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 Posted: Tue Feb 14, 2012 4:39 am
Anyone any good at packing?
I got a truck last week, which is WONDERFUL!
...But now, I just want to go somewhere, ANYWHERE, but here... Just because I can.
I have set aside today as a day where I am not going to go anywhere (except maybe a mile to our local small town grocer for some soda and salad fixings)... But I just can't motivate myself to do anymore storing... I am sure I will get around to it sometime today, but my family has too much useless but necessary crap... and by useless necessary crap, I mean the stuff that people never use, but it must stay within arms' reach for that "Just-in-case" scenario that never happens.
I've also gotten several calls expressing interest in my house, but when I call to follow up, it's not people interested in buying my house, it is people wanting me to buy stuff from them. I'm sorry, but putting my number on a sign in my yard does not invalidate my presence on the National Do-Not-Call registry! scream
On an up note, I taught my kids to do dishes yesterday, and I am pretty stoked about that! blaugh
... And Rob, if you read this, I am sorry about not wishing you a happy V-day back yesterday... I was so completely surprised by the fact that it was suddenly the 13th and I didn't even realize it until your valentine PM arrived, that I got distracted.
So emo ...
heart Happy Valentine's Day heart
blaugh to you and your honey baby! heart
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Posted: Wed Feb 15, 2012 12:54 am
Eltanin Sadachbia Anyone any good at packing? I got a truck last week, which is WONDERFUL! ...But now, I just want to go somewhere, ANYWHERE, but here... Just because I can. I have set aside today as a day where I am not going to go anywhere (except maybe a mile to our local small town grocer for some soda and salad fixings)... But I just can't motivate myself to do anymore storing... I am sure I will get around to it sometime today, but my family has too much useless but necessary crap... and by useless necessary crap, I mean the stuff that people never use, but it must stay within arms' reach for that "Just-in-case" scenario that never happens. I've also gotten several calls expressing interest in my house, but when I call to follow up, it's not people interested in buying my house, it is people wanting me to buy stuff from them. I'm sorry, but putting my number on a sign in my yard does not invalidate my presence on the National Do-Not-Call registry! scream On an up note, I taught my kids to do dishes yesterday, and I am pretty stoked about that! blaugh ... And Rob, if you read this, I am sorry about not wishing you a happy V-day back yesterday... I was so completely surprised by the fact that it was suddenly the 13th and I didn't even realize it until your valentine PM arrived, that I got distracted. So emo ... heart Happy Valentine's Day heart blaugh to you and your honey baby! heart Congrats on the truck and getting your kids to help with washing dishes. I wish you luck in selling your house. Thanks and no problem. Valentine's Day is going great for us.
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Posted: Wed Feb 15, 2012 11:51 am
Eltanin Sadachbia Well, there is a difference between going on dates, and having committed relationships... I dated several people before I met my husband. Never quite made it to the committed part... Dates are for getting to know people, a kinda testing grounds to see if you might enjoy each others company for a possible 'next level'... and then once you formally commit they are used as a means to continuing in the enjoyment of each others company... Dates themselves are pretty loose in terms of rules, and are normally very innocent. Either way, the issue of people leaving you is still something you have to work on... You live in the material/physical world... Nothing is permanent... but even so, maybe because it is so... Things in this world are beautiful... Yet to embrace the fear that things are impermanent, instead of acknowledging their temporary nature and embracing it as a fact, you are limiting your life to less than what God has for you... Whether you are meant to be with someone or not, as long as you focus on the fear that you will be left alone, instead of going out and touching others with your light and your life, you won't be living your life to the fullest potential God has meant for you. You see... You push others in your real life away because you are afraid of the knowledge you have within yourself... They won't be around forever, so why open yourself to someone?... Yet if you turned that thought around... Open yourself to someone, because they won't be around forever... Well, babe, that's the stuff legacies are made of. You are here on this Earth to make a difference while you can, whether it's in the life of a woman, the life of your family, or the life of someone who needs a friend when they need it. As long as you understand they won't be around forever, you can prepare yourself for the day when you will have to move on, to the next place that needs your light. You never know though... One day God may introduce you to the person who will be there until you are gone... And you know what? That person won't curse the day they met you, even when you aren't around anymore... But first you have to embrace God's plan for you... Quit living in the spirit of fear... If this world was permanent, we wouldn't be able to move on to greater things... Once you have learned to accept life as it is, you will be better prepared to accept what is to come. I love you SCN, and because of that, I feel the need to point out your major lack of, "Not my will, God, but Yours."... Your statement of never letting anyone close ever again is very selfish. Especially if there is someone that needs you, that God has, or will in the future, placed in your path. You can't minister to someone properly if you don't love them, and you can't love them properly if you completely close yourself from them. You are very blessed to have 3 people outside of your family that are continually there for you. I have one friend I have known many years who I am still in touch with, but that is about the extent of it.... and then if you are only counting blood relatives as family, I have my husband with which will be celebrating 11 years next week. There are other people who I have crossed paths with in my life, who have been instrumental in teaching me the things I need to know about life... Many of those partings were not pretty, or pleasant (in fact some were downright ugly), but they were necessary. ... and if I had been so hung up on potential relationships that didn't work out, and I had thrown in the towel because I couldn't get into a decent committed relationship (or I had tried to make a relationship work that wasn't meant to), then I would never have met my husband. Should I add, that two of those people... I have only met online, with in the past two years, and never in real life? How they got though, I don't know... The only one, I know in real life has been my friend since middle school. When I decked a guy for making fun of him ... not the best way to start a friendship. I see a difference between loving someone, to lead them to Christ, though problems, to bleed for them, etc; and "opening" up to someone. I understand what you are getting at, I will never curse at any of my friends(Past, present, or future), no matter at our exit. They all mean something to me, something greater than myself. I just don't want to go to the 'next level' with anyone. Friends is just fine. At least then, I can hold to my own secrets and not have them shot back at me. As most everyone, I know likes to do...
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Posted: Wed Feb 15, 2012 3:47 pm
Being diagnosed with a general anxiety disorder (panic attacks), I feel I should vent my issues a little. Not that I'm very angry or indignant over anything, but my subconscious might be, so this is for her. Some unresolved issues:
-My roommate who is subletting from me and my other roommate is a couple months behind in rent. She's too calm about the situation (IMO) stating we can't be evicted until 6 months no rent, but the credit scores of me, my other roommate and our co-signers (as well as their accounts) are on the line until she makes it right. She's also engaged, and though I doubt she'd just pack up and elope with her love, that is always in my mind.
-School: I'm managing my time better than I thought. I have church, and a bunch of ensembles, and a recital in April, and A LOT of reading. But I took one course pass fail, so all I have to do is not fail (get an F) which I highly doubt since so far I haven't missed any assignments, but I don't need the pressure of perfection, especially since it's a heavily weighted course.
-Work: My hours were cut do to budgeting (it's a workstudy position, and IDK how I ran out of money promised by the gov't but I guess it happens). I'm actually grateful, because this gives me more time to study for school, and that's why I'm there.
-I worry about my grandmother's health. I've grown closer to her these past few years, especially since the passing of my grandfather. She's diabetic and an amputee. So I know I'm not alone in being concerned for her. And I know I can't control her health, but I try to take joy in the time that I have talking to her on the phone and seeing her on breaks. I really want to record my recital--I doubt she's ever seen me perform.
I think those are the major things. This is all a part of "talk therapy". I guess I'm as bad as some men, burying my feelings. But...oddly, I feel a bit better actually.
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Posted: Wed Feb 15, 2012 8:16 pm
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Posted: Thu Feb 23, 2012 9:27 am
Alrighty, I will give Elta some credit. This week has been cool-ish and tiring.
Backstory, last Sunday is my dad started to complain of a pain in his right foot. Monday it has gotten worse, but he refused to go to the doctor's. Tuesday, he finally broke down, called the paramedics to come and take him to the hospital, as he couldn't even get to the car. Which was a depressing/saddening/scary thing for me... I won't go into why.
I followed the ambulance and waited beside him inside the ER's waiting room and continued to wait as they brought him back. I swore it was longer than 4 hours, though my phone only said an hour and 15 minutes passed, before they wheeled him back out.
They told him it is Celluitis, an inflammation caused by a bacterial infection. And ordered him to rest. Long story short, for the last week I became his Chauffeur, butler, The one that took care of the dog, nurse and basically did everything he couldn't do. Also, agreed to help teach someone to use a computer.
The only bad part, is I am running late on my homework. 8 chapters due tomorrow... sweatdrop ... Looks like I am staying up tonight, anyone know of any good energy boosters? Coffee tends to put me to sleep not long after drinking it.
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Posted: Thu Feb 23, 2012 12:26 pm
glitterboypilot Alrighty, I will give Elta some credit. This week has been cool-ish and tiring. Backstory, last Sunday is my dad started to complain of a pain in his right foot. Monday it has gotten worse, but he refused to go to the doctor's. Tuesday, he finally broke down, called the paramedics to come and take him to the hospital, as he couldn't even get to the car. Which was a depressing/saddening/scary thing for me... I won't go into why. I followed the ambulance and waited beside him inside the ER's waiting room and continued to wait as they brought him back. I swore it was longer than 4 hours, though my phone only said an hour and 15 minutes passed, before they wheeled him back out. They told him it is Celluitis, an inflammation caused by a bacterial infection. And ordered him to rest. Long story short, for the last week I became his Chauffeur, butler, The one that took care of the dog, nurse and basically did everything he couldn't do. Also, agreed to help teach someone to use a computer. The only bad part, is I am running late on my homework. 8 chapters due tomorrow... sweatdrop ... Looks like I am staying up tonight, anyone know of any good energy boosters? Coffee tends to put me to sleep not long after drinking it. Mountain Dew...it's what the cool kids who want to piss all night drink. I heard red and blue tasted good too.
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Posted: Fri Feb 24, 2012 11:15 pm
Politicians, Rick Santorum in particular, piss me off. Santorum and his s**t has seriously been hitting my radar though with the incredibly stupid stuff he's been saying and then claiming that it's endorsed by the Bible.
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Posted: Mon Feb 27, 2012 5:28 pm
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Posted: Mon Feb 27, 2012 5:30 pm
rmcdra Politicians, Rick Santorum in particular, piss me off. Santorum and his s**t has seriously been hitting my radar though with the incredibly stupid stuff he's been saying and then claiming that it's endorsed by the Bible. The twit gets way too flustered when talking about anything but how to control women's vigeeners....seriously. Watch the debates when he gets asked a serious question. Deer in the headlights of the logic train. Ask a social issues question and he rapes it, the bible, and peoples intelligence.
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Posted: Fri Mar 02, 2012 8:46 am
deadmanjay rmcdra Politicians, Rick Santorum in particular, piss me off. Santorum and his s**t has seriously been hitting my radar though with the incredibly stupid stuff he's been saying and then claiming that it's endorsed by the Bible. The twit gets way too flustered when talking about anything but how to control women's vigeeners....seriously. Watch the debates when he gets asked a serious question. Deer in the headlights of the logic train. Ask a social issues question and he rapes it, the bible, and peoples intelligence. I'll have to check that out. Yeah he takes controlling women and gay bashing very seriously. It's almost like that the only thing he thinks about. Hmm. I wonder if he's still trying to find himself. XD
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Posted: Fri Mar 02, 2012 10:19 am
rmcdra deadmanjay rmcdra Politicians, Rick Santorum in particular, piss me off. Santorum and his s**t has seriously been hitting my radar though with the incredibly stupid stuff he's been saying and then claiming that it's endor sed by the Bible. The twit gets way too flustered when talking about anything but how to control women's vigeeners....seriously. Watch the debates when he gets asked a serious question. Deer in the headlights of the logic train. Ask a social issues question and he rapes it, the bible, and peoples intelligence. I'll have to check that out. Yeah he takes controlling women and gay bashing very seriously. It's almost like that the only thing he thinks about. Hmm. I wonder if he's still trying to find himself. XD He should leave finding himself to the bathroom.
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Posted: Sun Mar 04, 2012 3:24 pm
You know how for every job, class, group, or whatever that you're a part of, there's always that one person that never fails to upset you? Well, here we go.
A couple of weeks ago I was in my school's drama production, where I met a guy. Now, this guy, if you know how to interact with him, can be pretty okay. But he can be a difficult guy.
He's the kind of guy that needs a logical or scientific explanation for just about everything. Which almost makes me wonder why he gets enjoyment out of acting, since theatre is a really passionate and emotional pastime. But, hey, he is a good actor, so I won't complain about that part.
What bothers me is his attitude towards anything that can't be explained by science, such as religion and spirituality. At a rehearsal, I was talking to two of my friends (both of whom are Roman Catholic). He walks right up to us and says right to our faces "God is a false prophet" and walks away. Now, he could just be saying that to bother us, especially since he holds a certain type of rivalry with one of the girls present. Then when we told him to mind his own business and respect our views, he said that it wouldn't matter since all Christians are just converters anyway.
And then there was the whole incident a few hours before one of our shows, where he kept saying "Macbeth" over and over and over in the theatre, and then refused to do the purification ritual after arguing with us for twenty minutes about the logic behind the curse. There were no accidents, thank goodness, but it was still incredibly rude of him. It wasn't even as much that we were concerned about the Macbeth curse, but doing the ritual is a tradition within the theatre. Any my drama group, we're a tight-knit family, and we're all about tradition. So the fact that he was ridiculing our traditions and antagonizing us about it was just...ugh! One of my more...expressive friends literally almost strangled him.
/end rant.
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Posted: Tue Mar 20, 2012 5:34 pm
Homophobic Christians. Once I was fighting with a guy in the ED about homosexuality. I believed it wasn't a sin, and he believed it was and kept asking me to prove my beliefs. Psh, proof? Wasn't Jesus good friends with tax collectors, Romans, prostitutes, bigots, and gangsters? If he can be friends with those people, he can easily befriend a homosexual.
And Jesus also healed a man's "servant", but the Greek word for "servant" and "partner" are the similar, and the man's concern for his "servant" was too intense for him to be his servant. This "servant" was probably his gay partner. I could talk about this all day, but I won't.
Also, anti-abortion Christians. I'm pro-life and everything, but not to the extreme that if you've ever had an abortion I'm going to shun you. Anti-abortion Christians are hypocrites. They are against having children out of wedlock and abortions. So, if you get pregnant out of wedlock and decide to have the baby, these guys will give you hell. If you get pregnant out of wedlock and decide to have an abortion, they'll still give you hell.
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Posted: Tue Mar 20, 2012 7:55 pm
I just feel like being mean to people today... It's beyond my occasional ornery mood...
I had some drama dumped in my lap by a RL friend over the phone... Has nothing to do with me, but now she is wanting my opinion, which isn't what she wants to hear, but I won't ever hear the end of it until I tell her what she wants to hear... that I agree with her reasoning and sound judgment, and think she is completely sane and chock full of common-sense... She is a dumb-a**... But I love her...
Then I had some drama placed in my lap by a couple of Gaia friends... I love them both, but sometimes I fail to see their way about things... It's to be expected, we all have very different back-stories... I am trying to be as fair as I can and remain rational and considerate... at the moment, it just means I need to keep my opinions to myself... That's hard for me to do.
I went to the ED to see if anything peaked my interest... I knew it wouldn't, but I subjected myself to reading the regular over-argued tripe found there until I nearly raged... I must admit, I probably took advantage of my numb face by head-desking more than usual... Normally after the second, I know i need to return to the guilds... but I didn't feel it earlier. I couldn't even bring myself to post, because I couldn't stand the thought of an ignoramus trying to act like they got some sort of points for acting like they don't understand what I am posting.
WHY IS IT... that so many people in ED feel they have to act stupid to look smart? They do it on purpose, and they think, by making you over-simplify what you originally said, they make you look like the dumb one...
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