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 Posted: Sun Sep 12, 2010 3:20 pm
Tasn Zheng Kamilio Why say that? =[ no your not This is not adrenaline I'm feeling. This is a collision of recent events with stress. I cannot handle it. I cannot think clearly. I have less than two hours to type out a coherent paper and then seven hours to type out the rest of my journals. Plenty of time, plenty of time! Ahahaha! I'm losing it. I want to cry. I'm not well. I'm not well at all. And worst of all, I'm hopelessly distracted by an...infatuation during this time of excess vulnerability. Don't mind me if I ramble. I need to something. Say something. Say anything before I let this completely crush me from the inside. My concerns are petty, paltry compared to some and I feel intense disgust for even expressing them. There are people out there who are more deserving of sympathy and support. I am a foolish, lazy, two-faced liar who has convinced herself that she is superior, she is above flaws until she looks at the mirror. The mirror reflects everything that Dorian saw when he lifted that sheet that covered his enchanted portrait. I am not deserving of a single drop of pity at the moment. I procrastinated and I will reap what I sow. If my grade suffers for it--so be it! I am typing all of this so quickly that I scarcely recall to breathe. Without the calming effects of the bitterest of teas or the soothing warmth that comes with brandy, I cannot be calm. I cannot even focus. I'm repeating myself now and I wish I wasn't. But one cannot take back what they've done or what they feel. One can only go forward. That is all. Carry on. Excuse me while I attempt to write a ten-page paper in less than two hours. Hopefully I won't make too many grammatical mistakes. *hugs*your not foolish or lazy just for sitting back and having some fun for once sure you have a paper but it can be done and I know you can do it. lies you no lie/be two faced your a good friend and even if you dont accept it. And doesnt matter if other s need support or sympathy if one person cant smile then someone else somewhere neither can smile. If there is an infatuation why not deal with it?as in just come out with it or write it all out on a piece of paper and burn/bin it thats what I used to do when something frustratedly was on my mind or bothered me. Well if theres anything else I can do let me know =/ Ill be online for the entire night
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Posted: Sun Sep 12, 2010 3:34 pm
One more thing since people are guessing: it's not someone online.
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Posted: Sun Sep 12, 2010 5:07 pm
[tmi] Oftentimes, when I have to go to the bathroom, there is a large temporal difference between my body realizing it and my brain realizing it. I can end up wiggling frantically for hours before I realize why, or even really notice I'm doing it. And somehow it never comes out before then...[/tmi]
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Posted: Sun Sep 12, 2010 6:39 pm
It's kinda dumb, and me being oversensitive, but I really hate it when people say I look nothing like my brother. I understand that they think I like that fact (mainly because in school, I did everything I could to avoid being associated with him), but I don't. The worst part is, they're totally right. We really have very few features in common. =| Especially if they mention that I also don't look much like my dad.
Edit: Just to clarify a bit, I think it stems from the fact that I don't like the implication that I might not even be my dad's kid (my mother was the sort who probably would've cheated at the time, so...). Even if that were the reason I don't look similar, I wouldn't want to know, I don't want people to suggest it to me.
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Posted: Sun Sep 12, 2010 6:47 pm
Yesterday, someone called me cute. Completely out of nowhere. It was unrelated to the discussion at hand. Best. Feeling. Ever. I was happy and semi-squeeing for like two hours. ******** amazing.
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Posted: Sun Sep 12, 2010 7:19 pm
Dear Zcb, today my husband of 9 years told me that he no longer loves me and that he no longer wants to spend his life with me. And that he had an affair. My heart is broken and I am shattered.
No this is not a joke.
I just don't know about anything anymore.
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Posted: Sun Sep 12, 2010 7:26 pm
Lady -Wizzard- Karris Dear Zcb, today my husband of 9 years told me that he no longer loves me and that he no longer wants to spend his life with me. And that he had an affair. My heart is broken and I am shattered. No this is not a joke. I just don't know about anything anymore.
God, Karris... I don't even know what to say... But I know that you're a strong woman, and you can get through anything. I'll keep you in my thoughts, and I'm soooo sorry for what you're going through =( <3333333333333
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Posted: Sun Sep 12, 2010 7:46 pm
Lady -Wizzard- Karris Dear Zcb, today my husband of 9 years told me that he no longer loves me and that he no longer wants to spend his life with me. And that he had an affair. My heart is broken and I am shattered. No this is not a joke. I just don't know about anything anymore. Wish for me to demonstrate how deadly a sports fencing weapon can be on him?
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Posted: Sun Sep 12, 2010 7:50 pm
Lady -Wizzard- Karris Dear Zcb, today my husband of 9 years told me that he no longer loves me and that he no longer wants to spend his life with me. And that he had an affair. My heart is broken and I am shattered. No this is not a joke. I just don't know about anything anymore. I'm so sorry, Karris. I'm not even sure what to say. I can't believe that anyone could do something like that to someone as wonderful as you. I wish I could think of the right thing to say to make you feel better. Just remember that we're always here to support you. heart
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Posted: Sun Sep 12, 2010 7:55 pm
Lady -Wizzard- Karris Dear Zcb, today my husband of 9 years told me that he no longer loves me and that he no longer wants to spend his life with me. And that he had an affair. My heart is broken and I am shattered. No this is not a joke. I just don't know about anything anymore. =< oh my..  o3o here, take this! heart
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Posted: Sun Sep 12, 2010 8:10 pm
Lady -Wizzard- Karris Dear Zcb, today my husband of 9 years told me that he no longer loves me and that he no longer wants to spend his life with me. And that he had an affair. My heart is broken and I am shattered. No this is not a joke. I just don't know about anything anymore. *hugs tightly* Karris ;o; I m sorry, I to like Fortune Don't know what to say, Other than your an incredible lady and friend and I know if anyone can get through this its you. If theres anything I can do, anything at all Just let me know okie?
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Posted: Sun Sep 12, 2010 8:35 pm
I agree with you guys, but drop it. The last thing Lady need right now is drama.
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Posted: Sun Sep 12, 2010 8:37 pm
That one night I agree with you guys , but drop it. The last thing Lady need right now is drama. This.. Lady doesn't need the bickering and bitching right now. Of all things, at least take your issues somewhere else where it won't affect her any further.
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