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 Posted: Fri Nov 24, 2006 9:30 pm
Macha/Ireland After Math::
Macha::
The demon snorted angrily. How that crossbreed would pay. The torture was far from over. Macha of course would bent Ireland to her will. It wouldn't be Macha, but Ireland who ended her own life.
Macha was at a good pace. Soon she was out of sight of Ireland. She tossed her head, letting the light hit her horns, warning everyone and thing off or at least to get out of her way. The demonic figure stretched out her wings. Her hooves cut the smooth earth, her temper was still flared.
She knew her words would hurt the crossbreed more than anything. She began to gallop, and took to the sky. Maybe abit of flying and scaring others would calm her abit.
Ireland::
Ireland felt the hoof beats fade. She still laid there. Macha's words had cut her deep. Was she really filthy blood? She didn't know what to do. She had feeling in her body now but it was all pain. She snuggled in the tall grass. It would protect her for the time being.
The grass was soft and felt good under her. She didn't want to get up. Macha's words flooded her mind. 'I won't kill you...yet.' that sunk in deepest. What was left to do? She felt like everything had been taken from her by this demon. She was a Slave. Nothing more to it.
Me::
Ok, now before you all side with Ireland here's the rest to why it happened. Ireland got too full of herself and began to pester and screw with Macha. She finally took it too far and well... we'll just say Macha put her somewhat in place. Somethings Macha took abit too far too but I think that this will just be one of their smaller quarrels then some to come in the future.
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Posted: Sun Nov 26, 2006 12:54 pm
Arizona lets herself go Koda walked into the stables where Arizona was. He looked down at the crying teen and laid next to her, nuzzling his daughter lightly. "Arizona, you shouldn't have acted as you did toward your mother. There was no need for it." he said softly.
Arizona burried her face into her father's neck, "But she was the one who got mad at me! She hasn't been here! She's never been here for me! Only you and Hunter have. She's always worried about Li and Li gets all dramatic and says she's broken because she has 2 inside her!" Arizona heaved.
Koda laid quietly and allowed Arizona to finish.
Arizona continued, "I'm the one that should be broken! I can't hear. The only reason I got these stupid hearing aids was so I could finally hear mommy's voice. But no! She's too busy with Li. Hunter seems to have grown use to it. While you were gone Hunter was the only one I could run to. Then I met Shadrack. I've only known him for 2 days and mom ruined my chances with him." she took in a breath.
Koda nuzzled her, "I understand. I think you should tell Mommy this so she can fix the problem. I know it can be hard and I know you don't like the hearing aids. But you don't have to wear them to try to be strong or make us proud. We're proud of you no matter what."
"Like Mom will listen. All she cares about is taking care of Li. I doubt she's even given Hunter the time of day. Too wrapped up with trying to make Li fit in and babying her. Li won't know hiw to survive in this world at the rate its going. Dad Where did Grandma go?"
"I don't sweetie. And give your mother a chance. I'm sure she's trying. And I've been here for you and hunter."
"I know Daddy, but it's not the same. Its just not." she said resting her small head against her father's neck.
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Posted: Sun Dec 03, 2006 1:14 pm
ninja
Nor paused momentairly outside of the barn. Raiseing her hoof she tapped three times on the barn's hard floor as if knocking. "Koda? A-arizona? are you in there?" 'now why am i so afried? i mean, whats the worst that can happen right? i've already hit rock bottom when it comes to Arizona and me...' she thought. she slowly entered.
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Posted: Sun Dec 03, 2006 1:17 pm
Koda rose, "We're in here." he trotted out, "I think I should give you and Arizona some time alone to talk." he nodded as he exited.
Arizona wiped her tears away and stared into a corner, not even gracing her mother with a glance.
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Posted: Sun Dec 03, 2006 1:26 pm
"Koda! I don't think..." she trialed off and sighed. "alright...." she snorted a little. "not like things can get much worse can they?" she muttered as she walked over to where Arizona was. She looked at her daughter before looking down. "I'm sorry. alright? does that make you happy? or should i tell you how bad of a mother i have been? How much of a screw up i tried so hard not to be but ended up as anyway? If i admit i know i suck will that make you just a little bit happier? You can hate me all you want...i won't stop you Arizona, because i know exactly what your thinking and what your thinking. I felt the exact same way about my mother...still do...because she was never there, because Lady was always more importent. "Be nice to your sister." "Don't say that to her." thats all i heard when i grew up Arizona...so i know how you feel...and i tried...so hard....not to do that to you....i tried Arizona, i honestly did....But i failed...i know that..." she paused and sighed. "So you can hate me if you want to..."
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Posted: Sun Dec 03, 2006 1:33 pm
Arizona looked at her mother, "You haven't been there for me." she said flattly, " Li was always more important just because she had two in her. Guess what mom? I can't hear. But thats ok, li is still much more important that your deaf daughter who could have easily been killed. Li can get over herself. The only reason I got these stupid hearing aids was for maybe just once in my life, you'd pay attention to me and I could hear your voice. That didn't happen. I grew up with out a mother because my stupid sister is to over dramatic for her own good." she paused and looked away, "And it isn't just me you ignored. Hunter too. But he seems use to it. He was there for me. And you ignored dad because of Li too. Li almost had the family split up." arizona snorted. "All I ever wanted was to hear your voice and I wasn't even graced with that." she shook her head, tears came on strong.
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Posted: Sun Dec 03, 2006 1:42 pm
Nor stepped back shaking her head slightly. "Did you not understand what i just said Arizona? I know! I know, ok? I know what i have done, i know what i have put you through...and Hunter....I tried not to Arizona...but Li always seemed to need me more then you...you always looked so strong and were always with your father..." she looked down. "Like i was always with mine...." she sighed. "I see now...thats all that happened...Its was never my mothers fault...and this wasn't my fault, at least not entirelly..." she looked up. "Arizona, i didnt' know you needed me...Just like i bet my mother never knew i needed her...I concentrated on Li because she was the one who always ran to me, who came crying to me and asked for approval. and you sister is not over dramatic. She is just scared...she always will be...until the day seh get a stallion to care for her...she'll always be scared. You were always with your father...i thought you were happy being around him....It was my mistake...an error in comunication...but i will nto take back what i said...you can hate me...for the rest of your life you can wish whatever evil to befall me as you see fit...but don't hate your sister...please. You can hate me...and i'll understand..." her head lowered and she began to turn and leave.
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Posted: Sun Dec 03, 2006 1:49 pm
Arizona got up," I do blame Li for it. She's not scared! Theres two of her! How can she be! She's spoiled and she is over dramatic! All I wanted was my mother but when were I went near you she'd start up again. She's a spoiled little brat and thats all she'll ever be and she'll never get a stallion! Who in their right mind would want her?! No one wants me! Because I truely am BROKEN as she would say!" Arizona was shouting now, and crying. She galloped past her mother and out of the barn. She sped past her father and the rest of her family. She kept going. Soon she was well out of sight of her family but she kept going.
Be back in a little bit.
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Posted: Sun Dec 03, 2006 1:58 pm
"Arizona..." Nor tried to cut off her daughters yelling but couldn't. She watched as Arizona took off before kicking stall doors and swearing loudly. She couldn't even talk to her...and going after her would probably make things worse...yet...SHe set ehr ears back firmly against her head. She exited the barn and looked at Koda "You stay here...find Li if you would...I'm going to get Arizona...don't follow...I have to fix things myself..." Her expression turned sad for a moment before she nuzzled Koda quickly before running off after Arizona, calling to her.
g2g, be back later
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Posted: Sun Dec 03, 2006 3:11 pm
Koda nuzzled her back and nodded," If your not back by sundown I'll come looking for you!" he called fter her. He trotted off to find Li, "Li!" he called out.
Arizona ounded a thicket and reached the creek. She hadn't a clue her mother was following her. She just screamed and let it all out, "God! Why are you doing this to me?! Why?! Why can't you let me be happy?! All I wanted was my mother!" she cried. "Why did you take Grandma?! Bring her back! Why did she leave Grandpa? Why can't you just let me be happy? Why did I have to be broke?!" she slumped down, drown in her own tears, "I just wanted to be loved. Just wanted." she whispered.
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Posted: Sun Dec 03, 2006 3:54 pm
Hunter stood back from thebarn. He had heard the shouting and watched as his sister shot out from the barn. Hw anted to go comfort her but their mom was right. She had to atleast try to fix somthing. But..it is hard to fix somthing that has been like that for all of their life. He wasn't used to being around his parents. He sruged and walked in the oposte direction of his father. There wasnt really a reason for him to be here. This had nothing to do with him. He shook his mane and moved into a trot.
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Posted: Sun Dec 03, 2006 6:59 pm
Li's ears perked. "Dad?" she trotted over and spotted her father. "Dad! there you are! Have you seen Mom? she dissappeared and i heard shouting...is everything ok?" she asked, worried. She didn't say but she had heard what her sister had said about her. She tried not to cry about it, DL was down right pissed about it. She felt horrible, like it was her fault Arizona and Mom fought. All she had ever wanted was to be like her sister...
Nor slowed to a walk and approched Arizona slowly. Quietly she reached and lightly nuzzled the crying mare. "Arizona, have you not been listening to me? You are wanted....Nothing about you is wrong...nothing you have done or not done has influenced my actions...I messed up...and i am truly sorry that i couldn't have been a better mother to you, Arizona...But i can't turn back time and fix it..." she said, her voice soft. "Your not broken. Your more perfect then any horse i have ever seen. and that is the truth."
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Posted: Mon Dec 04, 2006 3:12 pm
Koda could tell Li was ready to cry. He knew she'd heard it all. Slowly he walked up to her and let her rest her head on his shoulder. He nuzzled the back of her neck, "If you want to cry, then let it out. You don't need to hide your emotions from me." he answered to her.
"Then why do I feel like I'm not wanted?" she whispered. "Dad and hunter couldn't replace you. Neither could grandma or Great grandma. All I ever wanted was you. Only you." she cried on. She hated herself right now. Why did she have to be a problem child? Why did she have to be the one that couldn't hear? Couldn't it have been someone else? Why wasn't life fair? She didn't know but it only made her feel worse thinking about it.
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Posted: Mon Dec 04, 2006 6:51 pm
Li's ears went back sadly. "I'm sorry Dad...Arizona is mad at mom because of me...i've tried not to be a burden...really...I just wanted to be like Arizona...she's so cool...and amazing...like mom...I'm just the outcast..." she sniffed. "Arizona is right...mabye i should just leave...no stallion will want me..."
"Because i messed up...Arizona i know how you feel...and i know how bad it is...I was the problem child...literally...until i met your father i was out of control. I threatened to kill Magic and Spirit...fought anyone at the first sign...all because i felt that my mother didn't want me...that my sister was the more importent one, that i only got in the way. My mother always focused on Lady and Mirage, the blind and the traitor...while i stood back and watched. So i know Arizona...I know..." she nuzzled her again, this time with much more feeling. She felt as if she should die right then and their for causeing her daughter so much hurt. Nor was angry with herself...for letting this happen...and a bit angry at Koda, for suggesting the trip to the mountains...but she knew she couldn't blame him for her actions. She sighed.
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Posted: Mon Dec 04, 2006 7:07 pm
"Li, stop." He nuzzled his daughter, "She didn't mean it. She's just abit upset right now. You'll find someone. Right now Mommy needs you to be very strong. Alot has happened since we've returned and right now we're dealing with some problems. Arizona didn't mean it. She's just, outof reach, at the moment and right now we're trying to get her back in reach to where we can control her abit. Arizona is facing problems of her own. I don't even think she's told your mother yet that the vet has confirmed she'll be deaf for the rest of her life. We can't keep getting her hearing aids so life is about to get harder for her. Just ignore it for right now. She's upset and not meaning what she says." he nuzzled his daughter lovingly.
"Mama.. I don't want to hurt others. But I feel like I'm being mean. I want you to be in my life. I'm just so confused right now. I don't know what to do anymore. I want you and Dad to be proud of me. I want to do something great to make you proud of me. I don't want to be a problem child but I just feel so bottled up. I'm tired of people treating me different cause I can't hear. Why can't they treat me like everyone else? Why am I so different from them. That makes me mad too." she nuzzled her mother back. She just wanted to be normal, and someone that her parents could be proud of. Proud enough to say; thats my daughter up there!' she though away. she sniffed noticing, for once in her life, she was spending time with her mother, alone. Finally her mom was paying attention. Finally it was about Arizona and mom wanting to make her happy. She looked at her mother, wide eyed and sprun foward, giving her mother a hug. The tears stopped and her ears were perked. She was happy.
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