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 Posted: Sun Jun 26, 2011 11:13 pm
Shiori Miko Ever had one of those friends who you get kinda too close to and you're like "I really don't want to end up crushing on him." Can he just keep up being a pain in the a** and stop showing me he's a nice guy? I'm not equipped to dealing with someone like him. >.<
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Posted: Sun Jun 26, 2011 11:22 pm
I'm in a foul mood.
I got out of bed to attend a coding session, we were supposed to be tidying up our code.
Then the other group members ditched me.
So I had to tidy up all our code, alone. To ice the cake, the lights have been turned off in the lab, so I'm here, alone and hungry in the dark.
Moreover, every time I tidy something, everything breaks again.
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Posted: Sun Jun 26, 2011 11:24 pm
this is so confusing
I just have a lot of feelings okay ; -;
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Posted: Sun Jun 26, 2011 11:31 pm
kittycross Shiori Miko Ever had one of those friends who you get kinda too close to and you're like "I really don't want to end up crushing on him." Can he just keep up being a pain in the a** and stop showing me he's a nice guy? I'm not equipped to dealing with someone like him. >.<
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Posted: Sun Jun 26, 2011 11:40 pm
Shiori Miko kittycross Shiori Miko Ever had one of those friends who you get kinda too close to and you're like "I really don't want to end up crushing on him." Can he just keep up being a pain in the a** and stop showing me he's a nice guy? I'm not equipped to dealing with someone like him. >.<
I couldn't deal with someone who wants to party all the time either, and the drinking would probably set me on edge. I guess if he doesn't want to give up that life style it probably wouldn't work. That's must be so awkward.
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Posted: Sun Jun 26, 2011 11:42 pm
About 4 months ago, my own mother took me to court to try and prove I was criminally insane. Growing up, she had consistently told everyone the schools, doctors parents, even my friends at like 5 years old that I was a deliquent. Well, I was convicted and for 3 odd months or so, i was nothing but some coated, white walled, heretic.
It's sad to say, I actually hate my mother. I hate my family, but the real jist of this confession. Is I don't know what to do with my life anymore. I have hit rock bottom, lost all my money, friends and "family." Somedays just suck. A year ago life was in teh green light and in a few days it turned around... im only 20. And now convicted psychopath, set up as leader of an underground crime syndicate, involuntary college drop out, and familyless sad
I wish I had any clue what to do now, we've all hit low spots before, but for the first time in my life. I don't know what to do.
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Posted: Mon Jun 27, 2011 1:05 am
I've been really bored lately, I mean the restless kind of bored, not the "I don't feel like doing anything bored".
I guess it's aftereffects from school going on so long, but I just feel like I should be doing something. I've already started on my summer homework, albeit at a slow pace because who the hell wants to read a book about the history of salt by a guy that won't shut up about its importance while he ignores basic economic theory of supply and demand as well as the already assumed absurdity of the French monarchy and it's downright stupidity of a bureaucracy before and after the revolution? ./rant
I really wanted a job, and I applied to several places, but they're not hiring. My friends haven't had any luck either, and have been volunteering.
I guess what's really killing our chances of finding part-time work in this economy is that we aren't 18, we don't have previous experience, and all the college kids are back home to take their old summer jobs. I would have applied earlier but 1) Testing created major stress, I don't think I would have been able to hold a job if I had been able to get one. 2) No one was hiring back in May.
I've somewhat looked into volunteer work to hold me over, I guess I could look a little more wholeheartedly to hold me over until on the off chance the places are waiting to call people back. ./crosses fingers.
My neighbor is the local precinct captain for the Democratic party, and her daughter is running the reelection campaign for the local state senator, if they really do need help like my neighbor suggested, I can get that, and the AP Gov assignment that goes with it out of the way. But I'm waiting for her to call me with the details about it. Heck, I don't even know if the campaign has started yet.
But until then, I'm stuck at home planning outings with my friends, and trying to get a fundraiser for my debate team off the ground.
I really wish I had something more fulfilling to occupy my time instead of work around the house and catching up on series I'd always said I'd try out.
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Posted: Mon Jun 27, 2011 9:22 am
This sucks. This sucks so ******** much it isn't even worth mentioning. Why? because people don't give a s**t.
I have lost my passport. ******** knows where it's gone I put it in the damn safe and now it's not there. Asking my parents if they have seen it will only end up with something akin to a death sentence.
I'm fed up of filling out job applications. I just want something to do and to be paid. I want to leave this house and never come back. I just don't want to be here anymore.
I'm fed up of being in debt and having to run this ******** car. God it saves me from this place I just can't afford to keep the thing. oh and because I'm a student the government refuses to help me out because well my parents earn too much because they are CLEARLY contributing SO much to me. No, they expect me to pay them back every penny I ever need. And then b***h about the fact that i haven't. WELL I'M SORRY I'M UNEMPLOYED. WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?
I can't take it anymore. I don't wanna be here but I have nowhere else to go. I can't just drop out of university and leave here because 1. I can't afford it and 2. way to screw over my whole life.
Not to mention resits, and a million other problems I have.
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Posted: Mon Jun 27, 2011 11:24 am
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Posted: Mon Jun 27, 2011 2:23 pm
I think I've become addicted to hitting the Refresh button on my Wordpress dashboard.
need... more... views...
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Posted: Mon Jun 27, 2011 6:13 pm
Well... We had to put one of our dogs down. That was at like, 7:30pm. I keep expecting him to be laying on the couch, in his bed. If I got sad like this, I go to him for a hug. I can no longer do that. How much time needs to pass before I come to terms with the fact that he's no longer around?
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Posted: Mon Jun 27, 2011 7:23 pm
NeoVatic About 4 months ago, my own mother took me to court to try and prove I was criminally insane. Growing up, she had consistently told everyone the schools, doctors parents, even my friends at like 5 years old that I was a deliquent. Well, I was convicted and for 3 odd months or so, i was nothing but some coated, white walled, heretic. It's sad to say, I actually hate my mother. I hate my family, but the real jist of this confession. Is I don't know what to do with my life anymore. I have hit rock bottom, lost all my money, friends and "family." Somedays just suck. A year ago life was in teh green light and in a few days it turned around... im only 20. And now convicted psychopath, set up as leader of an underground crime syndicate, involuntary college drop out, and familyless sad I wish I had any clue what to do now, we've all hit low spots before, but for the first time in my life. I don't know what to do. I'm surprised no one else has responded to this yet. That sounds truly awful. D: I fail to see how you could be convicted when the only "evidence" against you is your mother claiming that you're insane. I also fail to see why she would devote so much time to do so. In fact, I would imagine that she is the insane one in this scenario. I guess the only thing you can do is try to find a job and build up a savings account? It might be hard, what with your mother's meddling, but...
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Posted: Mon Jun 27, 2011 7:36 pm
Foam-dome I'm surprised no one else has responded to this yet. That sounds truly awful. D: I fail to see how you could be convicted when the only "evidence" against you is your mother claiming that you're insane. I also fail to see why she would devote so much time to do so. In fact, I would imagine that she is the insane one in this scenario. I guess the only thing you can do is try to find a job and build up a savings account? It might be hard, what with your mother's meddling, but... To be completely honest, I'm used to it sad and I actually hate that I am =_= I was framed as a local drug lord, including drugs in my locker when I was 15. Mixed with some other "coincidences" my entire region looks down upon me as a social hazard, which I honestly still don't know who did it. But that was a nice large part of everything. Yes, I still don't see how it was a fair trial but I couldn't afford an attorney and my provided was a d**k head. All I've been doing is saving hoping that once I am able to leave no matter how broke I don't have to go back xD
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Posted: Mon Jun 27, 2011 7:44 pm
NeoVatic To be completely honest, I'm used to it sad and I actually hate that I am =_= I was framed as a local drug lord, including drugs in my locker when I was 15. Mixed with some other "coincidences" my entire region looks down upon me as a social hazard, which I honestly still don't know who did it. But that was a nice large part of everything. Yes, I still don't see how it was a fair trial but I couldn't afford an attorney and my provided was a d**k head. All I've been doing is saving hoping that once I am able to leave no matter how broke I don't have to go back xD Is that what you meant when you said you were "set up as leader of an underground crime syndicate?" It sounds like you need a fresh start. D: Maybe try moving to a different area? It sounds like the opinions of the people in your current town are pretty much set in stone.
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Posted: Mon Jun 27, 2011 7:54 pm
Foam-Dome Is that what you meant when you said you were "set up as leader of an underground crime syndicate?" It sounds like you need a fresh start. D: Maybe try moving to a different area? It sounds like the opinions of the people in your current town are pretty much set in stone. Yes. I walked into school one day and was searched, they checked my locker and found like 4 diff drugs I couldn't even name besides weed names numbers. I was 15, and gave no permanent record but 600 hours of community and a reputation I couldnt outlive there. I plan on moving, but after being released I'm confined for 3 months. WHY in the house with the people who put me in I don't know. They wouldn't even hear my case on living under house arrest or in state prison, just not near relatives. I got two months until I can move which is thankfully before school starts or I would have missed more school.
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