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 Posted: Sun Mar 17, 2013 4:24 pm
Madeleine stared at him in disbelieve, "you read that then get angry....unbelievable!" she said shaking her head. "there are some things that would freak people out ot no believe of course they kept it from you cause how would they know how you would react" she said softly.
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Posted: Sun Mar 17, 2013 4:27 pm
Nero heard his name shouted out, and looked at the door. He was unsure if he should enter, but felt that his name was an invitation, so he walked in, completely calm.
'So now you know,' Leon would hear in the back of his head, like nails on a chalkboard.
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Posted: Sun Mar 17, 2013 4:40 pm
Leon stared at Nero. "Assuming this file is true. Do you have the power to restore my parents memories? Will they remember me if I learn to fully control this monster? Is there a chance that this could work out?" He asked, his voice controlled. If they could get their memories of him back. He'd do anything. He opened his mouth to continue but heard the voice in the back of his head. His eyes widened as he backed up. The voice was terrible.
Who...who the hell are you? He asked in shock, feeling weird thinking to someone else. He knew the answer.
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Posted: Sun Mar 17, 2013 5:30 pm
Nero closed his eyes. "Of course, Leon. That was the plan all along."
'He's lying,' the voice said, 'All the Order has done was lie. Why believe them now? I understand your pain, Leon. I understand your sorrow. These people, the Order, only want to ruin your life.'
"We didn't know how you would react to knowing, Leon. If you knew your parents tried to kill you, I was afraid you'd lose your hope. Knowing there is a darkness inside of you... I should also let you know, now that we're telling you everything. You almost killed your sister. The darkness in you is unpredictable. We didn't know what to do except hope you would accept reason and try to control yourself, at least enough to have a fighting chance against the darkness."
'All lies. The Order saw your strength. They made your parents forget, so they could take you and train you to be a mindless weapon. They're lying to you, like they always have. I can get your parents to remember you. And you don't have to change a thing.'
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Posted: Sun Mar 17, 2013 5:34 pm
Madeleine noticed Leon's reaction of acking up and his eyes widening. "Leon....whats wrong?" she asked standing up and walking over to him. She placed a hand on his arm gently, and looked into his eyes her back to Nero.
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Posted: Sun Mar 17, 2013 5:42 pm
When someone else is speaking in your mind it's really hard to distinguish your thoughts. Leon was struggling to keep a clear difference between the two speakers. Could he trust the order? What if they were right and the creature in him was dangerous. Could he trust himself? He gently pushed Madeline back. "Please.. Stay away. I need to think..." He said, holding his head. Leon didn't blame his parents for trying to kill him if the order was right. He was a danger, and he would have given up himself if it meant saving them. Especially if he attacked his sister.
How... how do I know I can trust you? Besides, even if I tried to listen to you the order would just destroy me. Nero and the others are much stronger than me. I couldn't protect anyone if I tried. Leon had always distrusted the order. He was conflicted about who to trust.
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Posted: Sun Mar 17, 2013 5:46 pm
Madeleine had a strange feeling, ".....Leon is it....well" she wasn't sure exactly what to call it. She prayed that the little out burst he had after reading the file hadn' sent him over the edge of course she thought every single time Leon did have an outburst.
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Posted: Sun Mar 17, 2013 5:54 pm
'I am not apart of yourself, Leon,' the voice said, 'I have been a part of you for nearly all your life. I am your ally. Your strength. Why do you think the Order took you from your parents? Because they saw strength in you, they said so themselves. You do have the power to fight the Order. Just give in to your instincts. Give in to your true self. There you will find happiness. Unlike the Order, I have never lied to you, have I? All this time I've been with you, I have never steered you wrong. You may not realize it now, but all those times your instincts saved your life... That was me. I can give you everything you want, Leon. I can help you fight the Order. I can help you go back with your parents. I can reunite you, but you will have to trust me. Give in. I won't let you down.'
The voice was sharp, and demanding. It had almost a hazy, hypnotic effect. Everything it said made sense, and it felt as if the voice wasn't anything different from himself. That it was, in fact, his own thinking. The need to release, to give in, to grant the voice complete control. It was as tempting as a warm bed after a long day. The more Leon would talk to the voice, the more mentally exhausted he'd feel. The more tempting giving in would be.
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Posted: Sun Mar 17, 2013 6:05 pm
Leon was growing tired mentally. The voice seemed so convincing. He never was able to understand the order. The order had enemies which meant they weren't perfect. Maybe if he gave the voice a chance. Maybe he wasn't a demon, but a saviour? He felt powerful. Leon felt powerful.
I... I might give you a chance. You sound... comforting. He could trust himself right?
"I need to think. I... I'll be back." Leon walked out of the room, past peng and everyone else. He avoided their gaze. If they tried to stop him then it would just prove they couldn't be trusted right? He wanted to find a place to be alone and give the voice a chance. Leon was strong, he just needed to see how the voice was. If worse came to worse he would regain control and beg for help. Right? He was strong enough.
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Posted: Sun Mar 17, 2013 6:09 pm
Peng saw Leon pass him. "Leon? Leon, where are you going? Hey, Leon!"
But he didn't follow. He wasn't Leon's guardian anymore. He forced himself to stay. He was... He was Ambre's charge, now.
The voice was silent as he walked away. It waited patiently for him. As it had for all these years.
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Posted: Sun Mar 17, 2013 6:09 pm
"Leon-" Madeleine said starting to go after him but stopping, she sighed and just stood there. She had no idea what was going on in his head and prayed he would trust them.
Was this how her job would be? Having to keep her self distant incase this happened? How had Narco managed these years to balance it...the horrors he must have in his mind
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Posted: Sun Mar 17, 2013 6:18 pm
As leon walked away he waved once to peng. A goodbye. Possibly a final one. A few minutes later Leon had found an empty field. He walked to the center of it, sitting down. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath.
Do you have form I can see? To see what you look like? I'm willing to give in for a little time if you promise to give me back control when I say. If I'm to trust you I need something to go on. Some kind of insurance or proof. Leon tried to bargain, relaxing. he felt himself slipping in control.
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Posted: Sun Mar 17, 2013 6:23 pm
"It isn't easy..." Nero looked at Lizz, a sad, understanding smile. "The Order was created to protect the good and the light. But sometimes, that means keeping secrets, and doing things that seem wrong, but are done for the good of all innocent people. I don't know many in the Order that didn't have to sacrifice a great deal. Peng and Narco both sacrificed more than most. To have to make yourself the enemy... So that the good can blossom from the evil, and the bad will fade. It is a terrible burden to have to always think of others before yourself... But I cannot imagine the chaos that would ensue if we didn't. I only wish I could save such a horrible realization from young, bright, promising people like you, Madeline. I'm terribly sorry for what you've had to see."
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Posted: Sun Mar 17, 2013 6:30 pm
((Madeleine lol))
"If he is-" the words caught in her throat, she swallowed and closed her eyes, "If he is killed.....or erased from existance and other memories......would I remember?" she asked softly her hands shaking a bit. Normally she was a quiet person but lately she wanted to yell at them all, at Narco, Nero, Peng all of them for they couldn't see and had probably forgotten about themselves/
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Posted: Sun Mar 17, 2013 6:30 pm
'You wish to see what I look like? I will do this...' Leon started seeing a form in his mind. The image of a young boy. A very young boy... It was him. About the age he was when he lost his parents. 'I've become who you are, Leon. This is my true form, whether you believe me or not. I am no less you than yourself. I am the part of you...' The image turned into that of a young wolf cub. 'That wishes for peace and a good home with my parents. I want to go away from the lies, to forget the Order and Peng and Nero and all the others. I just want to be with my family again. In those precious moments I still remember.' The voice, though still scratching in his head, sounded more like his voice the more it spoke.
'I can give you the best proof I know. A memory. The memory of that night. I can give it back to you.'
"That depends," Nero replied, "Would you be strong enough to remember? Would you want to remember?" He looked at Lizz. "Whatever is healthiest for you. As long as it didn't get in the way of doing the right thing in the future. Then the Order would respect your wishes as to what you'd like to remember and what you'd like to forget."
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