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This is when you give that doctor the middle finger and stop paying them for doing nothing. Switching doctors sucks, but sometimes it necessary.

Something like squishy shoe inserts help in the meantime though, if you're not already using them.

I agree, I love that quote xDD I like thinking about my crap job like this; 'my current job is paying me through school and other expenses. Once I get through that, I'm going to be glad I worked where I did because it got me to a point where I wanted to be'

Here's the thing:

With my field of psychology, I hate what my options are.

The only thing available to people with their bachelors in psychology is community therapy work or TSS work. I don't want to be a therapist. I want to be in academia and research. That type of stuff doesn't exist for people at my level.



I just got a rejection letter from my own damn school. Granted, it wasn't a program I was interested in but people tell you to apply anyway, but still.

I'm mad because I was lazy. I'm mad because I didn't try harder, I procrastinated, I miscalculated time. If I can't even get into grad school because I'm so lazy, how the hell am I ever going to be successful as doctoral student?

I'm mad because I'm stupid. Because I'm not really as smart as I like to think I am. Because where other people might be pretty or talented at something, the only thing I have to rely on is my brain, and that's really not a hell of a lot, apparently.


Thank you for talking to me, though. I really appreciate it.I haven't this to anyone face to face yet.

I can do my own reading on the side and whatnot, but there isn't anything I can do to put on a CV or resume. Being a TSS worker isn't going to be relevant to what I want to pursue in graduate school. The only way I could apply the skills I want to use in the future is if I were to become a research assistant or become involved in a research company - and that type of stuff isn't available out here.

She's the second one I've been to x__X

I tried them, but both podiatrists have said I need MORE support, so squishiness is bad >.<

The more recent lady took a cast of my foot and made custom inserts for me and they STILL didn't work. Then she softened them up and I still got blisters. She said I was the first one to ever get blisters from the soft ones D=

She altered them again and I get to pick them up on Tuesday, but I don't have high hopes XP

If the problem is your feet then is it possible for you to ask to work in a position at your work where you could sit down more often? If I recall correctly you work at a fast food restaurant, if you worked the cash register maybe you could get one of those tall counter chairs to sit on while you work so that wouldn't' be as much a problem. Or if you worked the drive through then could sit down there as well I think. If I'm wrong about where you work then still could probably apply similar concepts to other jobs as well.
Have you tried using foot wraps for you feet? Those could help I don't know how but I know when I where them for my ankles it feels more comfortable walking around as well. Another thing that might help (no clue if it would) is something I do after I've done a lot of breaking in TKD and my hands/feet really hurt. What I do is get two containers of water, one with really hot water (read: as hot as you can stand, if have sensitive feet then use just really warm water) and really cold water with lots of ice in it to keep it cold. Put one foot in each container and leave it there until it feels really hot/cold and then swap them, rinse and repeat for about 15 minutes. Don't know if it would help with your problem but I know if helps me with hand and feet pain so it might help.

If you already like school then that's great! I just thought from some of your posts that you didn't XD

Getting over the weird feeling of talking to someone random is part of shyness, I was like that for a long while. When I was in community college for 2 years I didn't make any lasting friends but once I transferred to the university I decided to try and not be as shy and timid anymore and talk to people. It was really hard at first but as time went on it got easier, usually I start the conversation just mentioning something about the class or the weather (class more common). If there's been an exam recently I'd mention that, ask how they did or mention something about how difficult it was, just small talk I guess. The hardest part is starting the conversation, once that's done it's easy to keep it going.

Going from just talking to someone to friends can be difficult at times and sometimes it just happens without you really realizing it. What I try and do is ask them if they'd like to hang out sometime, it's best if you have a group of friends to do something or invite them to a social you'd planned to go to or something.. Bowling seems to be a great default option, which I don't care too much for bowling but apparently it's really popular *sigh* if they say yes to hanging out it's a good point to ask for their number if you don't already have it from studying with them, and once you have someones number or just some way of contacting them it's way easier to stay in contact with them. Facebook can be good as well but personally I don't like to just add someone if I've just met them. It is difficult, which is why I generally opt for the "just friends at school" option, and since I'm at school so often these people tend to become fairly good friends and the hope is at some point we'll hang out in an environment that doesn't require study!