Jer0nim0
I'm already in a shitty mood, I'm trying to ignore it constantly, and yet random moments are setting me off. Things that I should be used to by now.
I mean really. ******** you all. I know I'm a fatass already. However, I had a cup of macaroni, a sandwich, and half a bowl of rice and a turon today. That's not overeating. And if it was, maybe you shouldn't cook fried food and expect me not to eat it when it's all that's around. That's ******** normal you dumbass, especially with how ******** up my sleeping schedule is getting, AGAIN, that I didn't actually sleep more than two ******** hours. I'm sorry I'm not exactly wearing clothes that fit me well, but if I'm not allowed to wash my own clothes because everyone else is an overworked control freak, that's what's going to happen. And I barely go downstairs so that I avoid you, so you can not throw up or point everything wrong with me out every ******** time, thanks. Plus I'm actually managing to lose weight just sitting on my a** because I don't feel so great. I can eat a shitload, yet lose weight, from the pure stress of hating this place and hating how I can't do anything anymore, I can't even ******** draw or talk to people I miss who apparently hate me now, or even go out in the ******** street to just be by my ******** self because of your controlling pissiness, apparently to the point of losing 4 lbs in 2 weeks sitting on my ******** a** and eating a shitload. So ******** you, I'll eat as much as I want. Hell, maybe I can get sick, again, and randomly lose 15 lbs in less than a week, again. At least one of us will be ******** happy.
I wish I could just not give a damn about others now. I really do. I'm so damn tired of caring, and I barely ever care as is. I don't wan't to give a ******** anymore.
Hm, that's a lot of ******** I don't care as I'm bleeding today. Joy, ******** joy.
I actually want college to start soon, but that means I have to be driven. I want to do a bus so I don't have drive with anyone. I only ever leave my room for basic things like food and showering anyway, it would be even easier to not have to see anyone....
I mean really. ******** you all. I know I'm a fatass already. However, I had a cup of macaroni, a sandwich, and half a bowl of rice and a turon today. That's not overeating. And if it was, maybe you shouldn't cook fried food and expect me not to eat it when it's all that's around. That's ******** normal you dumbass, especially with how ******** up my sleeping schedule is getting, AGAIN, that I didn't actually sleep more than two ******** hours. I'm sorry I'm not exactly wearing clothes that fit me well, but if I'm not allowed to wash my own clothes because everyone else is an overworked control freak, that's what's going to happen. And I barely go downstairs so that I avoid you, so you can not throw up or point everything wrong with me out every ******** time, thanks. Plus I'm actually managing to lose weight just sitting on my a** because I don't feel so great. I can eat a shitload, yet lose weight, from the pure stress of hating this place and hating how I can't do anything anymore, I can't even ******** draw or talk to people I miss who apparently hate me now, or even go out in the ******** street to just be by my ******** self because of your controlling pissiness, apparently to the point of losing 4 lbs in 2 weeks sitting on my ******** a** and eating a shitload. So ******** you, I'll eat as much as I want. Hell, maybe I can get sick, again, and randomly lose 15 lbs in less than a week, again. At least one of us will be ******** happy.
I wish I could just not give a damn about others now. I really do. I'm so damn tired of caring, and I barely ever care as is. I don't wan't to give a ******** anymore.
Hm, that's a lot of ******** I don't care as I'm bleeding today. Joy, ******** joy.
I actually want college to start soon, but that means I have to be driven. I want to do a bus so I don't have drive with anyone. I only ever leave my room for basic things like food and showering anyway, it would be even easier to not have to see anyone....
Nim, don't think that way. Yo have to realize that most important part of this play, yours. It happens all the time, the hero/heroine overcoming strife, conflict, and adversity to end up on top in the end. You just have to remember that regardless of situation there is no better place to be than your own. I mean really, they're only hating because they want you to feel as bad as they do. So next time they start flaming, just stop and smile at them, its like casting "Avada Kedavra" on them. You can do it Nim, And we've got your back if you need us.
