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 Posted: Tue Nov 13, 2012 1:40 pm
SoulSkourer Oh god I haven't posted in here in how long? 6 months? Man that's a long time My last post on this thread was probably like 300 pages ago Regardless, I still don't think I've ever truly thanked everyone that's been here when I first got here, like 4 years ago at this point At that point in my life, I was going through a real rough patch in my life (relatively speaking, I'm sure i'm just suffering FIRST WORLD PROBLEMS that should be frivolous): I was alone in my school, and no one would talk to me due to both mistakes I had made and the vicious lies of other people. Yet, ironically, the person that was most responsible for making my 8th grade suck also introduced me to what saved it, Gaia. Though I found this place on my own, it really had a stabilizing effect on me, and I truly learned that even without ever actually meeting someone, you can create meaningful friendships with them. Just today, someone asked me what my favorite animal was (if you don't know it it's kind of obvious from my avatar: Owls), something that was fostered by being here. Afterall, I was the owl guy. My friend asking me this reminded me of all the times I had here, and how I had so rudely just left this place. I know some of the people that knew me are still here, and I must say: Thank you very much -Soul *pats* Well I came back as well, from 2 years(?) or a 6 months I can't remember lol. Even though it's been 4 years, I can still remember events that took place in the beginning... Ooohhh I hope you're doing alright now!
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Posted: Tue Nov 13, 2012 2:18 pm
SoulSkourer Oh god I haven't posted in here in how long? 6 months? Man that's a long time My last post on this thread was probably like 300 pages ago Regardless, I still don't think I've ever truly thanked everyone that's been here when I first got here, like 4 years ago at this point At that point in my life, I was going through a real rough patch in my life (relatively speaking, I'm sure i'm just suffering FIRST WORLD PROBLEMS that should be frivolous): I was alone in my school, and no one would talk to me due to both mistakes I had made and the vicious lies of other people. Yet, ironically, the person that was most responsible for making my 8th grade suck also introduced me to what saved it, Gaia. Though I found this place on my own, it really had a stabilizing effect on me, and I truly learned that even without ever actually meeting someone, you can create meaningful friendships with them. Just today, someone asked me what my favorite animal was (if you don't know it it's kind of obvious from my avatar: Owls), something that was fostered by being here. Afterall, I was the owl guy. My friend asking me this reminded me of all the times I had here, and how I had so rudely just left this place. I know some of the people that knew me are still here, and I must say: Thank you very much -Soul Soul! I missed you. *hug*
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Posted: Wed Nov 14, 2012 1:39 am
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That is so sweet Soul. I'm really happy to hear we managed to help out ('first world problems' are just tough in different ways to other issues like starvation, not less important <3 ). I got all emotional reading this little thank you note. Also don't stress about leaving, life happens to all of us ^^ Gosh you're so adorable crying
You will forever be my owl boy heart emotion_hug
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Posted: Wed Nov 14, 2012 8:38 am
keito melfina *pats* Well I came back as well, from 2 years(?) or a 6 months I can't remember lol. Even though it's been 4 years, I can still remember events that took place in the beginning... Ooohhh I hope you're doing alright now! It's like a blast from the past. All the nostalgia and good times come back biggrin I'm doing okay, I mean I have a lot of work going on in my life because i'm doing the IB Diploma program, but I've been marvy the whole time I think Shanghai's weather's getting to me though, I've been getting sick more often... Though that may just be because I"m getting less sleep @Cannibal: I missed you too :c And you perfect also Thanks for remembering me too perfy biggrin
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Posted: Thu Nov 15, 2012 4:09 am
Went to see the doctor today about everything. Was given sleeping tablets due to my lack of any sort of decent sleep in the last 3 weeks. Stopped short of giving me antidepressants and instead directed me to some different sites that have ways of coping with depression without the use of medication. After that he kept insisting he wasn't saying I was depressed. To be quite honest I am and am more than willing to admit it.
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Posted: Thu Nov 15, 2012 6:09 am
You know you're in love when you find yourself staying up until 4am on a school night just to talk to him about muffins and maple syrup XD
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Posted: Thu Nov 15, 2012 12:54 pm
Who knew one person could make you so ******** miserable with a couple words? Haven't felt this s**t about myself since I was being bullied at school
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Posted: Thu Nov 15, 2012 3:29 pm
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Posted: Fri Nov 16, 2012 12:58 am
Little Miss Fortune You know you're in love when you find yourself staying up until 4am on a school night just to talk to him about muffins and maple syrup XD I am happy for you that you found someone smile I recently started dating this amazing guy as well. I can relate to staying up late chatting about random stuff until late hours of the night XD though our conversations usually revolve around science in some form or another.
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Posted: Sun Nov 18, 2012 9:40 am
Cannibal Horsey Who knew one person could make you so ******** miserable with a couple words? Haven't felt this s**t about myself since I was being bullied at school Sorry for being late but D: What happened? In regards to this and your other post, there seems to be a difference when a doctor diagnoses something (or really anyone else actually says something) and when you the person say something to yourself. At least from personal experience, whenever we badmouth ourselves or are "honest" to ourselves, there's always a shred of doubt within ourselves (usually) that makes us a little more prudent about acting on our criticisms. This is why self deprecation is 104920394029305920495029405930495x not as harmful than bullying. On the other hand, when someone else says something you've been saying to yourself, particularly someone with authority in the area (like your doctor) says something, it hold a particular weight within you that makes you the person (sorry for being weird about the terms, 1. it's 2:00 AM and 2. i'm not just trying to say you as in you canni, but the person who's being addressed/addressing him/herself) believe it much more, without that grain of salt. I mean, although this analogy isn't the best (due to the sayer actually having negative expertise), that is how all bullies get their "power". Perhaps this has something to do with the concept of "self deception" or, more likely, i'm just totally wrong. Either way, don't be too hard on yourself, and I'm sure your doctor didn't want to say the D word because of internal monologues
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Posted: Sun Nov 18, 2012 10:35 am
SoulSkourer Cannibal Horsey Who knew one person could make you so ******** miserable with a couple words? Haven't felt this s**t about myself since I was being bullied at school Sorry for being late but D: What happened? In regards to this and your other post, there seems to be a difference when a doctor diagnoses something (or really anyone else actually says something) and when you the person say something to yourself. At least from personal experience, whenever we badmouth ourselves or are "honest" to ourselves, there's always a shred of doubt within ourselves (usually) that makes us a little more prudent about acting on our criticisms. This is why self deprecation is 104920394029305920495029405930495x not as harmful than bullying. On the other hand, when someone else says something you've been saying to yourself, particularly someone with authority in the area (like your doctor) says something, it hold a particular weight within you that makes you the person (sorry for being weird about the terms, 1. it's 2:00 AM and 2. i'm not just trying to say you as in you canni, but the person who's being addressed/addressing him/herself) believe it much more, without that grain of salt. I mean, although this analogy isn't the best (due to the sayer actually having negative expertise), that is how all bullies get their "power". Perhaps this has something to do with the concept of "self deception" or, more likely, i'm just totally wrong. Either way, don't be too hard on yourself, and I'm sure your doctor didn't want to say the D word because of internal monologues Boyfriend for the last 4 and a half years broke up with me one sunday morning (like 2am over the phone). We met up later on, talked it over, he seemed really upset at the idea so we decided to take a break instead. Over the two weeks we were on a break he was lovely, it was almost like how our relationship used to be. And then we met up last week to talk everything over before he started night shift and he broke up with me, he said it was because he didn't love me anymore. On top of that is money worries, university stress (its my final year and I'm overloaded with work), work stress and trying to get into medical school/trying to plan for my future. And then this happens and I just can't cope.
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Posted: Thu Nov 22, 2012 1:29 am
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Posted: Sat Nov 24, 2012 1:26 pm
People are pricks sometimes
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Posted: Sun Nov 25, 2012 2:12 am
On a similar note I ******** hate flashbacks.
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Posted: Sun Nov 25, 2012 6:10 pm
I still have to write two more pages for my paper, and I have no idea how I am going to do it. I have nothing else to talk about. Oh my god.
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