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 Posted: Mon Dec 03, 2012 9:20 pm
My lack of motivation bothers me.
It'd be exceptionally simple to destroy any college level course if I could give a damn, but the sad thing is I don't give a damn.
Don't care enough to get a job presently, which is somewhat annoying. See a number of crap things like the aforementioned college system which I could at least try to fix, but....
Meh.
Wish I could even bother myself to actually write anything. Damn I lack focus.
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Posted: Tue Dec 04, 2012 2:33 pm
Have finally gotten in touch with student counselling cause yay
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Posted: Tue Dec 04, 2012 3:26 pm
I make good cheese cake biggrin <3
She vanished :emolemons:
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Posted: Tue Dec 04, 2012 9:17 pm
I swear to god I'm on the verge of another emotional breakdown. I say another, because I've already had one this week. Yay!
1. I called off work 2 MONTHS in advance because I was 100% sure that I didn't want to work that night. I NEVER call off work, so I think that it should be more than okay that I call of work ONCE. As much as I care about my job and the company/program itself, it really isn't my problem that you hired mostly college students from the same college. It's bound to happen that we all have final exams at the same time. Regardless, I called off two months ago because I knew I had two exams that day and a huge exam the next night that I REALLY need to study before. Heck, I'm even coming in twice this week even though my final exam is the next morning. Then you tell me I can't call off because two other people also wanted to call off. What. The. ********. I called off TWO ******** MONTHS in advance so that this wouldn't happen. Yes, technically I don't have exams during the work time, but I need to study. You think I'm all smart, but I'm literally going to fail this class. I literally have 30% in the class right now. I don't think you understand how literal I am being about this. I am failing this class. LITERALLY. VERY MUCH. RIGHT NOW.
2. I'm going to fail my first college class. Not fail as in get a "D." Failure. Transcript grade of "E."
3. Looking for an apartment that's within the "safe" areas that is considered off campus. Looking for an apartment that allows 3 people to live in 2 bedrooms and has a good sized kitchen. Looking for an apartment that fits within our budget.
4. Guilt in hating on one of my roommates. I'm not ******** empathetic when regarding failing grades, okay? You're failing your class too? Great! Let's fail together. Yeah, no. While we're talking about you, DON'T CHEW WITH YOUR MOUTH OPEN. OMFG.
5. Saying "GTFO" too often out loud instead of just in my head lololololol. Sorry peoples haha.
6. My body & my body image (head) stressed
7. Sick people around me.
8. Racist and homophobic people around. Seriously, GTFO. I don't need any more s**t in my life than have to deal with you.
9. People who cannot grasp the concept of GRAMMAR. You're =/= Your.
I'm sure I sound like a stuck up asshat right now but I've been running on 3-4 hours of sleep every night and it's just not working with added stress. I just want a cuddly dog, someone who will tell me that it'll be alright and suggest what I should do other than "Take it one step at a time", a run, and sleep. Quote: Your stress is not a real thing to anyone but you. Stress is real, obviously, but only to you. It is something that dwells entirely within you. It does not exist as a noun in other people's lives except in how you interact with them. - Adulting
I need to remember this, but that's what makes it that much more difficult, right? There comes a point where you can't / shouldn't just sit alone outside crying and you should seek some advice - but there's no guarantee that everything will work out. It's not a pessimistic thought, it's simply reality.
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Posted: Tue Dec 04, 2012 11:47 pm
I know how you feel I've been emotional breaking down for a month now with a variety of different actual break downs through out.
There is no advice I can give, because nothing I say or do here can truly make it better. All I can say is there are people out there who care and will listen and do their best to make you feel better even though there is very little we can physically do to make everything that's causing the stress to go away.
And at least you have reasons for hating on people (yeh they might be nit picky but hey its a reason) I'm hating on some people for no reason at all other than that they exist. Which kinda isn't their fault.
So yeh; TLDR we're here if you need us but there isn't much we can do to make it stop
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Posted: Thu Dec 06, 2012 7:00 am
Divine_Malevolence My lack of motivation bothers me. It'd be exceptionally simple to destroy any college level course if I could give a damn, but the sad thing is I don't give a damn. Don't care enough to get a job presently, which is somewhat annoying. See a number of crap things like the aforementioned college system which I could at least try to fix, but.... Meh. Wish I could even bother myself to actually write anything. Damn I lack focus. Dealing with this right now, and it sucks :c
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Posted: Thu Dec 06, 2012 8:18 pm
Going away on a cruise in 10 days.
Realizing I should get on the losing weight bandwagon again...crap.
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Posted: Thu Dec 06, 2012 10:54 pm
-Mizu teh Artsi- Going away on a cruise in 10 days.
Realizing I should get on the losing weight bandwagon again...crap.
Yay for holidays! I'd love to go on a cruise right now.
And you shouldn't do anything. If you're happy enough where you are stay that way and if you're not I'd suggest after christmas and all the mountains of food over the new year might be a better time to try and start a health kick since (generally) its doomed to fail over the festive season. You'll be amazing whatever you do heart
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Posted: Fri Dec 07, 2012 8:05 am
Cannibal Horsey -Mizu teh Artsi- Going away on a cruise in 10 days.
Realizing I should get on the losing weight bandwagon again...crap.
Yay for holidays! I'd love to go on a cruise right now.
And you shouldn't do anything. If you're happy enough where you are stay that way and if you're not I'd suggest after christmas and all the mountains of food over the new year might be a better time to try and start a health kick since (generally) its doomed to fail over the festive season. You'll be amazing whatever you do heart
omg Peo so awesome and probs right ;;;; heart heart heart Imma be a pig for the Holidays, though my weight isn't moving anywhere, which is good. I shouldddd be down, but it's a slow process xD
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Posted: Fri Dec 07, 2012 9:23 am
-Mizu teh Artsi- Cannibal Horsey -Mizu teh Artsi- Going away on a cruise in 10 days.
Realizing I should get on the losing weight bandwagon again...crap.
Yay for holidays! I'd love to go on a cruise right now.
And you shouldn't do anything. If you're happy enough where you are stay that way and if you're not I'd suggest after christmas and all the mountains of food over the new year might be a better time to try and start a health kick since (generally) its doomed to fail over the festive season. You'll be amazing whatever you do heart
omg Peo so awesome and probs right ;;;; heart heart heart Imma be a pig for the Holidays, though my weight isn't moving anywhere, which is good. I shouldddd be down, but it's a slow process xD
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Posted: Fri Dec 07, 2012 11:50 am
Trying as a class to list things.
Kayaking comes up. I think originally it's spelt differently. Bitchgurl (as I have so notably dubbed, long story if you want to learn about that, PM me), goes in a preppy voice 'uhm, no, it doesn't have a c' like I'm an idiot (as she does with just about everyone, including teachers).
That girl is such a waste of space on this planet.
Come on mars, get here already, we have your first occupant!
rolleyes her maturity level is non-existant.
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Posted: Fri Dec 07, 2012 11:54 am
Cannibal Horsey -Mizu teh Artsi- Cannibal Horsey -Mizu teh Artsi- Going away on a cruise in 10 days.
Realizing I should get on the losing weight bandwagon again...crap.
Yay for holidays! I'd love to go on a cruise right now.
And you shouldn't do anything. If you're happy enough where you are stay that way and if you're not I'd suggest after christmas and all the mountains of food over the new year might be a better time to try and start a health kick since (generally) its doomed to fail over the festive season. You'll be amazing whatever you do heart
omg Peo so awesome and probs right ;;;; heart heart heart Imma be a pig for the Holidays, though my weight isn't moving anywhere, which is good. I shouldddd be down, but it's a slow process xD
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Posted: Fri Dec 07, 2012 12:00 pm
So my ex-boyfriend asked me to go back with him yesterday, and the best I could do was maybe. I couldn't just turn round even after everything he's done and say no *le sigh* Oh well, at least I'm being tough about what he needs to do before I'll think about it seriously
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