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Eeeeeee! I love her so much! I love her I love her I love her. X3

I was feeling really miserable, and I had really missed talking to her after several weeks of no contact, so I was about to sign off... And right before I do, she signs in and she cheers me right back up. :3 She even bought me a KiKi Buddy out of the blue.

I love her so much, and I don't care who knows. X3

Yeah I just decided to pay this place a visit and see how it was doing.

Alright I'll be waiting!

I feel like pooo in a pancake thats been flipped continuously

The news often bothers me. They direct most of the newscast at the City itself. Yes, the City may be at the heart 3rd largest of the area. Yes, the stations are nearly all in the City. But by George, don't they realize that the viewing area is much larger that the City itself? So many of the people don't care about what the City is doing in regards to schools and warming centers! Yet, the rest of the viewing area is only mentioned if there's an event going on or if there's some sort of crime. Is it so much to want to hear about things around the area? Not to mention that the viewing area also contains the state's 2nd and 4th largest cities? And the 3rd largest has a viewing area that overlaps our own?

Wooooo good luck! owo!

I've been trying not to talk about my feelings, but whenever I hold it in I just get more and more depressed. But whenever I bring it up people just get upset. So, I guess I'll talk about it here. Nobody's going to listen and nobody's going to care, but oh well.

I look at everyone's posts in here and in the zCB, and I feel like the world is just fine without me. Like everyone's just going on their lives, and whenever I try to be part of the world instead of an outsider I just ******** things up. I just make things worse.

I know I'm not the only one suffering from depression. But I never see other people struggle with it. I never see other people making everyone upset because of their feelings. That's why I feel like it's all my fault, like I should just die and make the world a happier place without me.

I know I shouldn't bring up suicide anymore, but I don't know where else to go. My counselor's office was closed today. I'm sorry, everyone.

Let me just say that I've also had the same thoughts and feelings when I have been severely depressed. I find that things go horrible no matter what I do, but that might just be a skewed perspective brought on by the depression, I don't know. But s**t happens. Try to think of all your mistakes as a learning experience. No human is perfect and there is no way you can please everyone. Being a living human being isn't just about happiness. It's everything else that comes with living, which includes the mistakes, hurt feelings, etc.

You're right, zCB will go on with or without you, but the same could be said for a lot of people that post here. It's a community, but people come and leave.

I haven't been following what has been going on, so I don't know how you are pissing people off. It might be that people just don't want to hear about it or if people aren't responding, it's because they don't know what to say that wouldn't sound unfeeling or cruel. That is my opinion based off experience, but not yours, of course.

By the way, I don't think you've made any enemies here as far as I can tell. You're an active poster and people are respectful towards your opinions and people do like you. If they didn't, why would they respond to your threads? If people thought you were just an annoying nobody, there is always the ignore button. *shrugs*

I won't be able to give much advice as I have never been good at it. However, if you ever need to just vent, my PM box is open. I might not reply, but you can always check your outbox to see that I've read it at the very least. If I don't respond, it's probably because I don't know what to say.