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 Posted: Wed Mar 23, 2011 6:33 pm
I didn't think I'd be enjoying this so much o_o Well, it's stressful, but in a good way, I suppose.
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Posted: Wed Mar 23, 2011 6:35 pm
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Posted: Wed Mar 23, 2011 7:08 pm
I got my blood tests back today. Doctors were surprised that my white blood cell count was still really high, but other than that they can't find anything wrong. They think that my blacking out is caused by stress. The visit was kind of funny though. I was explaining a bunch of things to my doctor and he cuts me off in the middle of a sentence and says "You're just one of those people that would be perfectly fine living in the middle of nowhere with no human contact, aren't you?" He probably thought I was weird because I couldn't stop laughing after that.
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Posted: Wed Mar 23, 2011 7:40 pm
Vinicius Fernagon I got my blood tests back today. Doctors were surprised that my white blood cell count was still really high, but other than that they can't find anything wrong. They think that my blacking out is caused by stress. The visit was kind of funny though. I was explaining a bunch of things to my doctor and he cuts me off in the middle of a sentence and says "You're just one of those people that would be perfectly fine living in the middle of nowhere with no human contact, aren't you?" He probably thought I was weird because I couldn't stop laughing after that.
...Though I might not be the best judge for weirdness. >,>;
EDIT: And thankies for the gifties. ;o; /huggles. Totally know it was you. o:< <333
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Posted: Wed Mar 23, 2011 11:47 pm
Kamastr0 @Wall- what happened? D= whats wrong?The boy which I almost got suspended (he was a very close friend of mine) is still running in my head. He seems to avoid me but I've apologised countless times. mad
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Posted: Thu Mar 24, 2011 4:54 am
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Posted: Thu Mar 24, 2011 4:57 am
I want to be given a chance to make it better crying
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Posted: Thu Mar 24, 2011 9:26 am
I seriously can't tell if I slept or not.
All I remember is imagining myself as one of my characters, running around and trying to figure out the other one of my characters-she-likes' manga/doujin tastes for some reason, I have no idea why. But I don't think I was dreaming because I could clearly see my room, and I was just wondering his kind of manga to myself. Meanwhile, I was basically totally aware I was repeatedly rotating and flailing around in bed because it was too damn warm for me to sleep, and I even scratched myself to check if I was awake every once in a while and totally felt it.
But I can't sleep at all now, for sure.
FFFFFF. D8
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Posted: Thu Mar 24, 2011 9:37 am
Jer0nim0 I seriously can't tell if I slept or not. All I remember is imagining myself as one of my characters, running around and trying to figure out the other one of my characters-she-likes' manga/doujin tastes for some reason, I have no idea why. But I don't think I was dreaming because I could clearly see my room, and I was just wondering his kind of manga to myself. Meanwhile, I was basically totally aware I was repeatedly rotating and flailing around in bed because it was too damn warm for me to sleep, and I even scratched myself to check if I was awake every once in a while and totally felt it. But I can't sleep at all now, for sure. FFFFFF. D8 Dreams are part of the mind. and the mind will feel all things even in your sleep. I can help you sleep if you want. There are certain places that you can stretch in your body that makes you more relaxed and ready to sleep. It lets out all the tension in your body and you can just lay there and sleep without having to worry much.
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Posted: Thu Mar 24, 2011 9:40 am
Song Riter227 Jer0nim0 I seriously can't tell if I slept or not. All I remember is imagining myself as one of my characters, running around and trying to figure out the other one of my characters-she-likes' manga/doujin tastes for some reason, I have no idea why. But I don't think I was dreaming because I could clearly see my room, and I was just wondering his kind of manga to myself. Meanwhile, I was basically totally aware I was repeatedly rotating and flailing around in bed because it was too damn warm for me to sleep, and I even scratched myself to check if I was awake every once in a while and totally felt it. But I can't sleep at all now, for sure. FFFFFF. D8 Dreams are part of the mind. and the mind will feel all things even in your sleep. I can help you sleep if you want. There are certain places that you can stretch in your body that makes you more relaxed and ready to sleep. It lets out all the tension in your body and you can just lay there and sleep without having to worry much. Possibly. But I was lucid enough to actually wonder, and while I have been stabbed before in a dream, I can usually tell if it's actually me feeling it. D: ...That sounded creepy out of context. XD And I'm sure there are, but s'okay. I'm getting a sleep study done Saturday anyway. o:
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Posted: Thu Mar 24, 2011 1:13 pm
70F sunny beautiful day.
Crazy blowing wind.
Black skies.
Thunder.
Lightening.
Hail.
60F night.
Snow.
30F day.
All within a 24hour period.
Welcome to Ohio, please stop complaining now.
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Posted: Thu Mar 24, 2011 1:47 pm
Totally sneaking on while at work.
I hate this. I feel horrible. Since the end of last month and for most of this one I've been crying and getting so stressed out that I'm throwing up blood again. At least I know why its happening this time. But I know that if I say anything about it that it'll just cause more problems than its worth.
I'm glad I requested the next few days off from both my jobs. I think I'm just gonna go home, barricade myself in my room, and ignore everyone. Maybe that'll ******** it. I should just go kill myself and get all this crap over with.
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Posted: Thu Mar 24, 2011 1:55 pm
Mickeymoot 70F sunny beautiful day. Crazy blowing wind. Black skies. Thunder. Lightening. Hail. 60F night. Snow. 30F day. All within a 24hour period. Welcome to Ohio, please stop complaining now. That's quite the temperature drop.
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Posted: Thu Mar 24, 2011 1:56 pm
I wish I didn't have to live here. I wish I could afford to move out of this place and never ever come back. But I can't. Especially since after Saturday I'm not gonna have a job. So I'm stuck. I just, can't stand any of them anymore.
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Posted: Thu Mar 24, 2011 2:29 pm
@Maris- =O thats good except for the stress part
@Epic- Me too x--x heh
@Emi- Maybe give him some room?It usually takes time to forgive someone, or maybe give him some chocolate or something he likes?
@Vin- the days off will do you good, but maybe stay in touch with Nim or someone so we know, how you are and such? heh sorry
I really hope things get better for you
@Peo- Can't stand who? All ok? =[ Im sorry, heh how long might it take to leave?are there any work abroad programs there? heh
I know canada has one for UK =/
*hugs everyone*
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