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I'm buckling under pressure. Between my downward spiral towards depression and the weekly deadlines I have, I can scarcely breathe. I don't want to be alone. I don't want to do this. Any of it. I'm scared. Scared out of my ******** mind. I don't want to fail, but I have expectations. How the ******** am I supposed to meet them on time if I am frozen with terror and stress? I'm this close to tears just thinking about all of it.

Breathe. Need to breathe.

i suck at dancing lol XD

*hugs tightly*
Just try think of one at time, and hit the most important one first, and then do the next one, you're certainly aren't alone =[ don't feel that way,

Try not to let the terror or stress get to you, its the worst that can happen,
Like do something to distract yourself or take your mind off stuff and then breathe and hit it one assignment or paper at a time, its easier said than done but you can do it, its probably the best way to do so without having to stress about the others if you envelope yourself in one at a time

Now Im peepee'd off D<,
I get yelled at for not being money concious yet when I am money concious I get yelled at anyway D=
crazy people I swear

I just poofed and had a really long trip down memory lane it was soo freaking freaky,
I no believe it yo,
I remember all the bad stuff up until now D;
and then alot of the good stuff to XD

I have to go to Dublin soon, Im slightly going Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
and then going D; because I got real bad A real bad feeling going there alone heh

I was trying not to be depressed about the score I got on my first evolutions exam, I was sick and therefore didn't study at all and felt horrible during the exam. I got a 66. So basically to pass the class with a B or higher I need to get 100% on all the remaining homework, and get over an 87 on all three remaining tests. And it's impossible to get an A in the class now, even if I get 100% on all remaining tests/homework I'd still only have a 93% in the class which is an A-... Why oh why does the first exam hold so much weight? Why isn't an exam dropped? One single off day and it's basically ruined my grade, I don't think I can do that well... I now foresee a lot more studying for this class. On the plus side I've figured out that it's impossible for me to fail, even if I get a 66 on all exams if I get 100% on homework I'll still have a C- in the class, I'm not going to ever get another grade that low on an exam so I'm guaranteed at least a C+ in the class. But since it's part of my major I almost need to get at least a B, a B- at the very least. And I'm scared of the exam for my lab class, I don't have confidence in recognizing the organisms. I might have spent hours looking at them, but that's going to mean nothing when I have a huge list to choose from and only one is the right answer for each and every microscope.

On the other hand genetics is going great, I had my first exam today and I feel like I got almost full points on it. This makes me really happy, especially with the reasoning that a high grade in genetics is much more important to me then a high score in Evolution. Must remember this. Chemistry is more important then Evolution as well. Must remember this as well.