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 Posted: Fri Feb 22, 2008 8:26 pm
Zy looked away also. He felt an empty place in his heart, like he was too afraid of loving her again, like his was unable to.
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Posted: Fri Feb 22, 2008 8:32 pm
"i love you." she whispered, her voice soft but strong. "and i will always love you, no matter what really stupid things i do. i'm sorry...." she rested her head on him. "i'm so sorry."
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Posted: Fri Feb 22, 2008 8:36 pm
Zy didn't respond. He didn't know how to. Zy just held her close to him. he wasn't strong enough to lover her again. He wouldn't be able to handle lossing her if he loved her.
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Posted: Fri Feb 22, 2008 8:44 pm
shaon felt his pain in the air and released him. "after all of this, after i have your child, you can have it." she said softly. "i don;t expect you to be able to love me ever again, i'm not asing you to." she swallowed. "Becuase i'm so stupid i ruined it all, but...." she couldn't fight away the tears. "i still want you to be happy, and i know you'll be happy if you have your child. with you." her voice broke and she looked away, sniffing.
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Posted: Fri Feb 22, 2008 8:48 pm
Zy didn't say anything for some time. I... I want you in my life. He struggled to say to her. he wanted to love her, but... he didn't want to loss her again.
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Posted: Fri Feb 22, 2008 8:56 pm
"And i want you in mine...." she looked at him, her eyes wide and full of tears. "if it makes you feel better i hate myself for it. i hate myself more than i ever have. i've never hated what i am more than now, except when i told you those things." she swallowed, sniffing again. "if you had to live...with all my failure..." she clenched her fists. "i fail everyone....i failed my parents, my sister, my friends, my town, zander, and now you and your brother.....i just can't do anything right!" she cried.
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Posted: Fri Feb 22, 2008 9:00 pm
Zy hugged her. Please don't hate yourself. he said in tears. He couldn't bear the thought of it, He still wanted her to be happy.
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Posted: Fri Feb 22, 2008 9:04 pm
( this is the song i'm listening to, it's making me cry even more http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jx3rjS_vSM4 ) She shook her head. "how can i not? i made you stop loving me.....i had it all and i broke it all to pieces!!" she choked on the tears.
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Posted: Fri Feb 22, 2008 9:09 pm
( crying )
I'm not... strong enough. He whispered to her. I can't handle it He almost choked on his words. he couldn't believe this was happening. it felt like a horrible dream.
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Posted: Fri Feb 22, 2008 9:14 pm
She cried in his arms. "I know....i'm so sorry....i so so sorry....." she shook as she cried, unable to see. "i ruin....everything i touch....i'm so sorry i did this to you." she touched his cheek lightly, her breathign staggerign as she choked on the tears. "i'm sorry..." she kicced his cheek softly, pulling away and letting the tears continue to run
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Posted: Fri Feb 22, 2008 9:20 pm
Zy leaned into her kiss as he held her close to him. his own tears making it hard to see in the dark cavern. He needed to sit down, his body was exhausted . He grabbed Shaon Hand and lead her to the soft ground beside the water. He just wanted to hold her, to feel her presence.
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Posted: Fri Feb 22, 2008 9:26 pm
she sat down with him, hugging him tight. she couldn't see, either, but none of that mattered. as long as he was here, no matter what would happen later, he was here for now.
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Posted: Fri Feb 22, 2008 9:31 pm
Zy held her close as he rested on her shoulder. It was strange, He wants to love her so bad, but was too afraid to. He did love, with all his heart he loved her, but she was so willing to end her life... Zy just rested on her shoulder.
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Posted: Fri Feb 22, 2008 9:33 pm
Shaon rubbed his back softly as he rested his head on her shoulder. she sniffed, wiping her eyes with her other hand, thought there was no point. she cut her emotions away, trying to cherish the moment. for now he wanted to hold her, and she wanted to hold him. she didn;t want her pain to get in the way.
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Posted: Fri Feb 22, 2008 9:39 pm
Zy lightly kissed her shoulder. he wanted to love her so much. why couldn't he? why did it have to be like this? zy moved his kisses to her neck. He was temped to bite her, but knew it would hurt her more.
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