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 Posted: Fri May 06, 2011 7:38 pm
I met Luke online 6 years ago. We've never met in person. He plans on coming to MA this summer to meet me. I wonder how my parents are going to react to this. sweatdrop
"Hey mom, you know Luke, my online friend? Well he's coming to visit this summer so can I have a guy sleep over for a week or two?"
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Posted: Fri May 06, 2011 8:45 pm
It's like my soul is see-through...
So... I'm pretty sure I flirted with someone today. Maybe someone can tell me otherwise?
So I'm walking from Sociology to the library, 'cause I gotta check out a book, and I catch up to my new friend Theo and his friend Nick. Now I find Theo attractive--he's a really good looking guy. But today, he had his cap on backwards with a tuft of hair sticking out (again.) So I commented on how he had his "sprout" (as I called it) again. Nick mentioned that he looked like a troll (you know, the naked things they used to make with the hair sticking up?) and I said that I used to collect them. Then I looked straight at Theo and said, "Maybe I should collect a life-size one."
He didn't react badly, so either what I said couldn't be considered a flirt, or he didn't care... thoughts?
Right through my empty eyes...
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Posted: Fri May 06, 2011 9:03 pm
I told Callan everything. About why I'm afraid to let people touch me, my messed-up family, all of it. I left out some details, but I mean, I broke down and couldn't talk about it last time I tried, and that was with my counselor. I'm just not ready for that yet. But I told him everything else. It was a long, painful discussion, and I think at first it kinda freaked him out a bit, because he backed away. But then, maybe he was trying to respect my space, finally realizing that there was a reason for it, I dunno.
I had nightmares about it again last night though.
Today though, he said he was honored that I'd trusted him enough to tell him, and proud that I'd had the courage to do so. I disagreed on the last part, but the first... yeah, I trust him. It's a constant, conscious effort to remind myself not to flinch when he touches me, but it's worth the effort. He's worth the effort. I still can't believe I got so freaking lucky. I was half sure that when I told him, he'd go running off and I'd never see him again save in passing, but for some reason, he accepts me, brokenness and all.
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Posted: Sat May 07, 2011 8:52 am
;3; I'm horrible. I just spent my Mother's Day shopping money on tiger stuff for myself.
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Posted: Sat May 07, 2011 8:56 am
I find some people to be very extraordinarily stupid or dense
Its ...... hnnnnnnnnggg
I don't mind/have nothing against gay or lesbians but seriously?
comparing guys to girls and saying girls are superior in everyway and there will be no need for men in the future... -_____- wtf
what does this have to do with me?Yes I am a guy.
But really?You're probably the most stupidest woman I have ever encountered or had to argue with
and as awful as it is, people like that are really a problem because they just dive headfirst into their battles and grouping everyone in the same boat without giving a damn about their story
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Posted: Sat May 07, 2011 9:16 am
Kamok0
I don't mind/have nothing against gay or lesbians but seriously?
comparing guys to girls and saying girls are superior in everyway and there will be no need for men in the future... -_____- wtf
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Posted: Sat May 07, 2011 9:20 am
Problems are just so much better when you ignore them. C=
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Posted: Sat May 07, 2011 7:12 pm
I'm overworked and under-appreciated. My brother may want to stay in the area to help the family out, but I can't wait get the hell out and live my life.
@Kam: *hugs* I hate ignorant people too, but when they refuse to learn there's nothing anybody can do. =/
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Posted: Sat May 07, 2011 11:00 pm
Hm. I think I've decided I hate mothers day. I don't mind spending time with my Mom, in fact I often enjoy it, but it's the fact that on normal days I get the opportunity to decide to spend a long time with my Mom. On mothers day it's apparently expected for me to spend the entire[/] day with my Mom. This wouldn't normally be a problem except last week I scheduled a skype conversation with my friend that day, I had foolishly forgotten it was mothers day. I could just cancel, but he lives in Japan which means that at this point I'd be canceling at the last minute, which I consider really rude. I don't understand why my Mom can't just give me 30-45 minutes out of her day to talk to my friend, who I haven't been able to talk to in quite a while due to scheduling conflicts. *sigh* It's really obnoxious....
Kamok0 I find some people to be very extraordinarily stupid or dense
Its ...... hnnnnnnnnggg
I don't mind/have nothing against gay or lesbians but seriously?
comparing guys to girls and saying girls are superior in everyway and there will be no need for men in the future... -_____- wtf
My biology professor was joking about this the other day, it was because we were looking at rotifers and he was joking about it because in rotifers there are no males, only females. They are really odd little creatures. XD Though I don't think rotifers not needing males can be transferred over to humans, especially since I don't think males existed in the first place with humans that's obviously not true. I don't think you can really truly compare the two sexes, because if you do then you'd be taking stereotypes to compare with anyhow.
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Posted: Sun May 08, 2011 1:48 am
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Posted: Sun May 08, 2011 6:18 am
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Posted: Sun May 08, 2011 12:25 pm
thnx Kam. I'll pm you if you dont mind.
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Posted: Sun May 08, 2011 1:26 pm
I've been doing a pretty good job of keeping busy and taking my mind off all this shittiness, but after I finish my finals this week, I'm going to have a lot more free time, and I worry that I'll end up dwelling on it... I'm fine when people are online to talk to or when my family members will agree to go geocaching/kite flying/whatever with me, but when I'm alone... I'm scared of what will happen... =/
And of course I'm being forced to become more independent because I don't have him to rely on... and the only real reason I got out of him for wanting to leave me was that I was too dependent. It's kind of... ironic, I guess, that his leaving me is what's forcing me to become independent, which was what he would have wanted me to be while we were dating x__X
I guess now I'll end up being perfect for someone else, and he can go to hell <3
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Posted: Sun May 08, 2011 1:39 pm
Little Miss Fortune I've been doing a pretty good job of keeping busy and taking my mind off all this shittiness, but after I finish my finals this week, I'm going to have a lot more free time, and I worry that I'll end up dwelling on it... I'm fine when people are online to talk to or when my family members will agree to go geocaching/kite flying/whatever with me, but when I'm alone... I'm scared of what will happen... =/
And of course I'm being forced to become more independent because I don't have him to rely on... and the only real reason I got out of him for wanting to leave me was that I was too dependent. It's kind of... ironic, I guess, that his leaving me is what's forcing me to become independent, which was what he would have wanted me to be while we were dating x__X
I guess now I'll end up being perfect for someone else, and he can go to hell <3
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