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Dope do what makes you feel happy hun n-n

On other news, Daggeh has just got 10 eps of the Devil May Cry anime. And it's petty daaam good.

Dope, you are NOT obese. This is typical doctor scare tactics to get you to eat healthier etc so they dont have to BOTHER dealing with people. The NHS sucks.

That aside, ROsie and Jer? Have fun. Seems like Im the only one not doing something this weekend xd Bard is off to watch Azrael wrestle this weekend (and considering my well known views on this, I really dont think Az would appreciate me being there), and me? Im wishing Dag's anime was down here crying At least I'll get to finish Overlord. Just a few achievements left ^^

She'll be there in spirit, dear.... once she gets her soul back, o'course. xd

Well, I have some disheartening news....

I was having severe pains in my upper area where contractions are mainly coming from... I thought it might have been way early labor and saw ....blood, so I went to the doctor and found out lots of sad liitle things.

Apparently I have a galstone. Or gallstone, however it is spelled. It causes me to have pains so severe that I feel like Im actually having a heart attack. So, anyway, they put me on a low fat diet, to see if it helped ease the pain, BUT because I am poor I cant eat "healthy" and end up buying crap food anyway... thus my still being in pain... and until I have the kiddos... Im going to be... Then when I have the twins, once I heal up from them, they are going to take me and have open chest surgery on me, to remove it....

Im super scared... Im worried for reasons that...are quite legitamate to be worried over, mainly the fact that I sincerely could die from the surgery. They assure me they will take the upmost care that they can but that it is still a risky surgery because I am so young and because they are pretty much cracking my chest plate open....

The babies are doing fine, Im so-so, I believe the pain gets more excruciating with every waking and sleeping moment of my life. Im having severe back pains and my Mother keeps placing me under stress that's just... ugh. She wants to stress me to the limit, I swear...It's causing me to get angry easily and I tend to be a bit snappy with her. Ive cried my eyes out for days and days, and Im just not sure how much more of it I can take. One minute, she's leaving and never coming back...and the next she's sitting there bitching me out over absolutely NOTHING. I nearly have panic attacks, I get so upset.. and it's not good for the babies and Im just.... I dont know what to do, it's not like I have anywhere to go...she traps me when she can and drills me like a military person.

Anyway....drama, drama...baby mama drama...It's sad, and quite annoying.

Thanks for reading. heh. gonk

wow bad news all round.
dope thanks for the coffee the other day i needed someone to talk to, and if you ever need to do it again im always around 3nodding
and illyasveil, i kno we havent spoken but any friend of roanys is a friend of mine, all i can say is im sorry to hear about your troubles and you shall be in my thoughts.
i dont think there is anything i can do but if you need a chat just pm me and ill do what i can to help you out.

Thanks very much, I guess Im just more scared than I thought I would be, it's quite aggrivating to be placed in a position to make that kind of decision.

Sure, I can continue to live with it, but it will eventually kill me. Or so they say.

Or, I have a choice of having my chest plate opened and having it removed, with the added idea that it could also kill me.

Kinda has sucky endings in both scenerios, huh?

I appreciate the concern, Im glad to know at least someone(s) out there cares about me and doesnt just pretend to. (Speaking of my mom....)

Sigh.

Anyways, I wish I could even get ahold of Damon...he'd be happy to know Im only a few hours away from him...^^;