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 Posted: Mon Jan 31, 2011 4:27 pm
I'm suddenly in a bad mood and I've no idea why.
I'm almost certain now that I'm PMSing for the second time this month. 0,é I've no idea what that means, though.... .__________.
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Posted: Mon Jan 31, 2011 4:44 pm
Foam-Dome Silent Sympathy Foam-Dome Silent Sympathy Foam-Dome ;3; Thanks... And likewise. <3 <333 I always feel awkward IMing people. I always feel like I'm bothering them. Same here. XD That's why I've only IMed you once so far. Really? xD I thought it was because I was lame. Naw, of course you're not lame! XD Hnnngh, feeling ronery sucks. ;3;At least someone thinks so. It really does. And I'm probably gonna feel worse come Vday...
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Posted: Mon Jan 31, 2011 4:46 pm
Silent Sympathy At least someone thinks so. It really does. And I'm probably gonna feel worse come Vday...What, you mean there's someone who doesn't think so? D: I probably will too, unless she signs on before then... emo
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Posted: Mon Jan 31, 2011 4:57 pm
Foam-Dome ;3; *huuuuuuuuuuggg* I was about to post this anyway, but my night was pretty similar. Whenever I go to bed, my mind wanders toward the touchier subjects, and I realize just how alone I am. emo No one calls me and invites me to do anything anymore. My friends hardly ever sign into AIM. The only place that is consistently active is the zCB, and when it has its inactive moments, I'm left to begin with the sucky feelings, which then make me feel even suckier, and soon it starts descending into this downward spiral of suck. Everyone around me is maturing and moving on to other things, and yet here I sit, being the same stubborn, lazy waste of space.
I've never really shared my innermost feelings with anyone, because the sappiness just drives them away. D:I used to be the same way, actually. I still go through those episodes, but they don't happen as often now. I'm not sure if what I'm about to say'll help or not. (And please let me know if I'm over-stepping my boundaries.) But, if it helps, take a breather, when that cycle starts. Think of it this way: You're not alone with your ways of thinking. If you realize that that cycle starts up, take a mental step back. (Trust me, it's easy to focus on the negative.) If you can, try to think of the things you enjoy. (Personally, I make a list of things I need to get done for the next day when that happens.) Or, if need be, come talk to me. Other than going to class, I don't have anything else to do. I may not be able to help, but just talking might help, even if it's only a bit. As for your friends, why not call them to set something up? I'm 100% guilty when it comes to neglecting my friends offline, mostly because I feel that they're busy with their own lives. Maybe your friends think the same thing for you? Honestly, I couldn't say. You know your friends better than I do. XD The worst you could get is a "No," right? I'm sure you know that sometimes, you have to take the initiative, or else the other person won't know how you feel. Same thing for your life. If you know what you don't like about yourself, fix it. The best way to fix it is to seek help. Sure, you can try to better yourself on your own, but if you don't know how to think, you'll go back to that same cycle of depression. And of course, things like that take time. There's no instant results when it comes to feelings and emotions. It's a process, which tends to work the sooner you start it. I don't know if you've had to go though that process once already, but maybe going again will help. I've gone through that process once, and going though it again may help me better understand myself and understand what I actually want to do with my life. Foam-Dome I believe that you're a truly nice person. ;3; Being understood involves a great deal of letting people into your personal bubble, though. XD I still think that's so I don't burden anyone. I wouldn't mind letting a few people in my personal bubble, but if they're not willing to step in, than what can I do? I couldn't go around complaining about every little detail to the people I know- that'll push 'em away. I just make it easier on myself and not say anything. owo I'm sure I contradicted myself in this post, but you get my point.
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Posted: Mon Jan 31, 2011 5:11 pm
Mew: That's the thing, though. Whenever I take a mental step back, I just step right in again. D:
The thing is, you can't help someone who won't help himself. I will do everything I can to avoid getting help or trying to take the initiative. I would rather just sit here and wait for the world to fix things somehow, even if such a deus ex machina solution would be impossible. I've been digging my own grave for years now, even though I've been aware of it the whole time. If I ever learn to take care of myself, be responsible, and be diligent, then it will be the hard way. (Like, say, if we run out of money or if my mom dies.)
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Posted: Mon Jan 31, 2011 5:18 pm
Foam-Dome Silent Sympathy At least someone thinks so. It really does. And I'm probably gonna feel worse come Vday...What, you mean there's someone who doesn't think so? D: I probably will too, unless she signs on before then... emo Most of the world. Awww. I know I should be the last person saying this, but have hope <3
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Posted: Mon Jan 31, 2011 5:23 pm
Silent Sympathy Foam-Dome Silent Sympathy At least someone thinks so. It really does. And I'm probably gonna feel worse come Vday...What, you mean there's someone who doesn't think so? D: I probably will too, unless she signs on before then... emo Most of the world. Awww. I know I should be the last person saying this, but have hope <3Well, then most of the world is stupid and lame. emo I've had hope for a while, but it's hard when she hasn't expressed even an iota of interest. D:
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Posted: Mon Jan 31, 2011 5:27 pm
I've noticed a lot of people treat me like a little kid who doesn't get how the world works.
I won't namedrop because that would be against the rules...
But comments like "That's just how the world works, dude" and "You aren't thinking straight" and "You just have to learn how to act" or whatever, that s**t really bothers me.
I'm not an idiot. I'm not a little kid. I don't need another ******** parent trying to tell me how the world works. I get it.
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Posted: Mon Jan 31, 2011 5:45 pm
Foam-Dome Well, then most of the world is stupid and lame. emo I've had hope for a while, but it's hard when she hasn't expressed even an iota of interest. D:Nah, just me. *Hugs* It's okay, I know the feeling. Just don't give up without a fight.
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Posted: Mon Jan 31, 2011 5:49 pm
Foam-Dome Mew: That's the thing, though. Whenever I take a mental step back, I just step right in again. D:
The thing is, you can't help someone who won't help himself. I will do everything I can to avoid getting help or trying to take the initiative. I would rather just sit here and wait for the world to fix things somehow, even if such a deus ex machina solution would be impossible. I've been digging my own grave for years now, even though I've been aware of it the whole time. If I ever learn to take care of myself, be responsible, and be diligent, then it will be the hard way. (Like, say, if we run out of money or if my mom dies.)
No no, that's understandable. I'm the same way. I'm sure I've said it once before, but if someone isn't willing to change, then you shouldn't press the matter. All you can do is express your concerns. But, you're not tired of it? I guess you lost me there... Well, why should it have to be the hard way? D: At least with money trouble, that can be prevented to an extent. If any of those things do happen, then what? I guess I'm trying to say that being forced to learn the hard way isn't always good. I wouldn't want anyone to be forced like that, as those types of situations can lead to something even worse down the road. Not that you'd do anything like that, mind you. I also had something harsh I wanted to say, but I'm not sure how you would react, so I'm leaving it alone for now. owo;
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Posted: Mon Jan 31, 2011 5:54 pm
MewWhite Foam-Dome Mew: That's the thing, though. Whenever I take a mental step back, I just step right in again. D:
The thing is, you can't help someone who won't help himself. I will do everything I can to avoid getting help or trying to take the initiative. I would rather just sit here and wait for the world to fix things somehow, even if such a deus ex machina solution would be impossible. I've been digging my own grave for years now, even though I've been aware of it the whole time. If I ever learn to take care of myself, be responsible, and be diligent, then it will be the hard way. (Like, say, if we run out of money or if my mom dies.)
No no, that's understandable. I'm the same way. I'm sure I've said it once before, but if someone isn't willing to change, then you shouldn't press the matter. All you can do is express your concerns. But, you're not tired of it? I guess you lost me there... Well, why should it have to be the hard way? D: At least with money trouble, that can be prevented to an extent. If any of those things do happen, then what? I guess I'm trying to say that being forced to learn the hard way isn't always good. I wouldn't want anyone to be forced like that, as those types of situations can lead to something even worse down the road. Not that you'd do anything like that, mind you. I also had something harsh I wanted to say, but I'm not sure how you would react, so I'm leaving it alone for now. owo; Silent Sympathy Foam-Dome Well, then most of the world is stupid and lame. emo I've had hope for a while, but it's hard when she hasn't expressed even an iota of interest. D:Nah, just me. *Hugs* It's okay, I know the feeling. Just don't give up without a fight.Nuh-uh, you lie! ;3; You're totally awesome. I don't plan to, but then I feel like a clingy, obsessed person who isn't capable of letting something go. emo
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Posted: Mon Jan 31, 2011 6:11 pm
Foam-Dome Nuh-uh, you lie! ;3; You're totally awesome. I don't plan to, but then I feel like a clingy, obsessed person who isn't capable of letting something go. emo Fibs.. Nothing but Fibs. Well, if anything you'll be able to tell when to let go.
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Posted: Mon Jan 31, 2011 6:16 pm
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Posted: Mon Jan 31, 2011 6:22 pm
Today was way too long and tiring... I got all of 4.5 hours of sleep last night, and it was horrible. Plus I'm sick, so I was just miserable all day. Then at the end of the day I came and sat down for dinner right as my friends were leaving, and now I want to go to sleep but it's too early. If I sleep now then tomorrow will be a bad day as well.... and I''m behind in homework (/stresses)
Also, I apparently inadvertently agreed to go on a date with a friend of mine. As far as I thought about it we are just going skiing, doesn't seem like a date to me just someone who wanted company skiing. But my best friend and little sister are convinced it's a date.... until proven otherwise I intend to keep considering it as just an outing with a friend.
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Posted: Mon Jan 31, 2011 6:25 pm
Jikoniau
Today was way too long and tiring... I got all of 4.5 hours of sleep last night, and it was horrible. Plus I'm sick, so I was just miserable all day. Then at the end of the day I came and sat down for dinner right as my friends were leaving, and now I want to go to sleep but it's too early. If I sleep now then tomorrow will be a bad day as well.... and I''m behind in homework (/stresses)
Also, I apparently inadvertently agreed to go on a date with a friend of mine. As far as I thought about it we are just going skiing, doesn't seem like a date to me just someone who wanted company skiing. But my best friend and little sister are convinced it's a date.... until proven otherwise I intend to keep considering it as just an outing with a friend.
I really hope tomorrow isnt a bad day and is a good day for you =[
as for the skiing thing, nah its not a date unless heh they say its a date as in the invitation is kind of like"Would like to go out on a date with me or will you?" kind of thing.
Anyway maybe take a nap and then do Homework?
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