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 Posted: Wed Mar 12, 2008 7:57 pm
Tic tock tick tock...
It's the only thing i hear in the house no pitter patter of doggy paw's no music from Orion and my room, the house is empty and lonely. I'm not even sure were he went but i know he'll be back since he has the dogs. I would have gone with him but im sick, with the flu or something. My body aches and it isn't from the pleasurable activity's we get into on a daily basis. I hate being sick it makes me measurable. I talked to Macyn earlier he's sick too, but he still had to work today something a bout a big meeting that could make his dreams come true. Why he wants to be the CEO of a company is beond me but he's working it out.
anyway I'll write more later i think i might pass out for a few more hours...
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Posted: Sun Sep 28, 2008 12:55 pm
(( Still on hiatus but i had some stuff going on in my head so i thought i'd write a journal.))
Alot has happened in the last few months. I have my studio though; i have stopped teaching, now i'm only taking care of the financial end of the buisness. I dont mind it in fat after taking a buisness course i find that i actually enjoy this part of running my own dance studio.
Home life has gotten akward, I love Orion with my life but i think maybe were growing apart. I hope were aren't but we haven't been as close lately. I know we'll figure it out, maybe we just need some space. I find myself thinking of A'Hallie when im alone at the office late at night, i hate myself for how i handled things with him. But i know that even if i went to him this very second there would be only bitterness between us. Soon though i think i need to talk to him about everything.
Because even after everything i remember him, and i do love him. That's the hardest part about all this i love them both. And in the end i think i'd rather be alone then hurt either of them. Though i dont know how long i could be alone. The need for human touch is just to great sometimes, and i like being held in Orions arms when we sleep.
I loved being in A'Hallie's arms too though, and no matter what he thinks the one time we were together wasn't meaningless or cheap. I'll always rememeber it. But i couldn't compete with the love/hate he had for Samsara; it took me a long time to figure out that i dont have to compete for someone's love. I just have to be me. And if that isn't enough im not ment to be there.
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Posted: Sat Jan 17, 2009 1:32 pm
Makenna sighed as he looked at his step like brother Macyn. “ I’m glad that you finally got the job you wanted. But why on earth would you want to celebrate with me?” He asked with a raised brow, he hadn’t really been good company to anyone lately. “ Because brother i thought you could use a night out.” It was true he could use one and it had given him a reason to dress up nicer then normal. His dress pants fit him to a tee, and the tight red t-shirt he wore hugged all of his muscles. He aslo had on a black vest that was hugely popular at the moment. Shaking his head he focused his attention back to Macyn. “ Sure i guess, couldn’t get a date?” Macyn laughed deeply at Makenna. “ I could have gotten a date, but i wanted to take you for a night of drinking and dancing. Maybe take your mind off things bugging you at home.” Sticking his tongue out in a rather juvenile why, but it did make the himself chuckle.
“ Thanks, i apperciate it.” And he did. Reaching for his beer as he looked around the room, he actually liked this resturant. Sipping the cold beer he nodded as the waitor placed their appitizers grabbing a cheese stick he took a bite swollowed and looked back at Macyn who was finishing up his own. “ So mister CEO what’s it like to own a whole new company?” He asked grinning he was incredibly proud of his brother, he couldn’t even really remember why they had hated each other at one point.
“ It’s an awesome feeling knowning that I got this pretty much all by myself. “ He grinned his dazzling grin and shook his head. “ Thank you for helping me decide to take those buisness classes.” Eatting another cheese stick we sat silently for a bit. “ No prob, beside you helped me go take the same kind of classes and now i own my buisness to. “ All in all the last couple years have had there ups and downs. Orion and him where still together though things had gotten a little rocky. Such was life though. He still thought about A’Hallie probably to often but that didn’t matter either.
Stopping his thoughts right there he went back to enjoying the evening with Macyn, after all it was his big day and he didn’t want to spoil it.
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