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 Posted: Fri Feb 18, 2011 4:23 pm
My #1 college is 3 hours away. I love the school but I really suck at making new friends.
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Posted: Fri Feb 18, 2011 4:59 pm
Im stressed, freaking out, slightly depressed, I have no idea, Im sweating/panicing/can barely sleep/ I have to get this yet I feel like I can't just save everyone, I feel like whenever I save someone I have to make a sacrifice, Honestly the reality of my situation is I m soo pissed off, Im soo sad and Im soo confused, I freaking and crying right now and I just want to run and hit something I have to go to Dublin I have less than a few hours to finish these papers, My mum is selfish,
her side of the family refused to bail her out on a childish quible
Im pissed over that because they have ******** me side ways?
ME!?
I went to ******** london
I sacrificed my time and most of my school days, even my teachers got pissed at me and I never got a thank you -___-
and took care of my family no matter how crap they treated me but I thought I could atleast rely on them to take of my mom
now I dunno
I need to go
I need to move
or what?what can I do here?
nothing My life goes nowhere
I ll just have to bury myself alive
I don't know Im rather confused, I m trying to save myself yet in the end no one will save me because people when they wish to help they look and just criticize or say things I ve already looked into and Im just stuck
I hate it, But im struggling,
I m not suicidal I wont kill myself but Im just soo baaaah
I have no idea/dunno anymore
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Posted: Fri Feb 18, 2011 6:13 pm
*MASSIVE BACK-BREAKING BEAR HUGS* ;-;
It'll get better Kam. Just do your best to take care of yourself. <3
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Posted: Fri Feb 18, 2011 7:09 pm
Maris Pallitax *MASSIVE BACK-BREAKING BEAR HUGS* ;-;
It'll get better Kam. Just do your best to take care of yourself. <3 *hugs* thanksies heh
I hope, Im easily bugged/my mood changes alot lately ;;
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Posted: Fri Feb 18, 2011 7:41 pm
Kamastr0 Maris Pallitax *MASSIVE BACK-BREAKING BEAR HUGS* ;-;
It'll get better Kam. Just do your best to take care of yourself. <3 *hugs* thanksies heh
I hope, Im easily bugged/my mood changes alot lately ;;
Regardless of whether your mood swings, or whether you get antsy or impatient, we're here to support you when we can owo <333 We just want Kam to take care of Kam
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Posted: Fri Feb 18, 2011 9:00 pm
After spending 12 hours in the emergency room, I must conclude:
+This is the lamest combination of illnesses ever to end up in there.
+Morphine is overrated. Each dose barely lasted an hour, dammit.
+Scans via CT and ultrasound suck most simply because I can't drink 32 ounces of fail-punch iodine when I want to throw up.
+I just realized I fell asleep for 6 hours since I got back and that last line totally reminded me of my need to pee really bad. Brb.
+'Kay, back. o:
+IVs are actually kinda bloody to deal with--there's bloodsmears on my stuff. e,e But the needles are less annoying than I thought they would be, so yay.
+My damn pillow is better than any pillowpet--damn right I brought it everywhere I could. D8< The bloody smears are a badge of courage for mah lovely pillow.
+Vicodin is going to slowly evolve Nim into Nimhouse, I knows it.
+...I can't believe I actually need Vicodin for this stupid of a condition. e,e
+It took way too long to find out (3 weeks, basically) wtf was wrong with me.
+Did I mention the diagnosis was really lame? (In a good way too though.)
+I'm running out of things to list, but I totally had a list I was categorizing in my head while I was in the morphine. ;A;
+My tee-shirt has the progression of a stick man (1) stumbling forward, (2) clutching its stomach, (3) and falling on the floor to throw up, with the words "FüKENHUNGöVER" on it. I didn't notice the luls of going to the hospital in that and my pjs until like 5 hours later.
+Parents with fries while you can only drink iodine-punch are evil, evil people.
+Imma stop listing things now because I've been staring at this for way too long and it feels like a textwall of wtf enough already. 8D
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Posted: Fri Feb 18, 2011 9:08 pm
Jer0nim0 After spending 12 hours in the emergency room, I must conclude: +This is the lamest combination of illnesses ever to end up in there. +Morphine is overrated. Each dose barely lasted an hour, dammit. +Scans via CT and ultrasound suck most simply because I can't drink 32 ounces of fail-punch iodine when I want to throw up. +I just realized I fell asleep for 6 hours since I got back and that last line totally reminded me of my need to pee really bad. Brb. +'Kay, back. o: +IVs are actually kinda bloody to deal with--there's bloodsmears on my stuff. e,e But the needles are less annoying than I thought they would be, so yay. +My damn pillow is better than any pillowpet--damn right I brought it everywhere I could. D8< The bloody smears are a badge of courage for mah lovely pillow. +Vicodin is going to slowly evolve Nim into Nimhouse, I knows it. +...I can't believe I actually need Vicodin for this stupid of a condition. e,e +It took way too long to find out (3 weeks, basically) wtf was wrong with me. +Did I mention the diagnosis was really lame? (In a good way too though.) +I'm running out of things to list, but I totally had a list I was categorizing in my head while I was in the morphine. ;A; +My tee-shirt has the progression of a stick man (1) stumbling forward, (2) clutching its stomach, (3) and falling on the floor to throw up, with the words "FüKENHUNGöVER" on it. I didn't notice the luls of going to the hospital in that and my pjs until like 5 hours later. +Parents with fries while you can only drink iodine-punch are evil, evil people. +Imma stop listing things now because I've been staring at this for way too long and it feels like a textwall of wtf enough already. 8D *hugs * =[ I know what you mean (about the morphine and CT scan)
Hospitals sometimes fail -__- *hugs*
and D=
That is evil =[
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Posted: Fri Feb 18, 2011 9:20 pm
Kamastr0 Maris Pallitax *MASSIVE BACK-BREAKING BEAR HUGS* ;-;
It'll get better Kam. Just do your best to take care of yourself. <3 *hugs* thanksies heh
I hope, Im easily bugged/my mood changes alot lately ;;*hugs* remember to take time for yourself
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Posted: Fri Feb 18, 2011 9:26 pm
*hands out chocolate*
I really do that IRL. XD
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Posted: Fri Feb 18, 2011 9:30 pm
Jer0nim0 After spending 12 hours in the emergency room, I must conclude: +This is the lamest combination of illnesses ever to end up in there. +Morphine is overrated. Each dose barely lasted an hour, dammit. +Scans via CT and ultrasound suck most simply because I can't drink 32 ounces of fail-punch iodine when I want to throw up. +I just realized I fell asleep for 6 hours since I got back and that last line totally reminded me of my need to pee really bad. Brb. +'Kay, back. o: +IVs are actually kinda bloody to deal with--there's bloodsmears on my stuff. e,e But the needles are less annoying than I thought they would be, so yay. +My damn pillow is better than any pillowpet--damn right I brought it everywhere I could. D8< The bloody smears are a badge of courage for mah lovely pillow. +Vicodin is going to slowly evolve Nim into Nimhouse, I knows it. +...I can't believe I actually need Vicodin for this stupid of a condition. e,e +It took way too long to find out (3 weeks, basically) wtf was wrong with me. +Did I mention the diagnosis was really lame? (In a good way too though.) +I'm running out of things to list, but I totally had a list I was categorizing in my head while I was in the morphine. ;A; +My tee-shirt has the progression of a stick man (1) stumbling forward, (2) clutching its stomach, (3) and falling on the floor to throw up, with the words "FüKENHUNGöVER" on it. I didn't notice the luls of going to the hospital in that and my pjs until like 5 hours later. +Parents with fries while you can only drink iodine-punch are evil, evil people. +Imma stop listing things now because I've been staring at this for way too long and it feels like a textwall of wtf enough already. 8D
Dunno what you have, but here's some cookies =D!!! /hugs <3
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Posted: Fri Feb 18, 2011 9:32 pm
Jer0nim0 After spending 12 hours in the emergency room, I must conclude: +This is the lamest combination of illnesses ever to end up in there. +Morphine is overrated. Each dose barely lasted an hour, dammit. +Scans via CT and ultrasound suck most simply because I can't drink 32 ounces of fail-punch iodine when I want to throw up. +I just realized I fell asleep for 6 hours since I got back and that last line totally reminded me of my need to pee really bad. Brb. +'Kay, back. o: +IVs are actually kinda bloody to deal with--there's bloodsmears on my stuff. e,e But the needles are less annoying than I thought they would be, so yay. +My damn pillow is better than any pillowpet--damn right I brought it everywhere I could. D8< The bloody smears are a badge of courage for mah lovely pillow. +Vicodin is going to slowly evolve Nim into Nimhouse, I knows it. +...I can't believe I actually need Vicodin for this stupid of a condition. e,e +It took way too long to find out (3 weeks, basically) wtf was wrong with me. +Did I mention the diagnosis was really lame? (In a good way too though.) +I'm running out of things to list, but I totally had a list I was categorizing in my head while I was in the morphine. ;A; +My tee-shirt has the progression of a stick man (1) stumbling forward, (2) clutching its stomach, (3) and falling on the floor to throw up, with the words "FüKENHUNGöVER" on it. I didn't notice the luls of going to the hospital in that and my pjs until like 5 hours later. +Parents with fries while you can only drink iodine-punch are evil, evil people. +Imma stop listing things now because I've been staring at this for way too long and it feels like a textwall of wtf enough already. 8D ((big hugs)) Morphine never lasts long enough but it can take the edge off things for a bit. Have they tried Demerol for pain? It's still massively addictive, but you might have better pain relief.
I don't know what you're diagnosed with but you have my sympathies. I hate drinking contrast too.I hope you feel better
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Posted: Fri Feb 18, 2011 10:07 pm
@ Kam & Nimm: -Hugs slightly tightly-
D: Those situations are really hard to endure D:
@ Kam - I can tell you're having a hard time at the moment with your mood swings and irritable emotion at the moment. D: I hope you can relax soon after having a nice cup of warm tea and sleep for a while D:
@ Nim - D: /huggles/ I hope you feel better soon D:>, I hate going to the hospital and I understand how IV's are hard to deal with. I had needles stuck in my wrist the whole time I was in the hospital once :C
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I did the most stupid thing ever. I apologised to him on Facebook. /headdesks
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Posted: Fri Feb 18, 2011 10:17 pm
...Wow, I can't believe I forgot to say what I actually have. >,>
It's mono and gastritis. So basically it's a herpes virus (lolnotthatkind D:<) and massive heartburn. I had stomach pain severe enough to need to go to the ER at 1 am yesterday. Lamest two things to have, ever, if you have to go to school and say "Ohay, this is why I was gone the first 3 weeks of the second semester! 8D"
Thankfully pretty easy to treat and all though (have no idea how long it lasts though...fff so much food to miss), so any accusations of me saying it's lame is totally joking. Plz not smite Nim with tummy pain. Dun wanna become House yet.
Totally only dizzy right now, which is always good enough for me. Thanks for the hugs and cookies, guis. <333 (And I've no idea what Demerol is, they didn't give me any, just went straight to the Vicodin. o,o')
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Posted: Fri Feb 18, 2011 10:28 pm
Ooh... I've had gastritis before. I hate that crap.
Get well soon, Nim! <3
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Posted: Fri Feb 18, 2011 11:23 pm
College applications are asking for my high school info. Like the hell hole I ran from or my dual enrollment-ish high school? I take classes at college but I'm getting my diploma from another high school which I've never even been inside. Am I seriously going to ask for that HS to tell the colleges about me when they never met me or do they talk to my advisor at the college? Or are they going to want info from the hell hole? I don't want them to talk to anyone at the hell hole, I dropped out for a reason. Please talk to my advisor, she loves me and I get awards for my grades every semester! Gah this is so confusing. I'm supposedly a transfer student but I'm also dual enrollment-ish and there's no place to explain my odd situation!
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