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 Posted: Thu Mar 15, 2012 12:43 pm
So I just got offered a paid internship by a certain game company. It's pretty obscure, you may not have heard of it; it's called GEARBOX SOFTWARE scream
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Posted: Thu Mar 15, 2012 4:09 pm
I'm trying to come to terms with the fact that I officially have no friends. I don't mean "just a few" or "just one"... But none. At all. No one to hang out with when I'm bored. No one to talk to when I'm upset. Not a single person who gives a ******** about me.
I'm lonely as hell. I don't have work or school to distract me this week, so it makes it more obvious that no one's there. I try to distract myself with a lot of TV and naps, but it doesn't always work. I can only sleep so much.
I'd be happy with just one person I could talk to on a regular basis. Just ONE person. I can't keep blaming it on my shyness and introversion. There's something seriously wrong with me if no one can stand being around me
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Posted: Thu Mar 15, 2012 5:05 pm
Finally started taking the idea of getting in shape seriously...had a nice long walk and had a sub for dinner.
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Posted: Thu Mar 15, 2012 9:13 pm
Jedi Sasquatch So I just got offered a paid internship by a certain game company. It's pretty obscure, you may not have heard of it; it's called GEARBOX SOFTWARE scream Sounds familiar. I may have played a couple of games from those guys.  Congratulations.
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Posted: Fri Mar 16, 2012 12:00 pm
Little Miss Fortune I'm trying to come to terms with the fact that I officially have no friends. I don't mean "just a few" or "just one"... But none. At all. No one to hang out with when I'm bored. No one to talk to when I'm upset. Not a single person who gives a ******** about me.
I'm lonely as hell. I don't have work or school to distract me this week, so it makes it more obvious that no one's there. I try to distract myself with a lot of TV and naps, but it doesn't always work. I can only sleep so much.
I'd be happy with just one person I could talk to on a regular basis. Just ONE person. I can't keep blaming it on my shyness and introversion. There's something seriously wrong with me if no one can stand being around me What about your friends from here? Don't you talk to them on Skype sometimes? Or even just on the forums here. I mean it might just be internet communication, but they would still be friends. One of my really good friends lives in Japan and I only communicate with him through Skype and Facebook messages. And regarding shyness, I'm really shy and what I do to get around it is just force myself to start conversations with people. And I make friends by creating study groups and studying with people, a lot of my school friends I only communicate with them through class and studying. And I do much better talking to people in person vs. on the phone. For some friends I didn't know them that well and then started messaging them on Facebook or something, and that works if you're more comfortable with text rather than words, it's a good starting place at least. smile I don't know if what I'm saying is any help whatsoever, but I hope you're able to find some friends to talk to. And it is always possible that you have some friends that you just aren't thinking of as friends, but they think of you as a friend I dunno.
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Posted: Fri Mar 16, 2012 1:14 pm
Jikoniau What about your friends from here? Don't you talk to them on Skype sometimes? Or even just on the forums here. I mean it might just be internet communication, but they would still be friends. One of my really good friends lives in Japan and I only communicate with him through Skype and Facebook messages. And regarding shyness, I'm really shy and what I do to get around it is just force myself to start conversations with people. And I make friends by creating study groups and studying with people, a lot of my school friends I only communicate with them through class and studying. And I do much better talking to people in person vs. on the phone. For some friends I didn't know them that well and then started messaging them on Facebook or something, and that works if you're more comfortable with text rather than words, it's a good starting place at least. smile I don't know if what I'm saying is any help whatsoever, but I hope you're able to find some friends to talk to. And it is always possible that you have some friends that you just aren't thinking of as friends, but they think of you as a friend I dunno.
There are only a couple people from the guild that I talk to on Skype, and they've both stopped talking to me almost completely...
I used to have a lot of friends online, but they've been dropping one by one. They either disappear or stop talking to me D=
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Posted: Fri Mar 16, 2012 1:52 pm
Little Miss Fortune Jikoniau What about your friends from here? Don't you talk to them on Skype sometimes? Or even just on the forums here. I mean it might just be internet communication, but they would still be friends. One of my really good friends lives in Japan and I only communicate with him through Skype and Facebook messages. And regarding shyness, I'm really shy and what I do to get around it is just force myself to start conversations with people. And I make friends by creating study groups and studying with people, a lot of my school friends I only communicate with them through class and studying. And I do much better talking to people in person vs. on the phone. For some friends I didn't know them that well and then started messaging them on Facebook or something, and that works if you're more comfortable with text rather than words, it's a good starting place at least. smile I don't know if what I'm saying is any help whatsoever, but I hope you're able to find some friends to talk to. And it is always possible that you have some friends that you just aren't thinking of as friends, but they think of you as a friend I dunno.
There are only a couple people from the guild that I talk to on Skype, and they've both stopped talking to me almost completely...
I used to have a lot of friends online, but they've been dropping one by one. They either disappear or stop talking to me D=Have you asked any of these friends why they stopped talking to you? If you knew the reason then if it has anything to do with something you said/did then maybe it's something you could work on changing. Something my TKD instructor likes to say "If you don't like something then change it. If you can't change it then change the way you think about it." it's a good suggestion. From a lot of your posts you don't seem to be all that happy with what you've been doing so maybe you just need to change what you're doing with your life? Change can be difficult but sometimes it's what is needed. I don't know much about your life but from your posts I know you've said you hate your job, you hate school, you have difficulties talking to people, and you need/want more friends. All that combined I think confirms what I was saying about needing change. You life is in your hands, no one can change the situation but you. Other people can help if you decide you want to change, but no one can change you for you that has to be done yourself. Note: I'm not trying to insult you or anything like that, you often seem to misinterpret my posts to be something like that so just letting you know it's not. I'm just trying to give some advice.
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Posted: Fri Mar 16, 2012 2:04 pm
Jikoniau Have you asked any of these friends why they stopped talking to you? If you knew the reason then if it has anything to do with something you said/did then maybe it's something you could work on changing. Something my TKD instructor likes to say "If you don't like something then change it. If you can't change it then change the way you think about it." it's a good suggestion. From a lot of your posts you don't seem to be all that happy with what you've been doing so maybe you just need to change what you're doing with your life? Change can be difficult but sometimes it's what is needed. I don't know much about your life but from your posts I know you've said you hate your job, you hate school, you have difficulties talking to people, and you need/want more friends. All that combined I think confirms what I was saying about needing change. You life is in your hands, no one can change the situation but you. Other people can help if you decide you want to change, but no one can change you for you that has to be done yourself. Note: I'm not trying to insult you or anything like that, you often seem to misinterpret my posts to be something like that so just letting you know it's not. I'm just trying to give some advice.
When have I misinterpreted your posts like that? o.O
But none of that is really anything I can change. I can't just like... drop out of school and quit my job XP
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Posted: Fri Mar 16, 2012 4:19 pm
Little Miss Fortune I can't just like... drop out of school and quit my job XP That's what I thought too. Then I ended up doing both and it was hugely helpful for me.
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Posted: Fri Mar 16, 2012 4:32 pm
Little Miss Fortune I'm trying to come to terms with the fact that I officially have no friends. I don't mean "just a few" or "just one"... But none. At all. No one to hang out with when I'm bored. No one to talk to when I'm upset. Not a single person who gives a ******** about me.
I'm lonely as hell. I don't have work or school to distract me this week, so it makes it more obvious that no one's there. I try to distract myself with a lot of TV and naps, but it doesn't always work. I can only sleep so much.
I'd be happy with just one person I could talk to on a regular basis. Just ONE person. I can't keep blaming it on my shyness and introversion. There's something seriously wrong with me if no one can stand being around me I feel like I am in the same boat right now. No one tries to keep in touch with me now since I moved, even though I try to with them, so I'm now just like screw you if you don't want to continue to be my friend.
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Posted: Fri Mar 16, 2012 4:51 pm
Looks like I'm not going to grad school
I really truly ******** up
I ******** up so hard
I was stupid
I only applied to 5 schools
Applied to schools I was never going to get into
I'm stupid
I'm lazy
I'm so ******** stupid
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Posted: Fri Mar 16, 2012 5:34 pm
Jedi Sasquatch Little Miss Fortune I can't just like... drop out of school and quit my job XP That's what I thought too. Then I ended up doing both and it was hugely helpful for me.
My parents aren't just going to let me stay here if I'm not in school and not even trying to get a job
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Posted: Fri Mar 16, 2012 7:54 pm
Come on David, stop putting that creativity into a guilty pleasure, write it out. Let it flow on to the page....
.....................................Ugh I hate this. I got a headache already.
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Posted: Fri Mar 16, 2012 11:56 pm
Little Miss Fortune
When have I misinterpreted your posts like that? o.O
But none of that is really anything I can change. I can't just like... drop out of school and quit my job XPI only remember one time in particular that I remember what I was talking about, but there are other times I remember posting and you respond with something completely different then what I meant. I just sometimes have issues with how I word things so I'm never sure if what I'm posting is clear or not. XD And there are things you can do to change. There's always things that can be done in life. You could quit your job and try and find a new one, if you couldn't find one then possibly volunteer for a while at some places you feel you'd like to help out with. With the later option I could see an issue with money, but some volunteer positions will provide food and often after you've volunteered some you could get a job there. Another option could be finding work at the college you're attending. Or if you absolutely can't quit your job until you know you have a replacement then do the volunteer stuff and/or looking for a job while with your current job. I'm sure there's other things you could do as well, but the point is that work is something that you have to do a lot of if you aren't happy where you're working then it'll just keep weighing down on you unless you do something about it. The last option I can think of could maybe work, that would be a perspective change. If you completely change your perspective on your work and try and make it fun. Convince yourself that the work is fun and maybe eventually it'll start actually being fun. If your manager or coworkers or customers etc. are annoying you then just try and ignore that and be cheerful towards them. The mind is an odd thing at times and if you pretend that something doesn't bother you then eventually it won't. So wether a job change or a perspective change there are things you can do. Suggestions for school would be rather similar. Either (a) you don't like your major and that is why you don't like school. or (b) You just don't like school. If (a) is the case then you should consider changing your major. Even if that put you back some in the long run it'd be the best thing to do. If (b) is the case then all I can suggest is the whole perspective change thing. Make learning fun. For me it's all a game. I look on school like a game and as such I have convinced myself that it's fun, some classes require more convincing myself then others but in all cases I have fun with my classes. You might think it's impossible to have fun in (for example) a calculus class but it's not. All I do is look on the math problems as logic games and word games, and if I do that I can make it through my math homework without giving up. Otherwise I don't know how far I would make it. Lecture is so much easier to go to if you decide you want to learn the topic, especially if you have any 7am classes. Those are AWFUL if you don't at least somewhat enjoy the class. The friendship issue I think would solve itself if you made the above changes and made yourself happier with life. Just talk to people in your classes, make it a goal to have at least one class friend to talk to in class and at some point those class friends might become actual friends. Class is also easier to go to if you know you have a friend waiting for you. Also maybe try and make friends with some of your co-workers, same concept as the whole class friend thing. If you have friends at work it would be easier to enjoy your time there. Making life changes are really hard, I know it is as I've had to make changes in my life that were difficult. It was not the same situation as you, but it's still the whole life changing decisions thing.
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Posted: Sat Mar 17, 2012 12:03 am
CleoSombra Looks like I'm not going to grad school I really truly ******** up I ******** up so hard I was stupid I only applied to 5 schools Applied to schools I was never going to get into I'm stupid I'm lazy I'm so ******** stupid Not getting into grad school the first try isn't the end of the world cleo, lots of people don't get in first try and they just try again the second year. Just try and get a job in your field of study for now and then when application for next year comes around you'll have a better chance of getting in since you'll have work experience. Working is my backup plan for if I don't get into grad school when I apply this December, I'm hoping I won't have to do that but if I do then I'll just take a deep breath, think about the situation, and continue forward. Similar to the whole perspective change thing I just posted to Fortune. Also, you are not stupid that is a really silly thing to say. Just when applying next year apply for more schools. Humans are good at learning we make mistakes and we learn from them. Making a mistake does NOT make someone stupid, just human.
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