he broke up with me. How's that for sickeningly funny? Did I foretell my relationship's demise? Gods... Just... It's too much. Just as soon as I belong
Then it's time I disappear
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Posted: Wed Feb 27, 2013 4:51 am
Little story of what I went (or still "am" going through) *WARNING: NSFW & whitening some... well severely mature sections not suitable for kids*:
I can't remember if I talked about him, but his name is Alex. He is from the same high school that I went to, and when I first started coming out during junior year my friends told me that he was also homosexual. I usually stay in the art room in the morning, so when he comes in I just pretend I'm asleep. One day, he contact me on Facebook with the saying "Hey Homo", and explained that he noticed my glances at him lol. So we talked and hit it off (as conversation buddies) and expressed our personal lives (family, future plans etc). We wanted to make plans to see each other, but alas he's been busy with work so it never happened. Though, we also had a little conversation that involved him offering to show his... [well that] to me on camera though the one on my laptop didn't work at the time. *sighs* So we talked a little bit during our freshman year (he's in a college that's 5 hours away) and that was it. During sophmore year he told me he was coming to Richmond for Pride Fest! We talked on Skype for once where he somehow remembered to keep his promise of showing his... and I did the same LOL *SO EMBARASSING* since I was in the living room of the apartment. Yeah, I was at high risk in case my suite-mates/room mate woke up! Well I even offered my virginity to him.... When we ended the chat, he said the words "If you wanna talk to me, just ask and I'll be there" and somehow I fell for it.
I guess he's busy, so he never responded to any FB chats I posted to him at least once every 2 months. He's on spring break which ends by the time mine begins. Why am I so... lost into people that I know for sure wouldn't give 2 shits about me, or they're just so busy with other people in close proximity. I guess that's how friendship works o_O; At least I got to hug him during pride fest and see him as a waiter in speedos server jello shots at Godfrey's, which serves LGBT night on Wednesdays and was PACKED during pride fest day.
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Posted: Wed Feb 27, 2013 8:22 am
keito melfina Little story of what I went (or still "am" going through) *WARNING: NSFW & whitening some... well severely mature sections not suitable for kids*: I can't remember if I talked about him, but his name is Alex. He is from the same high school that I went to, and when I first started coming out during junior year my friends told me that he was also homosexual. I usually stay in the art room in the morning, so when he comes in I just pretend I'm asleep. One day, he contact me on Facebook with the saying "Hey Homo", and explained that he noticed my glances at him lol. So we talked and hit it off (as conversation buddies) and expressed our personal lives (family, future plans etc). We wanted to make plans to see each other, but alas he's been busy with work so it never happened. Though, we also had a little conversation that involved him offering to show his... [well that] to me on camera though the one on my laptop didn't work at the time. *sighs* So we talked a little bit during our freshman year (he's in a college that's 5 hours away) and that was it. During sophmore year he told me he was coming to Richmond for Pride Fest! We talked on Skype for once where he somehow remembered to keep his promise of showing his... and I did the same LOL *SO EMBARASSING* since I was in the living room of the apartment. Yeah, I was at high risk in case my suite-mates/room mate woke up! Well I even offered my virginity to him.... When we ended the chat, he said the words "If you wanna talk to me, just ask and I'll be there" and somehow I fell for it. I guess he's busy, so he never responded to any FB chats I posted to him at least once every 2 months. He's on spring break which ends by the time mine begins. Why am I so... lost into people that I know for sure wouldn't give 2 shits about me, or they're just so busy with other people in close proximity. I guess that's how friendship works o_O; At least I got to hug him during pride fest and see him as a waiter in speedos server jello shots at Godfrey's, which serves LGBT night on Wednesdays and was PACKED during pride fest day. Do you bury me when I'm gone?
Do you teach me while I'm here?
That seems... off. I dunno, maybe recent events have made my spidey-senses all screwy, but that seems... off. If you can get him to respond, see what he says about why he hasn't responded to you.
But with luck, my spidey-senses are being all screwy and he really is just busy. Best of luck, but be careful, okay?
Just as soon as I belong
Then it's time I disappear
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Posted: Wed Feb 27, 2013 8:35 am
Sometimes I pretend I'm not a pizza. Hehe.
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Posted: Wed Feb 27, 2013 10:17 am
Yoru Kurosawa keito melfina Little story of what I went (or still "am" going through) *WARNING: NSFW & whitening some... well severely mature sections not suitable for kids*: I can't remember if I talked about him, but his name is Alex. He is from the same high school that I went to, and when I first started coming out during junior year my friends told me that he was also homosexual. I usually stay in the art room in the morning, so when he comes in I just pretend I'm asleep. One day, he contact me on Facebook with the saying "Hey Homo", and explained that he noticed my glances at him lol. So we talked and hit it off (as conversation buddies) and expressed our personal lives (family, future plans etc). We wanted to make plans to see each other, but alas he's been busy with work so it never happened. Though, we also had a little conversation that involved him offering to show his... [well that] to me on camera though the one on my laptop didn't work at the time. *sighs* So we talked a little bit during our freshman year (he's in a college that's 5 hours away) and that was it. During sophmore year he told me he was coming to Richmond for Pride Fest! We talked on Skype for once where he somehow remembered to keep his promise of showing his... and I did the same LOL *SO EMBARASSING* since I was in the living room of the apartment. Yeah, I was at high risk in case my suite-mates/room mate woke up! Well I even offered my virginity to him.... When we ended the chat, he said the words "If you wanna talk to me, just ask and I'll be there" and somehow I fell for it. I guess he's busy, so he never responded to any FB chats I posted to him at least once every 2 months. He's on spring break which ends by the time mine begins. Why am I so... lost into people that I know for sure wouldn't give 2 shits about me, or they're just so busy with other people in close proximity. I guess that's how friendship works o_O; At least I got to hug him during pride fest and see him as a waiter in speedos server jello shots at Godfrey's, which serves LGBT night on Wednesdays and was PACKED during pride fest day. Do you bury me when I'm gone?
Do you teach me while I'm here?
That seems... off. I dunno, maybe recent events have made my spidey-senses all screwy, but that seems... off. If you can get him to respond, see what he says about why he hasn't responded to you.
But with luck, my spidey-senses are being all screwy and he really is just busy. Best of luck, but be careful, okay?
Just as soon as I belong
Then it's time I disappear He's a Residential Assistant, so he has some work days there Dx He also posts pictures on Facebook when he's at an outing with his female friends (or they tag him mostly). Bah, I shouldn't get hung up on this crying
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Posted: Thu Feb 28, 2013 5:45 pm
Where is a giant rock when you need one.
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Posted: Mon Mar 04, 2013 1:10 am
Do you bury me when I'm gone?
Do you teach me while I'm here?
I feel like I'm trapped in a blizzard.
Just as soon as I belong
Then it's time I disappear
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Posted: Mon Mar 04, 2013 3:25 pm
*Try to think positively, get crashed down on by a ton of nuisances.*
*Try to not hold self back. Holding negativity back while negativity holds me back, while I hold it back while it holds me back. Round and round I go. Where it will stop, nobody knows.*
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Posted: Tue Mar 05, 2013 8:38 pm
Forgive me for I have sinned, in saying the stigmatizing word "hermaphrodite" which made the crew lose an aggro-tank in DMS who was dubiously offended and left without warning.
This is what the constant destruction of language has led to, so be it. *Feel free to call me an insensitive a*****e*.
EDIT: Okay said tanker forgave me since it wasn't the language, it was the way it was presented "as a joke" since... said person is trans (FtM or MtF idk). I don't see how saying Lady Gaga is a Hermaphrodite (presenting X person has _ condition) correlates to "Ha ha trans-people are funny" or "X is __ even though we know X is not really _ thus those who are __ are to be laughed at". Bah..
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