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 Posted: Sun Jan 23, 2011 4:47 pm
Kamilucis -Mizu teh Artsi- Kamilucis -Mizu teh Artsi- Kamilucis My heart is bleeding
I cant cry sometimes maybe its my hearts way of crying for me
because Im in soo much emotional and physical pain
I wish I could make my dad go poof,
I wish I was a better person and I could just make everything right and good
but nothing is like so everything is difficult
I should go to a hospital but I m terrified to go
Imma just sit here and think
I shouldnt think I think the worst possibility heh =/
I hate the fact, I m weird, I hate it that everything hurts
You need to make sure you're taking care of yourself for everyone, because we don't want you to go doing something and then hurting yourself more ;o; So even if you need to go to the hospital for something, do it. Gets you better faster.I wont be seen in the next 15hours heh
I know I should I guess I m just confused and tired and Im not sure where I belong, What Im meant to be or do and Im letting stuff my dads been saying to me stick to me heh
heh He said I d be next to go =/ and that its better for everyone if i was gone
Don't let your dad d**k around with who you really are, because you don't deserve anything like that, you are the better person here. You do what you want to do, you do what you need to do to do it, and that's that. Don't let whatever he's saying drive you to think you're nothing when to best friends you're something ;o; You belong here with us and with her, and if I had the money I'd be giving you a ticket over to Canada faster than anything else, and so would everyone else!
I guess my nightmares just make me focus on him alot and it makes me scared to sleep heh, because heh I has bad past with my dad heh
Don't let them make you lose sleep or lose all confidence in yourself D; vent with friends about it, let things go.
I know that before I go to sleep I make sure I've cleared my mind of it all, via venting or talking to someone and that always helps me owo;
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Posted: Sun Jan 23, 2011 4:51 pm
...My usual good mood seems shot. Everything feels monochromatic and dull.
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Posted: Sun Jan 23, 2011 6:28 pm
Everyone who knows what's going on is telling me it's bad idea. I've been telling myself bad idea from the beginning. Part of me isn't listening, it's the part that's reminding me that everything they're saying now they said before and they were wrong.
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Posted: Sun Jan 23, 2011 7:05 pm
Having B's on my report card. Hopefully my tests can change that. My life is now flashing before my eyes crying
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Posted: Sun Jan 23, 2011 7:28 pm
Screaming at me and insulting me because you caught my cold isn't going to make it go away any faster, Mom. Neither is coming into my room while I'm sleeping and smacking me. Jedi Sasquatch Cannibal Horsey Jedi Sasquatch I hate this place.
I hate what this place does to me.
I didn't want it to be true but it is. Everything about the interactions in this place remind me of why I hate myself and why I hate the life I live.
Don't know if I'll stick around anymore. Leaving would probably be good for this place anyway.
Don't you dare Jedi! You shouldn't hate yourself, you're a lovely person! And I would most certainly call you one of my friends here. Don't go away!
Thanks... But I'm to the point now where I'm starting to hate others that are in relationships just because they have what I don't have, what I can't have. It bothers me more and more each day, and I don't want to feel that resentment anymore.
It's stupid of me to feel like this, I know...
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Posted: Sun Jan 23, 2011 7:56 pm
Jedi Sasquatch Everything about the interactions in this place remind me of why I hate myself and why I hate the life I live.
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Posted: Sun Jan 23, 2011 7:57 pm
D:
/dopes Foamy up on anti-histamine
8D
You'd better get well soon, Foamy! <<
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Posted: Sun Jan 23, 2011 8:01 pm
Thank you astrology for reminding me of why I'm so crazy about her. I needed that.
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Posted: Sun Jan 23, 2011 8:18 pm
I can not believe I did that.
I know I was a d**k but it took some courage to do that.
I'm proud of my self... a little bit guilty, but proud.
I have not felt this good in a while.
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Posted: Sun Jan 23, 2011 10:22 pm
cave_dweller_candy D: /dopes Foamy up on anti-histamine 8D You'd better get well soon, Foamy! << Woo~! 8D *loopy* Actually, I'm already starting to get better. XD The worst part of the cold has passed.
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Posted: Sun Jan 23, 2011 10:24 pm
Foam-Dome cave_dweller_candy D: /dopes Foamy up on anti-histamine 8D You'd better get well soon, Foamy! << Woo~! 8D *loopy* Actually, I'm already starting to get better. XD The worst part of the cold has passed. 8DD Yay!
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Posted: Mon Jan 24, 2011 12:21 am
cave_dweller_candy Jedi Sasquatch Everything about the interactions in this place remind me of why I hate myself and why I hate the life I live.
This doesn't mean you guys should cut down on the lovey dovey relationship talk, it means that I either have to suck it up and get over it or leave. I don't know which yet.
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Posted: Mon Jan 24, 2011 12:46 am
Jedi Sasquatch cave_dweller_candy Jedi Sasquatch Everything about the interactions in this place remind me of why I hate myself and why I hate the life I live.
This doesn't mean you guys should cut down on the lovey dovey relationship talk, it means that I either have to suck it up and get over it or leave. I don't know which yet.
You could just skip reading the relationship talk.>>
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Posted: Mon Jan 24, 2011 12:51 am
cave_dweller_candy Jedi Sasquatch cave_dweller_candy Jedi Sasquatch Everything about the interactions in this place remind me of why I hate myself and why I hate the life I live.
This doesn't mean you guys should cut down on the lovey dovey relationship talk, it means that I either have to suck it up and get over it or leave. I don't know which yet.
You could just skip reading the relationship talk.>>
I don't want to elaborate because I don't want to break the rules of this thread or whatever, but suffice it to say I've tried and it doesn't really help.
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Posted: Mon Jan 24, 2011 12:54 am
Jedi Sasquatch cave_dweller_candy Jedi Sasquatch cave_dweller_candy Jedi Sasquatch Everything about the interactions in this place remind me of why I hate myself and why I hate the life I live.
This doesn't mean you guys should cut down on the lovey dovey relationship talk, it means that I either have to suck it up and get over it or leave. I don't know which yet.
You could just skip reading the relationship talk.>>
I don't want to elaborate because I don't want to break the rules of this thread or whatever, but suffice it to say I've tried and it doesn't really help.
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