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 Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2011 8:41 pm
I've been having the worst mood swings ever. Ever since I've been on the iron tablets, but I have no idea how they could be affecting my emotional health. One moment I'm on an all-time high and really, really loving life, the next I feel like killing myself.
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2011 8:42 pm
cave_dweller_candy I've been having the worst mood swings ever. Ever since I've been on the iron tablets, but I have no idea how they could be affecting my emotional health. One moment I'm on an all-time high and really, really loving life, the next I feel like killing myself.
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2011 8:51 pm
XD Someone finally noticed. I just might. o3o Vinicius Fernagon So I went to the police station to get the forms for the restraining order like they told me to, and my ex was there. They immediately asked me to follow them into one of the offices and started asking me all kinds of questions. When I asked them what was up they told me that she had filed a restraining order against me because I supposedly used to abuse her and attempted to rape her. They then said that normally it would be too late for her to claim an attempted rape, we broke up like March of last year, but she kept saying that she feared for her life and that I'm an extremely violent person.
They said that a court date will be set up and I can dispute it then.
I've been shaking and crying ever since they told me that. I couldn't even ******** drive home, I had to have my friends come pick me up and drive my car home for me. I'm so damned stressed out right now that I'm coughing/throwing up blood.
I've had people do some pretty low things to me, but never like this. I don't even know why she'd say this crap. I would never do any of that stuff to a woman. It goes against everything I stand for.
I just don't know what to do anymore. I never expected this to turn out this way. I ******** give up. I don't want to deal with people anymore. It always just blows up in my face. I'm ******** done.
Speaking of evidence, do you have any against her? For instance, if she says that you did (something) at (time), would you have a piece of evidence (a timestamped photograph, a movie ticket with the date printed on it, etc.) to counter her claim?
As long as you keep your cool, find sufficient evidence, and don't say anything that she can use against you (including online), you should be fine.
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2011 8:58 pm
Making it invisible because it's long. Three pathetic "secrets" (School, myself, my feet) >.<I HATE MY CALC TEACHER! It's the same jackass I had last semester, and I hated him then, too. But he's the ONLY one teaching two of the math classes I need, so I figured I'd take one of them and just hope there will be a different teacher for the other one next semester. I'm a straight A student, and I barely managed an A- last semester, no thanks to him. I had to learn things on my own using the internet and work like 4877638764875x harder than I would normally have to. We have a quiz on Friday over a bunch of stuff he never taught us. I can tell already that this is going to be a repeat of last semester's bullshit. I gave him the worst review possible when I filled out the thing at the end of the semester, too. I was hoping his a** would get fired -_-
I wish I could turn off the part of my brain that gets offended by everything. I can't even watch TV without like flipping out over a Twix commercial or noticing the stupid stereotypes used in sitcoms. Things I never used to even notice now make me flip out. But I still continue to educate myself about feminism and everything. I can't help itttt! But sometimes I really wish I could flip a switch in my brain to just... turn it off for a while. To sit back and be ignorant and just enjoy myself without constantly being on edge or offended by something. I hate that I can't control my anger when I get like that. I want to go back to being oblivious D=
And OMG MY FEET HURT SO ******** BAD! It's not like an "I was on my feet all day, so they're kind of sore" pain like it used to be. Now it's a "There's something seriously wrong and I'm wincing with every step that I take and stepping down off the bus is enough to make me collapse" kind of pain. The bones in both of my big toes hurt. My arches hurt. Everything ******** hurts, and not just on the surface. It hurts deep down. Something is seriously WRONG T_____T
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2011 9:01 pm
Little Miss Fortune Making it invisible because it's long. Three pathetic "secrets" (School, myself, my feet) >.<I HATE MY CALC TEACHER! It's the same jackass I had last semester, and I hated him then, too. But he's the ONLY one teaching two of the math classes I need, so I figured I'd take one of them and just hope there will be a different teacher for the other one next semester. I'm a straight A student, and I barely managed an A- last semester, no thanks to him. I had to learn things on my own using the internet and work like 4877638764875x harder than I would normally have to. We have a quiz on Friday over a bunch of stuff he never taught us. I can tell already that this is going to be a repeat of last semester's bullshit. I gave him the worst review possible when I filled out the thing at the end of the semester, too. I was hoping his a** would get fired -_-
I wish I could turn off the part of my brain that gets offended by everything. I can't even watch TV without like flipping out over a Twix commercial or noticing the stupid stereotypes used in sitcoms. Things I never used to even notice now make me flip out. But I still continue to educate myself about feminism and everything. I can't help itttt! But sometimes I really wish I could flip a switch in my brain to just... turn it off for a while. To sit back and be ignorant and just enjoy myself without constantly being on edge or offended by something. I hate that I can't control my anger when I get like that. I want to go back to being oblivious D=
And OMG MY FEET HURT SO ******** BAD! It's not like an "I was on my feet all day, so they're kind of sore" pain like it used to be. Now it's a "There's something seriously wrong and I'm wincing with every step that I take and stepping down off the bus is enough to make me collapse" kind of pain. The bones in both of my big toes hurt. My arches hurt. Everything ******** hurts, and not just on the surface. It hurts deep down. Something is seriously WRONG T_____T ...Dr. Scholl's?
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2011 9:05 pm
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2011 9:05 pm
Foam-Dome Silent Sympathy I need to get out of my house one way or another. Whether it be through the front door or my bedroom window and for three stories, we're pretty high up. This snow is irritating me to an other worldly extent and my mind is already a hot mess. Where God? Where is my relief? When do I get my break? Or am I going to start that bad habit up again? *Sigh* I can make it even more of a hot mess if you want m- *shot* Bad habit? ;3; That sounds worrisome. Why are you so awesome!? Don't worry, I never take it to extremes..
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2011 9:05 pm
Little Miss Fortune
And OMG MY FEET HURT SO ******** BAD! It's not like an "I was on my feet all day, so they're kind of sore" pain like it used to be. Now it's a "There's something seriously wrong and I'm wincing with every step that I take and stepping down off the bus is enough to make me collapse" kind of pain. The bones in both of my big toes hurt. My arches hurt. Everything ******** hurts, and not just on the surface. It hurts deep down. Something is seriously WRONG T_____T
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2011 9:10 pm
Yes, actually. As of like two days ago XD
@Cave: I want toooo, but my mom thinks I should just try the insert things for a while first... They aren't going to fix the stuff that's already messed up, though. XP
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2011 9:12 pm
Silent Sympathy Foam-Dome Silent Sympathy I need to get out of my house one way or another. Whether it be through the front door or my bedroom window and for three stories, we're pretty high up. This snow is irritating me to an other worldly extent and my mind is already a hot mess. Where God? Where is my relief? When do I get my break? Or am I going to start that bad habit up again? *Sigh* I can make it even more of a hot mess if you want m- *shot* Bad habit? ;3; That sounds worrisome. Why are you so awesome!? Don't worry, I never take it to extremes..Because I know what you like. ;D *shot again* Is it what I'm thinking of? ;3;
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2011 9:14 pm
Little Miss Fortune
Yes, actually. As of like two days ago XD
@Cave: I want toooo, but my mom thinks I should just try the insert things for a while first... They aren't going to fix the stuff that's already messed up, though. XPInsoles? If the pain's that bad I doubt they'll help that much x-x
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2011 9:20 pm
cave_dweller_candy Little Miss Fortune
Yes, actually. As of like two days ago XD
@Cave: I want toooo, but my mom thinks I should just try the insert things for a while first... They aren't going to fix the stuff that's already messed up, though. XPInsoles? If the pain's that bad I doubt they'll help that much x-x
Idk. If I had them all along, maybe they would have helped prevent it. But it's already gotten reallyreallyreeeally bad... Apparently I walk stupidly (I'm not even sure what it is that I do wrong ._.) and being fat means a lot of weight is being put on my feet when I'm working, so it's probably not a good combination to have a lot of weight put onto the wrong parts of my feet... I want to go see the doctor sooooon =(
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2011 9:22 pm
Foam-Dome Silent Sympathy Foam-Dome Silent Sympathy I need to get out of my house one way or another. Whether it be through the front door or my bedroom window and for three stories, we're pretty high up. This snow is irritating me to an other worldly extent and my mind is already a hot mess. Where God? Where is my relief? When do I get my break? Or am I going to start that bad habit up again? *Sigh* I can make it even more of a hot mess if you want m- *shot* Bad habit? ;3; That sounds worrisome. Why are you so awesome!? Don't worry, I never take it to extremes..Because I know what you like. ;D *shot again* Is it what I'm thinking of? ;3;*Hides the gun* Oh, baby. Don't go divulging all my secrets. ;3 What are you thinking?
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2011 9:22 pm
Little Miss Fortune cave_dweller_candy Little Miss Fortune
Yes, actually. As of like two days ago XD
@Cave: I want toooo, but my mom thinks I should just try the insert things for a while first... They aren't going to fix the stuff that's already messed up, though. XPInsoles? If the pain's that bad I doubt they'll help that much x-x
Idk. If I had them all along, maybe they would have helped prevent it. But it's already gotten reallyreallyreeeally bad... Apparently I walk stupidly (I'm not even sure what it is that I do wrong ._.) and being fat means a lot of weight is being put on my feet when I'm working, so it's probably not a good combination to have a lot of weight put onto the wrong parts of my feet... I want to go see the doctor sooooon =(reallyreallyreeeally bad? You shooould go see the doctor soon D=
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Posted: Wed Jan 26, 2011 9:23 pm
If life is supposed to be a cabaret then I'm at the wrong club.
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