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Quit being Miss High and Mighty. Honestly, you're being a b***h and nothing more. I made you food, you didn't eat it. I was being considerate when I sent you that text- so you didn't freak out when you came home and no one would answer the door. But no, you have to be Miss High and Mighty. You called me and told me you weren't going home until a bit later, but be there when you came home. Wait, excuse me? You went out to go play tennis. I went to go do something that I wanted to do. So I did. Just like you did your thing, I did mine. But telling me to "be there." No. Justttt no. You said so yourself that you weren't going to come home until later. So there is absolutely no need for me to "head home immediately." Who do you think you are? Just who?

lol. it's 86F, feels like 95F. Yes, we are sweaty. I'm again, letting you shower first since you were doing "more activity." Yet you take 25 minutes to get in the shower. Those 25 minutes I could have already been in the shower, and stepping out right as you were finally getting ready. I asked you twice if you were going in. You get mad again shouting at me "CAN YOU NOT, JUST GIVE ME A FEW MINUTES?!" Hi, I'm sweaty too; it's been 25 minutes. I think I have every reason to ask you again.

This "be more selfish" thing isn't really working out, is it?

This is just stupid of me, not to mention embarrassing...

asking for help, on Facebook, on the New Student Orientation that's like TOMORROW just to see if "Guest" actually mean "Person must make accommodations overnight" since I can't tell if my sis and dad have to pay $45 each just to go along with me, and then leave...

Urgh my head, he can tell that I'm not prepared panicky stress-controlled college boy material gonk

This is gonna be the best birthday ever. O_O ONE DAY ONE DAY ONE DAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYY TOMORROWWWW EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Just two weeks until I get to see Ben again...! So happy! If I have off work on Monday (not likely, but possible), I'll actually get to see him sooner, I have to go to CStat to get my mailbox and other school-y nonsense at some point. Hurry up and pass faster, two weeks!

I high five you for doing something you believe in.

Love, or I guess being out of love, sucks, regardless of gender.

For a while now, sleep has been my way of dealing. I take naps almost every day. Sleeping is the only time I don't have to spend feeling like s**t. I get to escape from my life for a few hours.

But now all of a sudden I can't sleep. I used to have trouble staying up past 11 even when I had a nap. And now it's after 1 and I haven't had a nap and I still can't sleep. I've already ******** up my eating habits to the point where I'm lucky if I eat one real meal a day. Now I can't sleep either.

Everything is ******** up and it would be so easy for him to fix it but he won't and I can't even talk to him about it because I have to be all fake-happy and s**t whenever I'm around him and he hasn't even talked to me in weeks and I'm an idiot for even agreeing to this shitty non-relationship bullshit that's probably just his excuse for using me for sex and I hate my life and everything and everyone else in the world. ******** my liiiiife.

I'm tired, and my back hurts a lot crying yul-guk might be a fun pattern but those darn sitting stances are going to kill me.

I need more people to talk to, my sisters are great but I need friends. Friends that are actually willing to find time to visit even with busy schedules, currently I only have one such friend that is around. The other friend is in boston right now. I'm going to be happy once school starts up again, then I'll be properly distracted and won't worry about friends for a bit.

TKD is a great distraction as well, but then it provides people I want to be friends with but don't know how to make something like that happen. I see them often enough in class though that I guess they're friends anyhow. XD But I feel awkward talking to them still, I really shouldn't I've known them for 8 months now.