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Seems it is late...pfft.....Bite me school...bite me hours...bite me world.....bite me computer.When I was born,when my being was fabricated....when my soul or whatever I am was created...the tick of a clock held no bounds.The only thing to keep me to the bindings of sleep is the setting of the sun or tiredness!Well the sun has set and I'm not tired!School can burn..society can burn..it can all burn..counting every second..trying to save every moment.Watching the clock and planning.The more you save the quicker your demise!Everytime you plan your day you've lost it that much sooner!Bound by a contraption that goes tick and tock?What are you?Mentally ill?I guess all of the world is. We've gotten so far ahead with everything we have that we can no longer live in simplicity..I don't know if it was worth it.I don't know to praise those that have made the world this way..or curse them.I can do nothing to change the world..the tick tock will eventually kill me regardless of how I fight it.Should I try to tear it down..or further the creation of new things.With each discovery damning a part of what we were once.Striving to become what?Gah!What do I care?My life should be spent getting a career!Finding a girl!Marrying,having kids,retiring,and golf.Then death. WHERE IS THE LIFE IN THAT! scream What promise,what inspiration,what joy do these people find in doing what's been done,in doing what everyone else does!In moving forward!I want to keep now forever.I don't want to graduate..I don't want to move on.I want life to end at childhood.I can't have that though..the tick tock will take me beyond it.I'll face responsibilty....and becoming another zombie in the world.There's no way to avoid it.I might take some fun in what I do..but it just won't be the same.Arghh!!!!!!!!!

What's worse?I have no path!No passion!The things that I feel will be my life bind me only for a few hours of delireous joy!Then I lose interest and sight of them!I once again find myself sitting wondering what to be and become.I can't decide...I want to be a student forever.A kid forever.I want to forever go to class with my friends,sit at the back,and learn,but have fun to.I want to skip my class..sneak down the halls and play in the snow.What?!Am I to simply enjoy this?Then move on into the darker years and live with only my memories?With my youth that even in knowing it'll be lost I cannot fully appreciate it?I hate being so powerless against smething..so....small.One tick...one tock...one after another.One grain of sand after another slowly coming to drown me.Each breath is one closer to the last.I sit here rambling now...late at night.In my room my two fingers type along because I have never typed with more then my two fingers and thumbs...lalala...I ramble.I ramble about how my entire being is bound by two noises.Two things so damned simple!haven't you ever noticed or seen it?Haven't you ever just stopped and seen it?That you can't stop it no matter what you do!Even with no clocks around each second passes and adds to the next.Life is too short and already I've wasted so much.The rest..the only way not to waste it is to waste it planning every second...I want to see it all.That however requires money...that requires work.I may one day retire,but without my youth to enjoy it so much.Gah!I'm sure my complaint has been said many times by just as many.Though still...it aggrevates me so damned much...I feel so hopeless and powerless.....I won't...geh.I won't do anything stupid,even before the great expanse before me that thought doesn't cross my mind.Tommorow I'll wake up and forget this.Just another passion lost..I don't know why.I'll just lose the fire from it.However..there will be truth in this each time I read it.Girls..meh..they come..they go.They're people and all,yes I understand that.Bonding and love and blah blah blah are all things worthy I'm sure...call me maybe just selfish,but I don't care!I don't care about much of anything really.......I don't know why I don't care..or why I stop caring.I guess this is my rant..........I've slowed my typing now.....each of these dots is typed so slowly....................I guess to add my personal drama to it....though I don't know why,geh.I suppose I just whine too much.Everyone will have a bigger problem..everyone has someone dumping them,or dead family,or something as important to them as that.I'll never care really,Id on't MEAN to offend them..but I won't.To me my problem is a bigger concern..I guess in a way my arguement could be used the same against me.What makes a world is different to each person..but regardless every world and everything is being eaten by time.I really don't know the point of anything I've typed today.All I know is that I did,If anyone can find anything from it...good for them,I'm happy for them...

Since Soul took it upon himself to write out a little life philosophy, I think I'll take a little time to write one that's been bothering me for awhile.

One comment I always get from women is, "Why can't men be more faithful?". Well...let's break this down shall we? Humans, are animals, a subspecies of primates to be exact. And in this evolutionary branch, and most others I might add, the male has only one purpose. To pass along his DNA, his...seed. This is a hormonal and mental state of mind for the male of any species.

Males in the animal kingdom very seldomly take the time to father a child and stick with it untill adulthood. They find a suitable partner, mate, and move on. This little, 'mate and move one' is in our very genes as males. Now, take into account that the males of all other species on this world don't have to deal with their womens constant arguing, and nagging. I bet you if a Tiger's wife asked him what the odd scent was on him, he would just bite her jugular out ^_^.

Can our primal urges be controlled? Of course. They're happily married couples all over the world. Just remember to sympathize with us first, before you go on a tangeant when you see us oogling another women. It's in our genes... wink

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have you noticed the finger on the picture Kai drew for me looks like she is fingerin someone?