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 Posted: Thu Apr 28, 2011 12:17 pm
Cannibal Horsey Maris Pallitax well a big ol' ******** you to you, sorry that I actually had more important (and less depressing) stuff to do for once :u
I refuse to deal with your retarded and idiotic ramblings any longer. e-e *snuggles* /clings ;u;
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Posted: Thu Apr 28, 2011 1:18 pm
Maris Pallitax Cannibal Horsey Maris Pallitax well a big ol' ******** you to you, sorry that I actually had more important (and less depressing) stuff to do for once :u
I refuse to deal with your retarded and idiotic ramblings any longer. e-e *snuggles* /clings ;u; *clings back* I miss you Maris heart crying
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Posted: Thu Apr 28, 2011 1:29 pm
hopes Mickey is ok I do T^T
I really feel bad because I know Im a distraction half the time(Im such a whore for your attention)
totally know you'll read this ;D (I LOVE You sexy lady and Im sorry ;; and lies you are totally smart, you just haven't slept much or had much time to study =/
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Posted: Thu Apr 28, 2011 1:43 pm
ok0 hopes Mickey is ok I do T^T
I really feel bad because I know Im a distraction half the time(Im such a whore for your attention)
totally know you'll read this ;D (I LOVE You sexy lady and Im sorry ;; and lies you are totally smart, you just haven't slept much or had much time to study =/
I'm fine, sorry for making you worry. I fell asleep petting Leo then I fell asleep on the floor. heh You're not that much of a distraction. =P I enjoy talking to you too. XD Sleep is no big deal.. Just one more week...
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Posted: Thu Apr 28, 2011 3:52 pm
Had a test for college entry. Top 2 percentile bros.
Also, prom in two days, me so worried D= I'm gonna cry no matter what though XD
-gonna cry when I see how great she looks
-gonna cry when we walk down and get our names announced as a prom couple!
-gonna cry when slow dancing
etc etc etc
I'm gonna be a mess, but I'm so romantically emotional xd
unfortunately, she hasn't been showing much romantic affection lately... which has put me in a bit of a sad state
she did once though, she remarked how her earrings were nickel and she's allergic to metal and told me to not get ideas. Rather romantic she knew I'd buy her something better since the original bothered her skin.
Crap, I subconsciously bought her earrings today because while I was picking up my prom outfit they had these super pretty earrings.
Gosh dangit.
She also asked me to give a hint about her "surprise" toomarow, with the only question being about how expensive it was... she didn't even care what it was! Just that I didn't spend too much! That's gotta count for something? right?
Meh, I'm actually a bit sad because of the slight lack of special affection I've been getting... sad maybe she's saving it up for prom? maybe she doesn't reaaaally like me? idk
the thing that bothers me most I suppose is my "I love you" gets a response of "ok", even when I do it in french! Maybe that's how she does things? The answer to holding hands between classes was "in the future", which was her basic answer to dating as well, that hints at... well... a future of romance. But it's been like a month and... nothing. She did say she liked me, though, so what gives? I'm scared to talk to her about it though. My heart is weak because she has all of it. What if her interest in me really is nonexistent? What if I'm just being dumb?
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Posted: Thu Apr 28, 2011 10:10 pm
I keep lying. I keep saying that I won't post here and I keep doing it.
Probably won't have the internet for much longer anyway. I go to the hospital and somehow everyone I'm living with run up a $300 internet/cable bill. It's normally only about $130. Ridiculous.
They can try and find a way to pay the bill, because I know I'm not going to.
I don't like having a sleeping schedule.
I feel like a little kid everytime my cousin comes and harasses me to go to sleep.
It's kind of fun in a way though. I feel like some kind of secret spy or something sneaking texts behind her back and creeping around the house and stuff.
Must make sure not to get caught though. Otherwise she'll take my phone away from me.
And I love my phone.
Chuck showed up at my house today. He saw me just long enough to say 'I'm only here to make sure you're not going to press charges against me.'
I don't think he's ever going to let all this go.
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Posted: Fri Apr 29, 2011 12:27 am
DO IT LIKE A BROTHAAA, DO IT LIKE A DUDE
I'm not sure if I am actually bisexual or just have raaaging teenage hormones/sex drive e -e
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Posted: Fri Apr 29, 2011 2:21 am
CH0Z0 Had a test for college entry. Top 2 percentile bros. Also, prom in two days, me so worried D= I'm gonna cry no matter what though XD -gonna cry when I see how great she looks -gonna cry when we walk down and get our names announced as a prom couple! -gonna cry when slow dancing etc etc etc I'm gonna be a mess, but I'm so romantically emotional xd unfortunately, she hasn't been showing much romantic affection lately... which has put me in a bit of a sad state she did once though, she remarked how her earrings were nickel and she's allergic to metal and told me to not get ideas. Rather romantic she knew I'd buy her something better since the original bothered her skin. Crap, I subconsciously bought her earrings today because while I was picking up my prom outfit they had these super pretty earrings. Gosh dangit. She also asked me to give a hint about her "surprise" toomarow, with the only question being about how expensive it was... she didn't even care what it was! Just that I didn't spend too much! That's gotta count for something? right? Meh, I'm actually a bit sad because of the slight lack of special affection I've been getting... sad maybe she's saving it up for prom? maybe she doesn't reaaaally like me? idk the thing that bothers me most I suppose is my "I love you" gets a response of "ok", even when I do it in french! Maybe that's how she does things? The answer to holding hands between classes was "in the future", which was her basic answer to dating as well, that hints at... well... a future of romance. But it's been like a month and... nothing. She did say she liked me, though, so what gives? I'm scared to talk to her about it though. My heart is weak because she has all of it. What if her interest in me really is nonexistent? What if I'm just being dumb? Maybe you're taking it to fast for her? I didn't feel comfortable telling my boyfriend that I loved him till we were going out for about 3-4 months, because before that there is a lot of settling in. You might think you are, but then you can never be sure, at least for a while, and so she probably doesn't want to say anything until she's totally confident. 2. If any man said I love you to me in french I'd stare blankly at them. Maybe it's just me but I don't find a foreign language I only vaguely understand romantic.
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Posted: Fri Apr 29, 2011 4:44 am
I hate this. Why does he need to spend so much time away from me completely? Why can't we just talk less instead of not at all? It's been over two months. How long does he expect me to wait? Or is he hoping I'll give up on waiting so he doesn't have to be the one to end it? I feel like I deserve better than that. I've been waiting patiently for such a long time. I'm leaving him alone and giving him all the time he needs. But this is sooo hard! I cry myself to sleep every night because I feel like I'm losing him. I just want to know that he still loves me... =(
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Posted: Fri Apr 29, 2011 6:17 am
OK, so I just got back home for getting the rest of my wisdom teeth taken out. I had the IV drip this time; last time were some pills. I'm still out of it, but I remember almost everything from before and after the teeth extraction. Right now, I feel really sick, but I just wish I had my friends to talk to. Damn time zone difference.
Update: It's 10:40am. I'm not out of it all that much now. The bleeding on one side isn't all that bad, since I only had one tooth taken out, so the gauze out. The other side, however, is bleeding a lot, since both teeth were taken out. Still feeling lonely, too. XD
Update II: Alright. Doing much better. It's 12:15pm now, meaning I got in another hour of sleep or so in. owo My buddy David IMed around noon, so my mood's improved a lot. XD The Novocain has worn off now, and the pain's kicking in. I still feel the side effects from the IV drip: The sore throat, slight nausea and tiredness. D: It hurts to swallow, and since the one side is still bleeding, I won't be able to eat until close to 5:30pm for dinner. I haven't had anything to eat since 11 something last night, and I've only had a few sips of Pepsi. I'm starting to get hungry, dammit.
Last one: Almost 4pm now. I'm trying to work the drugs outta my system. The worst of this adventure's over now. I'm able to eat soft foods now, so that's a plus. I'll just be taking the prescribed pain medication until I'm fixed, which should be in a week or so. owo; I hope I didn't worry anyone too much.
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Posted: Fri Apr 29, 2011 8:55 am
Perhaps, thanks for the reply.
I tried French because she was an exchange student for France.
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Posted: Fri Apr 29, 2011 1:55 pm
I sincerely dislike chemicals XP
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Posted: Fri Apr 29, 2011 4:27 pm
CH0Z0 Perhaps, thanks for the reply. I tried French because she was an exchange student for France. No worries. I hope everything turns out alright I really shouldn't be giving out relationship advice though. Over 3 years and he still can't answer his damn phone or give me a straight answer when I ask him a question. All I did was ask him if he was gonna come over to my beach party today. He could have just said no. But instead he said maybe, he gave me hope. And then, today when I tried to get hold of him to find out what was actually happening he wouldn't answer his phone. Hell, ge was on xbox live just under an hour ago and didn't even TRY to speak to me, even though I'd sent him a message on there as well.
Hardly anyone showed up for my party either. It's not like most of them were even doing anything, they were just hanging about on their day off. I got more kindness from my best friend from school who I haven't spoken to properly in like 2 years than any of my supposedly wonderful university friends.
And to top it all off the ONLY PEOPLE TO COME TO MY PARTY were all couples, so it was 2 couples and me. Just waiting to hear from a boyfriend I never heard a word from. Oh god I'm such a message. I'm crying my eyes out as I type this. I have a lab report due monday, and an assessment tuesday and my exams are coming up soon. I owe my parents a load of money and I have no job and I'm failing my courses at university and I can't take it here anymore either. It's my birthday soon and to be totally honest I'd rather it didn't happen, because I have a feeling nobody is gonna come to my birthday party, they're all gonna be "busy".
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Posted: Fri Apr 29, 2011 4:48 pm
It's like my soul is see-through...
I feel really sexy right now. And it feels GREAT.
Right through my empty eyes...
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Posted: Fri Apr 29, 2011 5:12 pm
I don't know why but I just don't enjoy being on Gaia anymore. Maybe it's because it's the end of the semester, maybe because I'm graduating, maybe I'm just detached from my friends here, or maybe I seriously just outgrew Gaia. I don't know why. It's not like I'm quitting or taking a hiatus, I still sign on once a day. I'm just...not here.
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