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 Posted: Thu Feb 17, 2011 5:30 pm
kittycross I'm tired. really really tired of managing everyone else's disabilities and problems and having no time for my own. I have one schizophrenic-bipolar husband, and two ocd bipolar children, one of whom is transgender and can no longer go to school because idiots there. I can't even find time to make my own psych appointments and at this rate I'm never going to get back into school and finish degrees.
I found out my husband had been mis-managing his med for the past 2 1/2 months and thats why he was feeling 'off.' Now he's caught in one of those loops of berating himself and is still no closer to being tested for Aspergers.
As if this wasn't enough on it's own. birthdays are coming up and Kawaiicon so there's all the pressure of want this and need that, while my exes who each owe thousands are going to send expensive gifts that i couldn't afford and I need to put together four cosplays by April. Not that we don't already have cosplay stuff, but the kids especially want new things and figure since i sew, sculpt and am to their reasoning artistically brilliant it should be no trouble to just whip up some fantastic on command.
I'm certainly not going to be able to make an Austria costume.
And I'm so tired of hearing people tell me how well I'm doing and how I keep everything together. some days I really wish suicide was an option.
Everyone is so edgy i have to cut discretely or things get worse A tear is only water, a sigh is only air
D: *hugs tightly*
Whenever you feel haunted, the truth lies out there
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Posted: Thu Feb 17, 2011 6:47 pm
*hugs for kitty*
Also... Good Omens! That book is amazing. Pratchett and Gaiman are such a good team <3 I kind of want to go re-read it now xD
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Posted: Thu Feb 17, 2011 7:17 pm
:'D I'm so glad that my buddy responded to my PM. I was really getting anxious over it. Now I won't have to do something drastic~ X3
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Posted: Thu Feb 17, 2011 7:33 pm
Ugh. I'm done posting here.
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Posted: Thu Feb 17, 2011 7:56 pm
I get it if you're scared. If you just came clean and told me I wouldn't be annoyed. Instead you just run.
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Posted: Thu Feb 17, 2011 8:35 pm
@Yoru: Good choice. >w>
minifail below
I'll stab them all. D<
Imma miss that old lady. ;-;
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Posted: Thu Feb 17, 2011 8:37 pm
Maris Pallitax @Yoru: Good choice. >w>minifail below I'll stab them all. D<
Imma miss that old lady. ;-;
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Posted: Thu Feb 17, 2011 8:54 pm
Foam-Dome Maris Pallitax @Yoru: Good choice. >w>minifail below I'll stab them all. D<
Imma miss that old lady. ;-;
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Posted: Thu Feb 17, 2011 10:10 pm
Maris Pallitax Foam-Dome Maris Pallitax @Yoru: Good choice. >w>minifail below I'll stab them all. D<
Imma miss that old lady. ;-;
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Posted: Thu Feb 17, 2011 10:37 pm
I will never, ever, ever agree to going back to that bar again.
Also, named the puppy Rune. He seems to like it <3
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Posted: Thu Feb 17, 2011 10:58 pm
I'm obsessive about researching and checking before I make a decision. Searching and choosing a college is NUTS! UVM is the only one I've looked at and I love it but I know I need to apply to more than one and I can't find any others I really like. Is there some online generator where I just put in the majors I'm looking at, the state, and it brings up a list with a summary? Then since nursing programs are so competitive I need to look at another major I would consider and all I know is I want to work in the medical field but I don't want to be a doctor. And I need to start financial aid forms and look at scholarships. I'm feeling insanely overwhelmed! gonk
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Posted: Thu Feb 17, 2011 11:52 pm
Apparently because I stuck up for a dog who was howling from being stuck in a car, I'm an embarrasment. At least I'm not a ******** coward and I spoke up for an animal who couldn't themselves. Nan drove me home and I accidently put a hole in the wall. Problem is I can't hide the hole and I don't know how to fix it.
Bleeding to death or shooting myself seem like great ideas at the moment. I don't know where he hides the keys to the gun cabinet or to the ammo box unfortunately.
But now that I have typed that out I feel just a tiny bit better. Need to go and attempt to fix a wall..
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Posted: Thu Feb 17, 2011 11:53 pm
I need to know that this is worth it.
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Posted: Thu Feb 17, 2011 11:54 pm
Vinicius Fernagon I need to know that this is worth it. A tear is only water, a sigh is only air
We can't know if it's worth it or not until you tell us.
Whenever you feel haunted, the truth lies out there
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Posted: Fri Feb 18, 2011 12:02 am
Kestin - ~Hugs~ I hope the meeting goes well and that they don't tell your parents. Can you somehow negotiate with your teacher? Student - Teacher confidentiality thing? I'm sorry that probably isn't at all helpful...
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